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DAY 65 - South Beach Miami

Posted 03-04-2019 at 08:02 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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My husband flew my 14 y/o daughter and I out to Miami for this past weekend, he had been there all week for work. The benefit of having a husband traveling so much is that he has a ton of miles he can use to purchase tickets.

I managed to get the house, my daughter, the dogs and cat, and myself organized for just 2 nights away. Usually I am frantically running all over the place getting everyone ready for the trip with an open bottle of wine. This time I did it all sober, that...
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DAY 42 - Losing Hope

Posted 02-09-2019 at 09:39 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I was woken up at 3:00 am to my 20 y/o daughter's boyfriend FaceTiming me for help to deal with my wasted daughter trying to commit suicide. It lasted until 7:00 am. She is not in a good place, mentally. She needs help but she refuses. She is also selling her body for cash. She is embarrassed so she turned it all around on me today, and won't talk to me. Her boyfriend says she is acting like nothing even happened. I can't count how many times I have been woken up in the middle of the night...
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DAY 40 - Biopsy

Posted 02-07-2019 at 08:50 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I am a strawberry blonde with fair skin and freckles. On top of drinking like a fish I have also been to tanning beds when I was younger. I was young and dumb. I went to San Diego and Mexico a ton, while growing up in Arizona. Any 311 fans reading this? I laid out in that brutal sun with zero sunscreen, thinking peachy-pink reddish skin still looked better than pure, snow white skin. If only time machines were real, right? So far, since last year, I had 3 basil cell carcinomas cut out of...
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DAY 27 - Hang in there!

Posted 01-25-2019 at 08:52 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

If you are totally stressed out, nothing is going right, your memories are haunting you, you are not appreciated for all your hard work, and life just currently sucks....

DO NOT DRINK!

You CAN get through the night! All the emotions that are on fire will subside eventually. Feel the pain, feel the burn, so you can wake up in the morning and be PROUD of who you are and what you can accomplish! Don't ever go back to Day 1, ever again.
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DAY 20 - 'Twisted Repeat'

Posted 01-18-2019 at 10:31 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

Twisted Repeat

In the dark I lay down and close my eyes,
I try not to listen to the demon's lies.

I am paralyzed and frozen from the fear,
Is that a dark figure holding a shear?

I pile up blankets and pillows for protection,
A scary beast lurks near with a creepy flexion.

I attempt to force these images from my mind,
As a creature crawls above with a snake twined.

I wake in the new morning feeling
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