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DAY 18 - Marriage - An Alcoholic's Perspective

Posted Yesterday at 09:36 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

Communication, forgiveness, kindness, compassion, respect, and trust; the absence of these attributes are detrimental to a marriage. Both parties should be trying their best every day to act on these characteristics for a healthy relationship.

I have been drunk so many times in the past 15 years of our relationship, too many to count, and I beat myself up for that each day. My husband is a very sensitive, loving, gentle, and kind man. He is my balance and he is my rock. I am...
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DAY 17 - The Guilt of a Drunk Parent

Posted 01-15-2019 at 01:09 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
Tags drunk , guilt , mother , pain , sober

I just got back from taking my 14 year old daughter to get an ultra sound done on her lower and upper abdomen. She has suffered from chronic, severe stomach pain since she was little, and it's not because she is constipated. She has had episodes where she is shaking and has convulsions, where she thinks she is going to die. I am not being dramatic, she has literally asked me if she was dying. It's very scary as a parent to not be able to answer that question when your little girl is having...
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DAY 16 - Blank

Posted 01-14-2019 at 07:38 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
Updated 01-15-2019 at 07:48 AM by LoveHateMerlot

I don't know what it is but the past couple of days I just don't feel like writing. I usually cannot stop writing. Maybe it's because I am feeling so good about myself and truly enjoying every minute of being alive right now? I feel proud, accomplished, strong, and confident. I believe in myself. I have faith in myself. I don't have heart palpitations starting at 5:00 for my wine fix.

I had quite a bit happen over the weekend, from hanging out at my favorite pub (SOBER), hanging...
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DAY 15 - Iím Good

Posted 01-13-2019 at 09:51 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

Hello! I havenít touched my computer all weekend and it feels pretty damn good. Iím not looking forward to the weekend being over or having to drop my husband off at the airport earlier (heís on his way to London again for work). What I am looking forward to is starting a new goal with my Sober Sister (whom I met on here at Sober Recovery a couple years ago by destiny). Iím so fortunate to have a friend to hold my hand every step of the way, even though she lives on the East coast and I live...
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DAY 14 - Root Beer on Tap

Posted 01-12-2019 at 05:59 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)

2 weeks today!

Last night I hung out at a bar and drank root beer on tap all night! It was St. Arnoldís Root Beer. Itís damn delicious and wasnít jealous of all the drunks looking at a nasty hangover this morning. Nah man, I had an awesome Saturday today, wasnít laying in bed all day nursing a hangover with full of regrets.

Short post today due to not wanting to touch my computer but will be back to spill some tea tomorrow :-)



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