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Things pass, but when they are happening, they are insane

Posted 12-23-2011 at 08:43 AM by eddie73

I have just gone thru a very very tough and traumatic week on my recovery. if it has done nothing else, it has taught me that it is never 100% easy to be sober, but sometimes it is almost if not as hard being sober as it is when drinking, in the early part of recovery anyway.

That is the way I have felt for much of the last 4 months. I have quit hopefully for good this time, and although I am confident about my prospects of doing this, by going to meetings and doing the steps, I feel afraid that sobriety is exposing many weaknesses in my character and they are nigh impossible to deal with. I have heard of people doing steps and redoing steps, only to be in a corner still, after 3 years of sobriety. This is very worrying. I mulled over this all week. i fed the rumination mill that is my mind all week with it. My alcoholism took great delight in this, and compounded it with some wonderful insomnia and loss of appetite. I wondered was it worth living. The mill wheel spun noisily and voilently shook all week. Until today. there is stillness. there is a bit of reason and dare I say it, peace. there is nothing at all to be gained from this sort of rumination. I will have to learn how to control it before it turns me into a puppet of some description.
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