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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

LoveHateMerlot
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DAY 45 - Mood Swinging

Posted 02-12-2019 at 09:30 AM by LoveHateMerlot

Sober is slowly becoming a norm for me now. I am invited to start 'Girl, Wash Your Face' at my neighbor's book club tonight. I am super excited to be surrounded by new people. I love getting the opportunity to meet new friends. My neighbor told me, "...and I'll have wine!". Of course you will have wine, that's what society expects at a women's social gathering.

We are both fairly new to the neighborhood, so I haven't had a chance to hang out with her yet, this will be the first time. I am so happy that the first time we hang out, I'll be sober. I won't be worried about drinking too much wine and then making an absolute jerk of myself.

I have a lot crappy things going on in my life right now, out of my control, and despite my efforts to stay positive I had shut down the past 2 days. My mood swings are insane. The sun came out today, so that's good news because that means it brightens and lightens my mood. Sunshine is like crack for my soul. I woke up today ready to take on the world again, with a positive attitude. I choose to not let all the negative crap, that I cannot control, bum me out today. I will just focus on the good things going on in my life, like; my last test for real estate is rescheduled for 2pm today, my relationship with my 14 y/o daughter is amazing, and I am super excited about this book club tonight.

Keep on trucking...
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