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If you are male, or you don't like to read about human nature and a female's "time of the month", you probably do not want to read this particular post. I want to write about everything involved in my life that sobriety affects.

Today, I have been sober for 12 days. It has been quite the mental challenge. My new iPhone X won't turn on for a few days now, which is a nightmare because I don't have a working phone, so that doesn't help my situation. I have been dealing...

I know, it's not manly of me. But I'm finishing my last drink. Grape soda mixed with whipped flavored vodka. This is going to be so hard. I've been adversarial and angry at people who tried to help me. I've wasted years of my life doing this stuff. It's going to be so hard to quit. I'm going to be so unhappy. How am I supposed to face what I've done to my life without some way of forgetting about it and escaping? What the h*ll am I going to do? Am I just supposed to be unhappy for the rest...

Have you ever body surfed in the ocean when there was an impending storm? I did on vacation last week... And since I'm the daring water kind of person, I loved it! (I guess I'm just daring in general). My friends all went in to shore, just too wimpy I said...

Before long I found my self about a mile down beach. I was so busy having fun and enjoying the elements that I ignored the danger. I thought it was ok because there were a few other daring people out. Some windsurfing...

Seasonal Affective Disorder and Sobriety

Like clockwork SAD is upon me like Churchill's black dog following him around. The nights are long and days short. It has been cold and gloomy since November, more cloud cover than sunshine. The snow has come weekly. The wet days affect my bones. The clear days are bitter. I wake early between five and six. After lunch my body and mind shut down. It is common to sleep from 4 p.m. to 6 p.m., wake up, eat and go back to sleep. Because of a constant...