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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

LoveHateMerlot
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DAY 34 - Pretty Stoked

Posted 02-01-2019 at 09:11 PM by LoveHateMerlot
Tags happy , positive , sober , wine , wino

I managed to work on real estate school stuff ALL day long. Texas requires 180 hours. I am now about to take my big exam for Course 5 (there are 6 courses), and then my licensing exam after that. Reality is slowly setting in. Soon I will be around adults again in the outside world. That sounds pretty frightening to me right now. I am a different kind of person, and I don't click with everyone. I can't really help it. I try very hard to be normal, and then I'll f*ck it up by accidentally saying something so stupid and end up offending someone. Every time. It's better to have a drink in my hand, to blame it on the booze. When I am sober, it's just that I am weird, kooky, unique, special, spacey, etc.

I have consistently been positive again today, it's actually really great. I am still making a big effort to recognize my negative thoughts and turn them into a positive thought instead. It really does work.

Nighty, night!
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