Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.
DAY 60 - Severe Depression
Posted 02-27-2019 at 05:26 PM by LoveHateMerlot
I am so tired of these random days where I barely can crawl out of bed in the morning to make breakfast and take my daughter to school. I didn't shower today, I couldn't even get out of my sweats. I am currently waiting on the Real Estate Commission to send me a date to take my licensing exam. I have an appointment this Monday to meet with a top Real Estate Agency to become one of their Real Estate Agents. I should be celebrating 60 sober days today. My biopsy on my breast came back normal. I should be elated all of this is happening. I worked hard to get here, too. I should feel proud of myself. I don't though. Instead I feel like I can't breathe, I am alone, I feel unimportant. I feel like I don't belong here. I feel like I'm wasting away. Why the f*ck am I here.
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