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Old 07-17-2020, 01:30 AM
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I have a couple bottles of habanero hot sauce in our fridge, just a drop or two is enough for me!
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Old 08-05-2020, 06:38 AM
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OK, this is sharon's thread but I had to poke my head in and see how everyone's doing, out last post was on 7/17. Sooooo how y'all doing?

It has been ridiculously hot in AZ but I still walk in the morning when it's cooler, in the afternoon I take a bicycle ride and then jump in the pool when I get home. What's keeping me going right now is God of course, but also looking forward to a possible road trip vacation to CA in Sept., a squirrel hunting camp in Oct. and also a trip to see my son in WA. Living in the moment is great but it's fun to have some plans to look forward to.

Sending you guys love and prayers that you are healthy and safe.
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Old 08-05-2020, 10:52 AM
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Peek a boo Astro. I see you.........lol

Good to see you and hear from you. All is well over here
in warmish Baton Rouge.

What have I been up to....well.....life. Living life to the best
of my sober human ability. Taking it a day at a time doing
whatever comes up next to do.

And there is always something to do because i make work
for myself.....I guess.

Got up this morning as I always do. Turn on some lights,
my computer, tv to the CMT station and head to the kitchen
for my much anticipated good cup of hot brewed Community
Coffee.

Hubby makes the coffee the evening before and sets the
timer to go off before we wake up so we can smell that delicious
hot brew coffee wafting thru the house to reach our noses.

This morning i did get my cup, then set it on the counter after
seeing water in the pool moving from my living room blinds.
Lights go on each morning set up around the pool and back
yard so that I can see the reflection of the pool water under
the patio cover if something is in the pool swimming.

Swimming in the wee hours of the morning, you say.....yep....

Guess what it is??????

Give up?????

A coon...!!!!!

Git me my rifle paw, i'm goin coon huntin for some coon stew.

So, before i could even get my first sip of coffee, i was out the
door with my red flash light huntin down the coon who slipped
out of the pool not once, but twice without me seeing him.....

Yep, while i was going one way, he out smarted me and went
another. However, i did get him up our big tree. Then when I
came inside, he climbed down and rummaged thru my garden
pots for pay back.

Man, i thought i was doing good all week keeping the coon
at bay with laying come poultry fencing inside my pots and
pinning it down to keep his greedy claws from digging for my
good worms.

Well, today we went out to Tractor Supply to check out some
kind of Kennel Fence to put up in back to accomidate my potted
plants. Something Ive always wanted.

Anyway.....we are looking, researching and will eventually
find one that will work for my situation.

When gardening, you have to take care of plants that do
well in Summer but need to be protected in Winter. That
is when i cover them with garden blankets.

Each season calls for different care are else I loose plants
i work so hard to establish and enjoy each yr.

All my potted plants are under neighbor trees in the back
and get the shade they need with a touch of sunshine and
rain when we have it. Come Winter, all my pots will be moved
under the carport to be protected from dips in temperature
which could kill them.

This Summer the coon has had me working over time and im
guess it wont be the last Summer he or an off spring come to
our backyard.

I refuse to give up my hobby to a coon. No way Jose'. lol

So that is what ive been up to lately. Other than that.....

I'm ready for Fall. How about you?

Hoping Toad is well and look forward to hearing from him
and others who wish to pop in too, to say hello.

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So the big question is....when will you be enjoying coon stew?

Your morning routine and gardening habits sound a lot like ours. My days are very regimented and structured, especially working from home. Walks at 5:30 AM, 10:00 AM, 2:00 PM, bicycle ride at 4:00 PM, guitar practice in the evening, in between I do the meals and grocery shopping. When we get back from our morning walk I'm watering the outdoor plants. In Phoenix we have to water potted plants almost daily, they will wither and die quickly in the intense heat. We also cover them to protect from frost in the winter.

I am definitely ready for Fall, already I'm daydreaming about the upcoming fishing and hunting trips. Oh, and I hope you had fun at Tractor Supply, that's another store that I could spend hours in if I had the fat wallet to go along with my shopping ideas
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Old 08-06-2020, 07:31 AM
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As a daughter, one of 2 with 2 brothers, my job as being
the "maid" of the house hold was not by choice, but ordered
by a mother like Cinderella had.

Sick with her own demons, functional, beautiful, alcohol
and meds fueled the wrath of her destruction, cruelness,
physical abuse towards me only.

Anyway, I shared that because for 18 yrs of living with
that kind of abuse, there were moments i did treasure.
Moments like riding with my dad to the automotive shops
to fix this and that that a Mechanical Engineer enjoys
fixing or has to fix to keep the house hold running.

Not sure if that is where I found my passion for wanting
to be amongst tools and such that folks love.

Or was it because when i was ordered to stay outside
for the entire day, plucked from my bed, knowing the
day was gonna be long, i found solace in cleaning my
dad garage like the inside of the house which was
immaculate.

Of course, my dad couldnt find all is things right off
the bat because i had organized them so. Anyway...
I also picked up mowing the lawn and edging with a
machete, racking, sweeping, hosing down dust and
dirt.

Once i did that, it was always expected of me to do
that whether I wanted to or not, driven by meanest and
abuse.

Where were my brothers and other sister.....sheesh....
they didnt have to make their beds, pick up their clothes,
no dishes, no cutting grass, etc. I did all that for them
and what did get me.....

No respect, no love, no caring, because i was their maid.

Anyway....moving on.....

Many times, i had wished i was a boy just because they
didnt have to do housework. They could get away with so
much. There were times I wished I was a boy just so
I could be an alter boy. Before girls were ever allowed to
think of being one back in the day.

Several time i went with my mom to cleaned the back
of the alter and there, not far from the Alter, the cross,
the sacristy, The lighted beacon to feel His everlasting
presence, so close to God and even closer if I were an
alter boy or a priest.

If only I was a boy back in the day.

It was the hope and faith I clung onto as I had no one else
to help me when life was so painful with each welp inflicted
on my skin, tears, bruises, loneliness, despair, belittled, mocked....

Not only at home, but for 17 yrs of bullies at school too.

Okay.....sometimes, it just helps to talk about all that
crap I endured as a child and once I left home, i had so
much to catch up on. I wanted to be free and experience
all that one would and could as a child but didnt.

Of course by the time i left home, alcohol was so there
helping me i thought with everything in life.

It didnt take too terribly long before i fell victim of my
addiction at 30. Thank God it didnt destroy me completely
because i'm here by the Grace of our HP to share about
it.

And sooooo, yes, i absolutely love going to Tractor Supply
and Lowes, and Home Depot and all those neat place my
husband takes me to.

He is rounded in all things mechanical and I love that about
him. There was no doubt that when my 25 yr marriage ended
that God had Charlie already picked out for me. To me that is
a gift to not take for granted or lightly.

We just returned from Home Depot where I got some bags
of top soil and he got a piece of wood he will use under the
eve to support a shade cloth. Then looking for the right hooks...

He definitely know what to get and look for.

Anyway.....we work good together, so that is a blessing.

Now, im gonna have to go back and read your share Astro,
because i got off track...lol



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All is well here in Mo......been running and riding my bicycle most all mornings....brought home a Pearl Harbor KIA a couple of days ago....70 plus bikes, 20 mile escort, two small towns in MO showed up lining the streets and roads....awesome show of patriotism.
Went to the lake of the ozarks for the last couple of day....was refused service at Golden Coral for not wearing a mask.

grateful to be sober during all the bs
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There was no doubt that when my 25 yr marriage ended that God had Charlie already picked out for me. To me that is a gift to not take for granted or lightly.
That made me smile a lot sharon, and even now when something doesn't feel quite right in my marriage I do believe that God picked out my Charlotte just for me, my best friend to share all things in life with.

Thank you for sharing some of your story with us. I'm sorry you endured so much, but I know that's why you are here are it's part of the recovery story that all of us have.

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brought home a Pearl Harbor KIA a couple of days ago....70 plus bikes, 20 mile escort, two small towns in MO showed up lining the streets and roads....awesome show of patriotism.
That had to be something to see, and I thank you again for your service! Are we going to see a viral video of you getting ejected from Golden Corral ? Keep up the bicycling and running, I'm pretty convinced that diet and exercise coupled with our programs of recovery will see us through this.

I don't have a lot of plans for the weekend. A friend is having a "drive-by" baby shower and I've got to get the lawn mowed. Lots of healthy meals to cook too. Yeah, life is good!
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Good to hear from both of you Astro and Toad.

For the past 2 days our tv and computer have been out
making the days feel off kilter. It went out yesterday morning
around 10 and didnt come back on till the afternoon. By then
I was completely drained and had no fresh thoughts to share.

Thank God we were restored to normalcy before bedtime.

Anyway.....Your service in your community, to your family,
friends has to be commended, admired and applauded.

We often see older folks walking the neighborhood every day
which makes me believe that they are walking for health and
life.

We cant just sit all day watching tv or on the computer. We have
to move so our bodies so they dont freeze up. Got to keep the blood
flowing from head to toe.

Look like both of you guys dont have a problem moving or
getting things done in life which is great and inspiring.

Even with no tv or computer for the past few days, i managed
to lay down some pavers and haul some bags of pebble rocks
to fill in on my walk path in the back yard. Heavy enough to muscle
them in place. Gotrdone.

Come on Fall..!!!!!
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We had a chewed wire, probably from our dogs or a coon that was hanging on by the tv dish (dogs had treed the fellow), anyway we were without TV for over 3 weeks, we experienced so much serenity without the lame-stream national news. We had had a storm and thought that lightening had struck the dish, I could have repaired the wire if I had known it was chewed.

Been so busy the last few months with mowing, gardens, watering, PGR missions, church, AA meetings and sponsoring new guys that I am looking forward to the wife going back to school, she is a teacher. What a year !! ....... I figure that things will change in this country around December.

Continue to stay away from the first one, clean house, and help others....thanks for letting me share.
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Look like both of you guys dont have a problem moving or
getting things done in life which is great and inspiring.
Well, not exactly. One of the reasons I try to stay active and eat healthy is that it keeps the inflammation in my limbs at bay. Lately my bad left knee has been very painful but I'm doing everything possible to keep that joint moving!

Our grandkids and stepdaughter surprised us with a weekend visit! I have a drive-thru baby shower to attend this afternoon so they're going to Williams (gateway to the Grand Canyon) for the day. The rest of my time will be filled with light chores.

Be well, enjoy this blessed weekend!
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Hello and happy Tuesday to all our SR bikers and friends
in recovery. Praying all are well this day.

August 11, 1990.....it was this day some 30 yrs ago that
I entered rehab to begin my journey in life addiction free
from alcohol.

Altho it has been many one days sober ago, it still seems
like it all happened yesterday or not so long ago.

I tried to hold it all together when the authorities came to
pick me up and transport me to a hospital for evaluation
and state of mind after taking pills on a dare to end my
life.

I was so sick and tired of failing to control my drinking
and lying that i just wanted immediate relief grabbing
pills and hoping i could just sleep forever, not thinking
about what my actions would do to family and loved ones.

Evaluation showed that I wasn't crazy or anything like
that. However, it did show that I had an addiction problem
and needed help. Help that would require me to stay in
rehab, a controlled environment for about 2 weeks before
i could go home.

So, i did the 12 days first and was again evaluated with
them saying I wasnt ready to go home yet. That if i was
released then, i would surely end up drinking again.

So, upon agreement and pleading not to send me away
to a halfway house further away from my little family, i was
allowed to stay till i completed 28 days listening, learning,
absorbing and applying new, helpful, healthier, effective tools
and knowledge of a recovery program to my life once I went
home.

Yes, when i was released and went home after 28 days, i
still harbored resentments for what my family did to me.
eventually i realized that because of their love and concern
for my well being, they had to seek out help and place me
into the hands of those capable of teaching me about my
addiction and hand me the gift of a recovery program that
would ultimately change my life.

Back in the day, 1990, computers and cellphones hadnt
reached their popularity and importance as it has over the
past 30 yrs. So all I had was face to face meetings to continue
on with my sobriety and recovery balancing married life,
being a stay at home mom of 2 beautiful little ones.

We then relocated after 7 yrs sober and I hung on with
each passing day as my children grew up addiction free
and successful in education and now families of their own.

Thank you Lord for those blessing and gifts.

After 25 yrs marriage, i did the footwork as I had always
been doing thru out my recovery, and returned home to
Baton Rouge at the age of 50, with a new job and apt.
starting a new chapter in my sober life.

Fast forward to today, 30 yrs sober, 10 yrs married and
one heck of a garden of paradise built with one paver,
one bag of soil, one bag of rocks at a time building a foundation
to hold all my plants, bushes, trees, flowers of many.

Just as I have built my recovery foundation with one
step at a time to achieve health, happiness and honesty
to live upon each day.

Yes, i have had to go back and change or add this and
that to fix or repair what has broke or change what didnt
work to something stronger both in my gardens as well
as my recovery foundation.

Because i am forever learning something new to better
my life, to become the best person I can be in this life,
to have flowers to bring me ever lasting color and blooms,
there has to be continued maintenance on a daily bases
to achieve those ultimate blessings and gifts in life and
in my garden of paradise.

If a hurricane came to town, is my garden gonna with stand
gal force winds or is my structures and foundation strong
enough. If life throws me a curve ball, will my recovery foundation
with stand the force of that ball being thrown at me.

Or am i gonna be struck down.

With continued willingness to apply the basic lessons taught
to me 30 yrs ago and over the yrs, today i can. However, i still
remain willling, openminded and honest to accept new healthy
ways to tighten up, sure up, strengthen both my garden
and my sobriety so I remain prepared for whatever life
throws my way.

Faith, AA and folks like you here in SR have been my daily
lifelines that I hold on to day to day to help me achieve many
blessings and gifts in life that I am humbled to cherish never
forgetting what got me here in the first place.

Thank you guys for being here for me.
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Happy birthday Sharon, thanks for sharing Sharon. 30 is a wonderful milestone my hat is off to you today. My mask is even off to you also. I pray that your day is blessed and full of Joy.....Happy Joyous and Free.

I love you sister, thanks for being my friend......Toad
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Thank you Toad

We are in this together. An amazing fellowship that
I am grateful to be a part of, because I certainly couldnt
to do this recovery stuff by myself, no would want to.

Having folks like yourself that I can walk beside of
on this journey even if we are miles away from each
other, still makes living a life in recovery, fun as well
as comforting.

Just by sharing our days with each other, our experiences,
strengths and hopes through out our sober yrs let's us know
that non of us are alone on this journey.

Fellowship and faith strong for more years to come.
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That's a whole buncha ODAAT's Sharon, happy 30th sober birthday to you. I'm very thankful for your shares. Today you reminded me that I wasn't deemed crazy at the "behavioral center" but I was told to go to AA meetings and get a sponsor. I'm really grateful I took that advice to heart. Thank you for being a miracle Sharon!
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Thanks friend, Astro.


We are all miracles in recovery when we
learn to take directions and apply it to our
everyday life. GOD ...Good Orderly Direction


There is room in AA for people of all shades of
belief and non-belief. ... Some people have the
thought of the word
God as standing for.....

“good orderly direction”, or .....

even “group of drunks”, but many of us believe
that there is something bigger than ourselves
which is helping us today.

I absolutely believe.


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Sharon, especially right now when there seems to be a little bit of darkness, I couldn't agree more, God shines brilliantly and lights the path for us, we will persevere and all will be well.
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