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And again...

Posted 05-27-2017 at 07:07 AM by mystified

I've been a member of this site for almost 3 years and I'm still on and off the wagon.

Why is it so hard to NOT do something, especially when you know it's not good for you?
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Back again

Posted 04-08-2016 at 12:58 AM by mystified

So I dabbled with moderation again.

And failed. Again.

Just because I've 'only' been drunk 4 times between Nov 2015 and March this year, doesn't mean I don't have a problem.

I was sober 8 months prior to the failed moderation experiment.

Last time I drank I didn't even like how I felt before I was even 1/3 of the way through the first glass. I finished it anyway. Then went on to finish the rest of the bottle even after I'd sworn I wouldn't....
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1440

Posted 05-16-2015 at 11:23 PM by mystified

Just thinking about that number.

1440.

What if 1440 were credited to my bank every morning but anything left unspent wasn't carried over to the next day? I can't save it to use another time, if I don't spend it, it disappears.

Truth is LIFE works in that way. It's not money, its something so much more important. It's TIME.

How did I get to 42 years old and not realise that time is finite? I've taken the gift of time for granted for...
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Day 35

Posted 04-20-2015 at 11:26 PM by mystified

<whispers> I'm doing Great. Not just 'OK' anymore, 'Great' with a capital G.

I (mostly) love my life, top to bottom, inside and out (a little help with the laundry would go a long way but I've got long arms that are good for big hugs as well as huge loads of laundry so it's fine) and I've never felt this way before - if I have I don't remember it.

I wake up with gratitude and feeling hopeful about the day, I have energy enough to get me through mothering 3...
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weird headspace

Posted 04-11-2015 at 11:54 PM by mystified

I'm finding it difficult to put into words what I'm feeling.

My sobriety is 100% intact and I have 0 desire to drink.

It's like it's too easy.

And that scares me.

And I'm finding some posts here difficult reading. I had someone on ignore the other day because their posts were bothering me.

I want to help but I don't know how and at 26 days would I have any credibility anyway?

In general the people here...
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