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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

LoveHateMerlot
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DAY 11 - Hope

Posted 01-09-2019 at 07:24 AM by LoveHateMerlot
Tags hope , libido , sober , wine , wino

This morning I woke up to my 6:00 am alarm with no problem! Wow!
I woke up with a positive attitude and a smile on my face. I haven't felt this great in a very long time. I will not take this feeling for granted and will use this power to give my life a boost. So I set quite a few goals for the day. Mainly school, I'm working on the 4th Real Estate education course, 2 more courses to go before I get my license, and it's been long and grueling! Today I see the light at the end of the tunnel! Also I love art, I haven't painted for a year, so I am forcing myself to pull out an empty canvas tonight.

I want to use this sunshine in my soul and abundance of energy to be productive, you never know how long it will last, so I am going to keep this post short and sweet and get some sh*t done!

I have an update on my status of the absence of a libido. For anyone struggling with losing a desire while going sober, I feel you. I have not had any desire to be intimate with my husband since DAY 1. I have felt ugly and dirty, such raw feelings, despite my husband's efforts. I went to bed last night tired, craving wine, feeling empty, and had so much anxiety over my liver, pancreas, heart, brain, and kidneys. I pushed him away.

This morning I woke up brand new, energized, refreshed and ready to kick some booty. Do you know what else I feel? Ready for "that talk in the bedroom" when he gets home from work tonight

Hey, the hopes and desires may only return briefly, but when they do CEASE THE DAY.

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