DAY 22 - Lying to a Doctor - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information


Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

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DAY 22 - Lying to a Doctor

Posted 01-20-2019 at 08:05 AM by LoveHateMerlot
Tags damage , doctor , hope , liver , pain

I had been experiencing liver pain the past couple years. It's been a significant factor in my decision to quit for life. I recently wrote a post about how I am trying to repair my liver. I have mild, acute pain on my right side, under my rib cage, after taking supplements and vitamins or eating. It's not debilitating, I just know it's there. I have not been to the doctor yet to get checked out. The reason is because I am embarrassed. I told my doctor last year on my annual check up that I drank 3 drinks per week; a BIG fat lie. It was more like 6 drinks per night. I am sure he looked at me and could already tell. I wanted to get a good chunk of sobriety before I schedule my next appointment, because I know he is going to ask. I am going to have to be honest with my doctor.

For the past 3 weeks, I have been detoxing my liver by abstaining from alcohol, working out, drinking lots of lemon water, ACV, green smoothies, taking many supplements and enzymes, staying away from fried foods and eating a healthy diet. I have been doing everything I can to help reverse the damage from alcohol. I know it's not realistic to be able to reverse 20 years of alcoholism in 3 weeks.

Yesterday, after 3 weeks of detoxing, my liver pain has FINALLY significantly decreased. Again, my liver pain was never excruciating; it has always been mild, but it had been increasing. I woke up this morning with ZERO liver pain. If I concentrate I can still point to it, but it's barely there. I am hopeful that I may be okay. With this new hope I will stay on this healthy path and new daily regimen. I will also make a doctor's appointment to confess to the doctor that I was lying this entire time and need testing on all my organs. I am incredibly ashamed of my past and choices, but I need to just suck it up. Why am I so worried about a doctor's opinion of me? I don't get it. I don't have any reason to care so much what he thinks. I feel nauseous now, and I haven't even made the appointment yet.
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    LoveHateMerlot's Avatar
    #liver #repair #damage #reverse #pain #sober #alcoholic #help #hope #survivor #disease #alcoholism
    Posted 01-20-2019 at 08:07 AM by LoveHateMerlot LoveHateMerlot is offline
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    Even without liver pain, i was diagnosed with fatty liver. Doctors won't argue with you or play investigator. Doing the most you can heal would include getting all the diagnostics needed and doing every thing it takes to stay sober. Honesty, guilt, shame, none of those feelings really matter to your liver. Im glad you have an appointment to get checked out. Sending my support and empathy

    Ps. Be careful with the suppliments. Dosages arent standard or scientifically tested and they can often be more damaging than helpful
    Posted 01-20-2019 at 08:47 AM by nmd nmd is offline
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    Hey thank you for your support! I'm so sorry you were diagnosed with fatty liver disease. It's definitely better than cirrhosis, though, and you still have a chance to repair. I am so curious, because I may be in the same boat. Do you mind if I ask? How long ago was your diagnosis of a fatty liver? If you did not experience pain, why and how did they find your fatty liver disease? Are you currently taking the measures now to aid in the reverse of the damage? How long have you been sober? Has there been improvement to your liver since you were diagnosed?

    I am pretty positive I have liver damage, without a diagnosis yet. The fear, among many other things, is a drive to keep me sober.

    I plan on getting an entire diagnostic of my entire body, not just my liver. I am sure my brain, heart, pancreas, kidneys, etc have all taken a hit. I will share my results after I confess to my doctor what I have really been up to. My doctor did clear my supplements last year, we had a long conversation about the benefits of turmeric, dandelion, garlic, apple cider vinegar, lemon, a multivitamin ...nothing too crazy :-)
    Posted 01-20-2019 at 11:48 AM by LoveHateMerlot LoveHateMerlot is offline

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