DAY 7 - Bring on the testing. - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read




Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

LoveHateMerlot
Rate this Entry

DAY 7 - Bring on the testing.

Posted 01-05-2019 at 12:02 PM by LoveHateMerlot

Here it is. Test day.

My very good friend, who is also my drinking buddy, and I have daughters who are the same age and are close as well. It makes it fun to let them hang out while we get to hang out, too. Usually it consists of them playing games on the computer, while we split a bottle of Prosecco and a cheese plate watching the latest housewives episodes. Nothing crazy, I keep it legit when I have precious cargo. This is also over a 4 hour span, with water, so I do have some control when it comes to my children.

Today my daughter and I are going for a visit to see them. We are making macarons and having a bbq. But, I am sober. I have already told my friend that I am not drinking, but she seems to forget that a lot, or pretends to forget. I have actually broken my sobriety due to being told I can have a glass, it won't hurt anything, just have one glass of wine. LOL. Right.

So I have a mission to just be sober today. I have made a choice in my life that is MY choice and nobody else's choice. I can do what I want to do. I don't need anyone ruining this for me by telling me that I can handle something when I already know I cannot. I believe in my soul that we were created to overcome our demons, our challenges in life. I am so determined to carry on no matter how hard it is.

Today it's a special day for me. Today I get to be in control. Today I GET to say no to wine, the demon that has had it's grimy claws coiled around me like a snake, suffocating me. You will not have power and control over me. Not anymore. Not ever again.

I pray to God today to please give me the strength to stay on this journey that I have chosen to set foot on.
Posted in Diary of Wino
Views 50 Comments 0
Total Comments 0

Comments

 


All times are GMT -7. The time now is 04:05 AM.