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DAY 57 - Free Bird

Posted 02-24-2019 at 07:23 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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My mood is somewhat stabilizing. I don't feel like I am on a roller coaster of emotions anymore. I don't feel bat sh*t crazy. It was extremely bad in the beginning, especially the first 30 days. I am close to 2 months sober now and not having to plan my days around my depression, anger, anxiety, loneliness and sadness. I am rarely having to fight off childhood memories, I think that's best part of reaching this far. I am able to be intimate with my husband, and actually allow myself to enjoy...
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Entry 1: Day 4 - shadows of things

Posted 05-08-2017 at 10:24 AM by SoberInStAlbans

As a pale, skinny and withdrawn child I could feel the impending move to WV. My parents had divorced 4 years before when I was 8.

There was something there. It was a sensation, a feeling. It felt like a knot in my chest or a gaping maw of blackness, it's smoky black tendrils spiraling outward.

I walked down to the local Harding's grocery store and bought a box of doughnuts. I came back home, likely alone in the house. I shut my door and opened the box. Sitting...
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Triggers and justifications? Doesn't matter when they are both lies

Posted 09-04-2016 at 11:04 AM by Lightning Bug (Sober Bug - Getting Sober to Achieving Recovery)

This post is about reflection, not something I am going through. It is an observation made now that I have a clear mind.

In active addiction I thought my main triggers were mostly of a big nature, like work, family stress, fights with the husband, criticism for something. I justified my drinking after these events because I honestly felt triggered.

What I am remembering now are the little everyday things that I thought were also triggers. I used the excuse "well...
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10 Months and The Lure of Moderation

Posted 05-13-2015 at 10:02 AM by SparkyMcSparky

Isn`t it amazing that when you quit drinking, everyone has an opinion for you? These opinions can range from "It's about time, man. You were getting out of control." to "You didn't have a problem."

After you've been sober for some time, these opinions change. Out with a friend I see a few dozen times during the year, he remarked when he saw me drinking a non-alcoholic drink, "Wow, are you still not drinking?"

My response, "Yep,...
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Overcoming Denial

Posted 09-29-2014 at 07:54 PM by SobrioVida (Recover, Rediscover, Redefine)

Most alcoholics, at least the ones that I've known, go through denial at least twice.

The first, and most obvious, is denying that you are actually an alcoholic. When you deny to yourself, out loud or in silence, that you are an alcoholic you've taken a huge step toward recovery. It might not seem like anything but you've subconsciously admitted it to yourself already just by thinking about it.

Non-alcoholics do not have to justify their drinking to anyone let alone...
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