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DAY 68 - 12 Pounds Down

Posted 03-07-2019 at 09:13 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I have lost 12 pounds and 13% body fat so far in 68 days. My tummy is flat! Hallelujah! My clothes fit so much better, plus I have more options now. My goal is to lose 13 more pounds. I am starting to have this amazing energy early in the morning through late at night. I am no longer lethargic. Alcohol stole so many years away from me. Alcohol suppressed me from living. Alcohol gave me a fat belly. Alcohol muted my dreams. Alcohol made me make the worst choices. Alcohol made me bitter....
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DAY 66 - An Inner Struggle

Posted 03-05-2019 at 01:00 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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An Inner Struggle

I am lost.
I cannot seem to remember what led me here.
I walk naked and barefoot carefully over a thin sheet of fragile ice that covers water.
My vision is blurred.
A grey darkness is above and all around me.
I am trying to stop shaking from the stabbing wind chills.
I feel so alone but nobody is close to me so I do not bother screaming for help.
I just move, because that is the only thing
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DAY 24 - The Bachelor

Posted 01-22-2019 at 01:04 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I am currently in the process of taking courses to obtain a Real Estate license. Sobriety has made this process a lot easier on me. It is SO much information, my head feels like it is going to explode. Since my sobriety, I don't have to manage hangovers and I have a clear head. I have been able to retain information a lot faster. I am scoring higher on benchmark tests. I can study hours at a time now.

I am currently at the end of the 4th course, and after I pass this course...
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DAY 18 - Marriage - An Alcoholic's Perspective

Posted 01-16-2019 at 08:36 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

Communication, forgiveness, kindness, compassion, respect, and trust; the absence of these attributes are detrimental to a marriage. Both parties should be trying their best every day to act on these characteristics for a healthy relationship.

I have been drunk so many times in the past 15 years of our relationship, too many to count, and I beat myself up for that each day. My husband is a very sensitive, loving, gentle, and kind man. He is my balance and he is my rock. I am...
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Day 27 - I'd rather...

Posted 04-11-2017 at 04:30 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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Dance at night on the dewy lawn,
Listen to a No Doubt song.

Tip toe through a field of butterflies,
Stand underneath the star lit skies.

Float on a tube down the river,
Get used to the water as I shiver.

Ride a bike on the boardwalk,
Meet new friends, hang out and talk.

Watch a punk band put on a fun show,
Sneak up to the very front row.

Hold my brand new baby for the first time,
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