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In Native American culture the Raven was called upon in ritual so that visions could be clarified. Native holy men understood that what the physical eye sees, is not necessarily the truth, and he would call upon the Raven for clarity in these matters. The Raven is also the keeper of secrets.

Due to the fascinating transitions the Frog goes through in its life, it is a symbol of metamorphosis. Furthermore, the Frog’s dual time spent on land and water represents duality of the soul.

-Info from symbolic-meanings .com

The fox is thought by many ancient cultures to be a messenger between our world and spirit world.
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Posted 11-09-2011 at 04:39 PM by adore79

I wrote this last week thinking i would post it in this blog but of course i put it off until today.

Hi all. It's been while since Ive been to this blog. I see that for some reason
I deleted all teh past blogs that where actual statements and meaningful life
occurances and started copy/pasting worthless boring facts about alcohol and mental
health that only a person who wasnt suffering would find find useful, and then only on
an intellectual level at that. SHeesh, what was I thinking? I was probalby in some state o
of denial. Maybe I tried to replace real work on personal progress with what really
amounts to plain old plagarism. Oh well.

I have a lot to say and no one left to say it to so I've decided to put it here and
share with everyone and no one. I doubt it will mean much to anyone exept myself so
I appologize in advance if you read through it all and end up deeming it a waste of time.

As some people on here know I am a schizophrenic (diagnosis type- disorganized). The
psychotic symptoms (delusions, halluciantions) began when i was 27, about four years ago.
Since then I have had two psychotic episodes each of which lasted almost a year, and a
plus a number of shorter episodes. I am not going to go into specifics about the
nature of the delusions and all that. Suffice it to say that they were pretty normal
symptoms of psychosis.

Its been a long time now since Ive had major symptoms and I spend a lot of time, a LOT
of time thinking about, pondering, reliving, just trying to make sense of what happened. At the same
time I am completely aware of the fact that I cannot and will never understand it
for the sole reason that it was a completely different mindset. If my brain is operating
a windows system now then it was a Linux while sick. I dont mean to say that one OS
is better than the other but this is just my sorry attempt at a metaphor.

Okay then. I cannot understand psychosis. What i can do is understand what psychosis
did to me and what role it has played in my life, and possibly, but hopefully not, will
play in the future. I need information, i need strategies, to keep myself from falling ill
again. I must know my enemy. In this blog I hope to put down the ideas and
conclusions Ive come up with so far.


i am on the
edge of society. no one notices me, i am the park bench. i am the drinknig fountain. i am a vision
at the corner of your eye that was never there and thats how i like it. I spend my days on a neverending easter egg hunt but
rahter than seeking eggs i seek a laugh, or a chuckle. I seek a smile or warm vibe or a tiny affirmation of
love. I am on the other side of the rainbow and as prophesised my cares and worries have melted like
so many lemon drops. i am willing, i am able, to sacrifice myslef for you- any of you- if only if
you could find teh freedom.
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