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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

LoveHateMerlot
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DAY 32 - Super Bowl

Posted 01-30-2019 at 01:21 PM by LoveHateMerlot

With all the hoopla of the Super Bowl coming up this Sunday, I am endlessly reminded that I cannot drink. My life is a fart. I am going to be totally honest, it's been weighing on me, heavily. Going to a Super Bowl party is like diving into a deep ocean full of booze. You can't escape it, it's all around you. I am trying to convince myself that I will have a great time without booze, and that takes a lot of energy.

So I am going to take the time today in this blog to work through the good and the bad and the ugly, in order to find grace and what I have to be thankful for, instead of bitching and being so negative.

What am I so unhappy about right now?

I can't drink.
I have been sick for over a week.
My sister will not take my niece to school.
Having intimacy issues with my husband.
Tired of real estate school.
I hate doing most of the responsibilities.
Worried about getting my liver tested.
Pimples are all over my face all of a sudden.
I am fighting off irritability every night.
Memories are too vivid and haunt me.

How can I reassess my perception on these items above to help myself with a positive outlook?

Why want something that almost killed me.
I am starting to feel a lot less sick today.
My sister is making her own choices.
I will try to be intimate with my husband.
I am near the end of real estate school.
I need to make a family chore chart.
My liver just might be ok.
There is evidence my detoxing is working.
Going shopping tonight to get out of a funk.
My past does not own nor make me.
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