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Tempting.

Posted 04-19-2014 at 01:27 PM by jakec

Dad's in the shower.
I could look at porn, or go on the hookup site "just to see who's online"

I admit that-
I'm powerless over my addiction-

Looking back, how has my addiction manifested itself? Drugs, Alcohol, sex, porn, etc.

"Oh, but porn/sex isn't drugs, nothing bad will happen"

Technically it isn't a drug, for most people. How has my sex/porn use affected me? -

-End up using drugs...
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March 30th, 2014

Posted 03-30-2014 at 11:49 AM by jakec

I'm so glad I got through yesterday clean. I was feeling extremely screwed up from my situation all day and at the end of the night getting high seemed like a good idea because I didn't want to feel. I thought back to last weekend when I wanted to feel different through drugs but I kept it to myself and ended up using, so this time I called my sponsor right away(for the 3rd time that day lol) and immediately felt better.

Today has been pretty solid. Went to a breakfast at the NA...
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Ughhh

Posted 03-29-2014 at 02:44 PM by jakec

unmanageable.

I'm posting this to my blog because it feels too embarrassing to post on the forum.

I've become extremely emotionally attached/obsessed with a staff member at the treatment facility I'm in. It's so f*cking pathetic I could just die. I literally just friggin stalked him on the internet, looking through all of his pictures and videos on twitter. I was literally shaking and being overwhelmed with feelings of rage, jealousy, and hopelessness when I saw videos...
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Why

Posted 03-22-2014 at 04:00 PM by jakec

I'm not using drugs, but the insanity is still there.

God, help me.
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So grateful

Posted 03-15-2014 at 12:05 PM by jakec

That I get to enjoy quality time with my family.

That I'm able to laugh and smile again.

That little things like fresh air and pleasant smelling shampoo make me happy.

I would never be able to experience any of these little gifts if I was using.

For that I'm grateful.
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