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DAY 60 - Severe Depression

Posted 02-27-2019 at 05:26 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I am so tired of these random days where I barely can crawl out of bed in the morning to make breakfast and take my daughter to school. I didn't shower today, I couldn't even get out of my sweats. I am currently waiting on the Real Estate Commission to send me a date to take my licensing exam. I have an appointment this Monday to meet with a top Real Estate Agency to become one of their Real Estate Agents. I should be celebrating 60 sober days today. My biopsy on my breast came back normal....
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DAY 59 - Drunk Dreams

Posted 02-26-2019 at 07:24 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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Have you ever had a dream (or nightmare) where you have given up on your sobriety and gave into a drink? I keep having those dreams. Last night I was wasted drunk in my dream and having a great time at a resort on a beach. Drink after drink, dancing and laughing and having a "what the hell" attitude. I didn't feel any remorse or regret in my dream. I wasn't worried about consequences. I didn't care that I was embarrassing myself. It was so vivid, like I still feel it actually...
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DAY 58 - What??? No!

Posted 02-25-2019 at 07:38 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
Tags journey , mother , sober , wine , wino

I am a clean person. My husband and my 14 y/o daughter are super clean as well. My house is always clean. I do a big deep clean every weekend. So why on earth did I find lice in my daughter's hair last night?

I know. It has nothing to do with the fact if you shower every day. In fact, I read if you have greasy hair, lice will have a harder time clinging to the hair shaft. Gross and ugh yes, I see now. My daughter has extremely squeaky clean hair shafts for those little...
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DAY 57 - Free Bird

Posted 02-24-2019 at 07:23 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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My mood is somewhat stabilizing. I don't feel like I am on a roller coaster of emotions anymore. I don't feel bat sh*t crazy. It was extremely bad in the beginning, especially the first 30 days. I am close to 2 months sober now and not having to plan my days around my depression, anger, anxiety, loneliness and sadness. I am rarely having to fight off childhood memories, I think that's best part of reaching this far. I am able to be intimate with my husband, and actually allow myself to enjoy...
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DAY 55 - Home Depot Dudes

Posted 02-22-2019 at 07:56 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

I'm currently waiting on two things right now: test results of my breast biopsy and for the TX Real Estate Commission to process my paperwork in order to take my Real Estate Licensing exam. The biopsy results should be ready in a couple days but the commission can take up to THREE weeks to process my paperwork. So, during this transition right now, I'm refocusing my attention on this house we've purchased almost one year ago last February 26. We initially purchased it knowing it needed a lot...
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