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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

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DAY 20 - 'Twisted Repeat'

Posted 01-18-2019 at 10:31 AM by LoveHateMerlot

Twisted Repeat

In the dark I lay down and close my eyes,
I try not to listen to the demon's lies.

I am paralyzed and frozen from the fear,
Is that a dark figure holding a shear?

I pile up blankets and pillows for protection,
A scary beast lurks near with a creepy flexion.

I attempt to force these images from my mind,
As a creature crawls above with a snake twined.

I wake in the new morning feeling reborn,
But my identity is gone, shattered and torn.

So many years I have wasted away,
I cannot bare to look at these scars today.

I start to panic that I do not know who I am,
Am I forgotten like a slaughtered lamb?

The sun beams starts to pierce my face,
My eyes slowly open at a soft pace.

The room is empty, the monsters have gone,
Leaving me for the day, to carry on.

I search for answers and guidance to find my way,
Not understanding who I am this day.

In the dark I lay down and close my eyes,
I try not to listen to the demon's lies.
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    Posted 01-18-2019 at 10:33 AM by LoveHateMerlot LoveHateMerlot is offline
 


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