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How to Survive the Loss of a Love

To every thing there is a
season,

and a time to every purpose

under the heaven.

A time to be born, and a time
to die;

a time to plant,

and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to
heal;

a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to
laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones,

and a time to gather stones together;

A time to embrace,

and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to
lose;

a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to
sew;

a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to
hate;

a time of war, and a time of peace.

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Ecclesiastes 3:18

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UNDERSTANDING LOSS

I find

I lost.

Let's take a moment to view loss in the larger perspective.
In nature, loss is an essential element of creation--the rose
blossoms, the bud is lost; the plant sprouts, the seed is
lost; the day begins, the night is lost. In all cases, loss
sets the stage for further creation (or, more accurately, re-creation).

So it is in human life. It's hard to look back on any gain
in life that does not have a loss attached to it.

With this firmly in mind we can examine the various losses
in life. (Without this overview it tends to become awfully
depressing.)

OBVIOUS LOSSES

death of a loved one

break-up of an affair

separation

divorce

loss of job

loss of money

robbery

rape or other violent crime

NOT-SO-OBVIOUS LOSSES

moving

illness (loss of health)

chaning teachers, changing schools

success (the loss of striving)

loss of a cherished ideal

loss of a long term goal

LOSS RELATED TO AGE

childhood dreams

puppy love

crushes

adolescent romances

leaving school (dropping out or graduating)

leaving home

loss of "youth"

loss of "beauty"

loss of hair or teeth

loss of sexual drive (or worse, the drive remains but
the ability falters)

menopause

retirement

LIMBO LOSSES

(Is it on? Is it off? Is it a gain? Is it a loss?)

awaiting medical tests or reports on their outcome

a couple on the brink of divorce for the fourteenth
time

a friend, spouse or relative "missing in action"

lovers, after any quarrel

a business transaction that may or may not fall
through

a lawsuit

putting your house up for sale

Limbo losses often feel like this:

My life has fallen down

around me before

--lots of times,

for lots of reasons--

usually other people.

And most of the time

I was fortunate enough

to have a large lump of

that life hit me on the

head and render me numb

to the pain & desolation

that followed.

And I survived.

And I live to love again.

But this,

this slow erosion from below

--or within--

it's me falling down around my life

because you're still in that life

--but not really.

And you're out of that life

--but not quite.

I do all right

alone,

and better

together,

but

I do very poorly

when

semi-

together.

In solitude

I do much,

in love

I do more,

but

in doubt

I only transfer

pain to paper

in gigantic Passion Plays

complete with miracles and martyrs

and crucifixions and resurrections.

Come to stay

or

stay away.

This series of passion poems

is becoming a heavy cross to bare.

The feeling of being "in limbo" is itself a loss.
Even if the situation turns out fine (the veteran returns,
the lover calls and again professes undying love, etc.),
while in doubt that doubt is a loss and should be treated
accordingly.

Realize that "not knowing" may be the worst
torture of all.

When in limbo--and your better instincts tell you
there's little hope--it's better to end the situation
than to let it drag on and on.

Call or send in your formal notice of termination and
get on with the business of surviving, healing and
growing.

To give you up.

God!

What bell of freedom

that rings within me.

No more waiting for

letters

phone calls

postcards

that never came.

No more creative energy

wasted

in letters never mailed.

And, after awhilE,

no more insomnia,

no more insanity.

Some more happiness,

some more lifE.

All it took was giving you up.

And that took quite a bit.

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INEVITABLE LOSSES

There are inevitable losses--losses in which death or
separation is imminent. When you recognize these in advance,
it will help greatly to

Discuss your situation with the person who is leaving.

If you are the one who is leaving, talk it over with
those who are being left.

Take part in making the decisions that must be made.

Let your wishes be known.

OTHER LOSSES

Temporary losses (lover on vacation, spouse in the service,
son or daughter away at school, a slump in business)--even
when we know the outcome will eventually be positive--are
losses nonetheless.

Even success has built into it certain losses--the loss of a
goal to strive for and the changes that are almost certainly
part of success.

There are also innumerable "mini losses" that tend
to add up during the course of a day, week, month or life. An
unexpected dent in the car here, an argument with a friend
there, and one can find oneself "inexplicably"
depressed.

Each of these losses--immediate or cumulative, sudden or
eventual, obvious or not--creates an emotional wound, an
injury to the organism.

WHAT LOSS FEELS LIKE

Along with the obvious feelings of pain, depression and
sadness, there are other reactions to loss, such as

feeling helpless, fearful, empty, despairing,
pessimistic, irritable, angry, guilty, restless

experiencing a loss of concentration, hope,
motivation, energy

changes in appetite, sleep patterns or sexual drive

a tendency to be more fatigued, error-prone and
slower in speech and movement

Any or all of these are to be expected during and after a
loss. It's part of the body's natural healing process. Be
with these changes; don't fight them. It's OK.

If you haven't had an obvious loss, and yet you relate
strongly to a good number of these reactions, you may want to
examine the recent past to see if a not-so-obvious loss--or a
series of them--has taken place.

If so, you might want to follow a few of the suggestions
given in this book. Your mind and body are already involved
in the healing process.

THE STAGES OF RECOVERY

Recovering from a loss takes place in three distinct--yet
overlapping--stages.

They are

shock/denial/numbness

fear/anger/depression

understanding/acceptance/moving on

Each stage of recovery is

necessary

natural

a part of the healing process

the fear that I would

come home one day and

find you gone has turned

into the pain of the

reality.

"What will I do if it
happens?"

I would ask myself.

What will I do

now that it

has?

The first stage of recovery is shock/denial/ numbness.

We cannot believe or comprehend what has happened to
us.

The mind denies the loss.

Often the first words uttered after hearing of a loss
are, "What?" or "Oh, no."

We forget that a loss has taken place, and find
ourselves stunned each time we remember again. (This
is especially true after awakening from sleep.)

Meanwhile, the body's natural protection against
intense pain--shock and numbness--is activated.

morning.

we wake & snuggle.

afternoon.

a phone call, california beckons.

evening.

the airport, a brutal good(?)bye.

night.

o my god. o my god. o my god.

mourning. again.

________________

I know it was time for us

to part,

but today?

I know I had much pain to

go through,

but tonight

?

The second stage of recovery is fear/anger/
depression.

Fear, anger and depression are emotions and reactions
most often associated with loss.

rain.

it rained.

I

fell.

it

rained

I

loved.

it

rained.

I lost.

it

rained.

It

loved.

I

rained.

rain.

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What do I do

now that you're gone?

Well, when there's

nothing else going on,

which is quite often,

I sit in a corner and

I cry

until I am

too numbed

to feel.

Paralyzed, motionless

for awhile,

nothing moving

inside or out.

Then I think

how much I miss you.

Then I feel

fear

pain

loneliness

desolation.

Then

I cry

until I am

too numbed

to feel.

Interesting pastime.

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And finally, understanding/acceptance/moving on.

We have survived.

Our body is well on the way to healing.

Our mind accepts that life without what was lost is
possible.

We move on to a new chapter of our life.

the sun will rise

in a few minutes.

it's been doing it

--regularly--

for as long as I

can remember.

maybe I should

pin my hopes

on important,

but often

unnoticed,

certainties

like that,

not on such relatively

trivial matters as

whether you will ever

love me

or not

I must conquer my loneliness

alone.

I must be happy with myself

or I have

nothing

to offer.

Two halves have

little choice

but to

join,

and yes,

they do

make a

whole.

but two

wholes,

when they coincide. . .

that is

beauty.

that is

love.

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We go through the three staes of recovery no matter what
we lose.

Loss is loss, no matter what the cause. When someone or
something we love is taken from us or denied us, that is a
loss. The only difference in recovering from one loss or
another is the intensity of feeling and the duration
of the healing process. The greater our loss,

the more intensely we feel each of the stages of
recovery

the longer it takes to pass from one stage to another

With small losses, the three stages of recovery can be
moved through in minutes. For large losses, it can take years.
The body, mind and emotions have enormous wisdom. They know
how to heal themselves, and the amount of time they will need
to do it. Give them what they need to heal. Trust in the
process of recovery.

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SURVIVING

Thursday:

drowning in love

Friday:

drowning in doubt

Saturday:

drowning

Sunday:

God, I can't drag my

self to church this morning.

Please make a house call.

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One:

You Will Survive

You will get better.

No doubt about it.

The healing process has a beginning, a middle and an
end.

Keep in mind, at the beginning, that there is
an end. It's not that far off. You will heal.

Nature is on your side, and nature is a powerful ally.

Tell yourself, often, "I am alive. I will
survive."

You are alive.

You will survive.

in my sleep

I dreamed

you called. you said

you were moving back

with your old lover.

you said you thought a

phone call would be the

cleanest way to handle it,

"it" being that we could

never see each other

again, and that I should

understand why.

I moved to wake

myself and found I wasn't

sleeping after all.

my life became

a nightmare.

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Two:

If You Need It, Get Help at Once

If you think you need help, don't hesitate. Get it at
once.

If you are feeling suicidal--or even think you might
be feeling suicidal--call a Suicide Prevention
Hotline at once.

To find the number, call Directory Assistance and ask
for "The Suicide Prevention Hotline."
Almost every town has one. (And notice how nice
the directory assistance operator suddenly becomes.)
(Our thoughts on suicide are on page 68.)

You should also seek help at once if you:

feel you are "coming apart"

are no longer in control

are about to take an action you may later
regret

have a history of emotional disturbance

turn to alcohol, drugs or other addictive
substances in time of need

feel isolated with no one to turn to

repeatedly find yourself in loss situations

Help can be found in--of all places--the Yellow Pages.
Explore the organizations under such listings as
"Help Lines."

This is not the time to "be brave" and
attempt to "go it alone." In fact, it takes
great courage to ask for help.

I found

in you

a home.

Your departure

left me a

Shelterless Victim

of a

Major Disaster.

I called the

Red Cross,

but they

refused to

send over

a nurse.

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Three:

Acknowledge the Loss

You may struggle to both believe and disbelieve that this
could have happened to you. It has happened. It is real.
Recognize that a loss has taken place. You may wonder if you
are strong enough to bear such a loss. You are strong enough.
You are alive. You will survive.

there is nothing to be

done.

only accept it. . .

and hurt.

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Four:

You Are Not Alone

Loss is a part of life, of being alive, of being human.
Everyone experiences loss. Everyone. Your task is to make the
journey from immediate loss to eventual gain as rapidly,
smoothly and courageously as possible. Somehow, the
camaraderie of mutual suffering eases the pain. You have
comrades--almost six billion on this planet alone.

Our love affair

has crash landed.

I am trapped

in the rubble

of gossamer wings.

The Wright brothers

would have been proud

of our flight, but

we live in an age

of moon landings and

space shuttles.

Our flight was pitifully low

and painfully brief.

Endings

make the circumstances

of the beginnings

regrettable.

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Five:

It's OK to Feel

It's OK to feel numb. Expect to be in shock for awhile.
This emotional numbness may be frightening.

It's OK to feel fear. "Will I make it?" "Will
I ever love again?" "Will I ever feel good about
anything again?" These are familiar fears that follow a
loss. It's OK to feel them, but, to the degree you
can, don't believe them.

It's OK to feel nothing. There are times when you'll have no
feelings of any kind. That's fine.

It's OK to feel anything. You may feel grief-stricken, angry,
like a failure, exhausted, muddled, lost, beaten, indecisive,
relieved, overwhelmed, inferior, melancholy, giddy, silly,
loathful, full of self-hatred, envious, suicidal (feeling
suicidal is OK; acting upon the feeling is not), disgusted,
happy, outraged, in rage or anything else.

All feelings are part of the healing process.

Let yourself feel. Let yourself heal.

Spring:

leaves grow.

love grows.

Summer:

love dies.

I drive away,

tears in my eyes.

Bugs commit suicide on my windshield.

Autumn:

leaves fall.

I fall.

Winter:

I die.

I drive away,

nothing in my eyes.

Snowflakes commit suicide on my windshield.

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Six:

Be with the Pain

If you're hurting, admit it.

To feel pain after loss is

normal

natural

proof that you are alive

a sign that you are able to respond to life's
experiences

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Although you may be frightened by it, be with your
pain. Feel it. Lean into it. You will not find it
bottomless.

It is an important part of the healing process that
you be with the pain, experience the desolation, feel
the hurt.

Don't deny it or cover it or run away from it. Be
with it. Hurt for a while.

See pain as not hurting, but as healing.

you came

and made

my house

our home

you left

making

our home

my asylum

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Seven:

You're Great!

You are a good, whole, worthwhile human being.

You are OK. You are more than OK, you're great.

Your self-esteem may have suffered a jolt. Your
thoughts may reflect some guilt, worry, condemnation
or self-deprecation. These thoughts are just symptoms
of the stress you are going through.

There is no need to give negative thoughts about
yourself the center of your attention.

Don't punish yourself with "if only's." ("If
only I had [or hadn't] done this [or that], I
wouldn't be in this emotional mess.") Disregard
any thought that begins "If only"

You are much more than the emotional wound you are
currently suffering. Don't lose sight of that.

Beneath the surface turmoil

you are good

you are whole

you are beautiful

just because you are.

I am Joy.

I am everything.

I can do all things but two:

1. forget that I love
you.

2. forget that you no
longer love me.

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Eight:

Give Yourself Time to Heal

The healing process takes time.

The greater the loss, the more time it will take to
heal.

In this age of fast foods and instantly replaceable
everything, it's hard to accept that anything takes
time.

You require time to heal. Give yourself the luxury of
that time.

You deserve it.

Pain

is not so heavy

a burden in

summer.

Walks

through

travelogue scenes

prevent a good

deal of destruction.

And,

even though no one

is there to warm me,

the sun will.

But

Fall just fell,

leaving Winter,

and me,

with no warmth

within to face

the cold without.

I might just stick

to the sidewalk

and freeze.

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Nine:

The Healing Process Has Its Progressions and
Regressions

The process of healing and growth is not the smooth
progression many people assume.

It's more like a lightning bolt, full of ups and
downs, progressions and regressions, dramatic leaps
and depressing backslides.

Realize this and know that whether you are "better"
or "worse" than yesterday--or five minutes
ago--the healing process is under way.

life is becoming.

less livable.

with each new person I meet

I wonder, is this the day

fate has chosen, or is fate

what I have chosen to get me

through the day?

loving

is the most

creative

force in the universe.

the memory of loving,

the most

destructive.

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Ten:

Tomorrow Will Come

Life contains many positive experiences.

The good is on its way.

No doubt about it, tomorrow will come.

First,

I have to get

out

of love with you.

Second,

I have to remember:

don't fall

until you see

the whites

of their

lies.

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Eleven:

Breathe!

Take a breath, deep into your lower abdomen.

Breathing is healing.

Breathing is life.

Exhale fully. Take another slow, deep breath.

Use the breath to stretch your abdomen, stomach and
chest.

Place your hand on your heart, stomach or any other
part of your body that seems to be in turmoil.
Breathe into that area. Tell yourself

"Peace. Be still."

"I am alive. I will survive."

this longing

may shorten

my life.

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Twelve:

Get Lots of Rest--Now

Rest.

Sleep more.

Obtain help with ongoing tasks.

Arrange your life so that you get lots of rest.
Schedule rest into the day. Plan to go to bed earlier
and sleep a bit later.

Be gentle with yourself. Don't rush about. Your body
needs energy for repair.

Meditate.

Rest your emotions. Don't become "heavily
involved" for awhile.

Productive work often helps rest the emotions. Do as
much of that as is comfortable.

Rest is the foundation of health.

(there is no poem

on this page

as the poet

decided to

take a nap)

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Thirteen:

Stick to Your Schedule

OK, enough rest. Get going!

Alternating rest with activity brings efficient
healing.

Rest as much as you need to, but don't become
lethargic. Keep active.

While your inner world is chaotic, maintain a
modified (lightened) schedule in the outer. This
gives you a sense of order--also something to hold
onto.

Although my

nature is not to

live by day,

I cannot

tolerate another

night like this.

So,

I will wake up

early

tomorrow morning and

do do do

all day long,

falling asleep

exhausted tomorrow

early evening,

too tired

even for

nightmares.

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Fourteen:

Keep Decision-Making to a Minimum

Expect your judgement to be clouded.

Keep decision-making to a minimum.

Postpone major decisions, if possible.

Ask friends, family and business associates to make
minor decisions for you.

Delegate; relegate; rest.

Too much change has already taken place--that's why
you're hurting. Keep additional changes to a minimum.

Plans:

Next month:

find something new.

This month:

get over you.

This week:

get you back.

Today:

survive.

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Fifteen:

It's OK to Make "Silly" Mistakes

You may forget your keys, misplace your wallet, drop
a glass or misspell your own name--several times in a
row.

Absentmindedness, forgetfulness and clumsiness are
frequently experienced after a loss.

It's a variation on walking into a room to get
something, and forgetting what it was you went to get--except
that after a loss it's worse, and more frequent.

It's OK. Be easy with yourself. You're healing. If
you have any reaction to the silliness of your
mistakes, let it be one of amusement rather than
irritation.

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Morning Glory

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Sixteen:

It's OK to Go through the Motions in Slow Motion

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You may go through your activities as though you were
surrounded by warm Jello.

Your arms and legs may feel heavy. You may lean on
things to support the weight of your body. It may
even be difficult to hold up your head.

Your speech may be slurred or slowed.

You may feel as though you're in a trance.

All of this can be frightening. Know, however, that
all this is part of the process of healing. The body
slows its outer motions to provide the energy
necessary for inner healing.

Don't push yourself. Relax. For a while, go slow.

I remember thinking
once

that it would be good

if you left because

then I could get some

Important Things

done.

Since you've left I've done

nothing. Nothing

is as important

as you.

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Seventeen:

It's OK to Need Comforting

It's OK to be taken care of for awhile.

Accept understanding and support from

friends

family

co-workers

An emotional wound is real, debilitating and painful.
It's OK to need comfort.

Some people are so good at comforting that they do it
professionally. Feel free to seek the help of a
health care professional with whom you feel
comfortable.

Be brave enough to accept the help of others.

My friends are still
here:

neglected,

rejected

while I gave all my

precious moments to

you.

They're still here!

God bless them.

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Eighteen:

Seek the Support of Others

Although you may be afraid to do so, ask others for
help. It's a human (and courageous) thing to do.

Gather your friends, family and co-workers into a
support system. You need to know that others care,
and, if you tell them your pain, they will help.

The telephone is a marvelous tool for support. Use it.
Call friends, family, help lines.

Invite a friend to stay overnight.

Visit a relative (preferably at dinnertime).

Neighbors can be wonderful.

Strangers are merely friends you haven't yet met.

help me up

my friend.

dust me off.

feed me warmth.

you are comfort.

let me lean on you

until I can stand

alone.

I will stand a little taller,

and you will be

proud

to have a friend

such as me.

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Nineteen:

Touching and Hugging

The healing power of touch cannot be over- estimated.

If someone asks, "What can I do?" perhaps
all you need to say is, "Hold my hand" or
"Give me a hug."

Get three hugs a day for survival, five for
maintenance and eight (or more!) for growth.

When others are not available to hug you--hug
yourself. Go ahead. It feels good.

Now's a great time for a nurturing massage.

The most healing touch may be gently caressing
yourself. If a part of you hurts, touch it and tell
it, "I am here for you. I love you."

One

touch

is worth

ten thousand

words.

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Twenty:

Find Others Who Have Survived a Similar Loss

The support of others who know what you're
going through can be invaluable.

Your friends may know someone who has survived a
similar loss.

There are many organizations dedicated to serving
those with specific losses. Look in your local Yellow
Pages under "Social Service Organizations"
or "Human Service Organizations."

People who have survived similar losses can provide
support, guidance--and are proof that you too will
survive.

All the goodness

of my life is

gone.

First you,

and with you

joy

love

freedom

Then

colors

music

trees.

Even creativity,

which is always

the last to go,

is only making

a token appearance.

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Twenty-one:

Seek Wise Guidance

Wisdom has three components: love, firmness and
knowledge. Look for these traits in those from whom
you seek and accept guidance.

Wise people can help you in fulfilling your schedule
of tasks. You may need someone to "walk you
through" your day.

You can often find such people in your church, office,
family, 12-step or other self-help groups.

Beware, however, of anyone's well-meaning advice
containing

should

you better

it's time you

I think you should

Such approaches, far from being supportive, only
foster guilt and a sense of inadequacy.

Excuse me.

I am currently

afflicted with the world's

number one crippler:

infatuation fixation paralysis,

commonly referred to as

love.

Any spare comfort

you have to give

would be most appreciated,

although my ability to receive

may be temporarily impaired.

Thank you.

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Twenty-two:

Surround Yourself with Things That Are Alive

Don't isolate yourself from life.

In addition to family and friends, invite other
living things into your life:

a new plant

a stray kitten

the puppy you've always wanted

a bowl of goldfish

even a bowl of fresh fruit has its own joy and
consolation to offer. (And then you can eat it.)

I'd have a nervous
breakdown,

only

I've been through

this too many

times to be

nervous.

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Twenty-three:

Reaffirm Your Beliefs

Reaffirm any beliefs in which you have faith or have
found useful in the past.

These may include religious, spiritual, psychological
or philosophical beliefs you find appealing and
valuable.

Use any body of knowledge you find comforting,
inspiring or uplifting.

Reexplore it, lean on it, grow from it, enjoy it.

Missing your love

with God's so

close at hand.

It seems somehow

a sacrilege

but I think

God understands.

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Twenty-four:

Sundays Are the Worst

No doubt about it.

Holidays are the second-worst.

Saturday nights aren't much fun, either.

The feelings of separation may feel greater than
usual three days, three weeks, three months, six
months and a year after the loss.

Schedule particularly comforting activities into
these periods of time.

Yesterday was Sunday.

Sundays are always bad.

("Bloody," as they have been aptly
described.)

The full moon is Wednesday.

Full moons are always bad.

(Ask Lon Chaney.)

Friday is Good Friday

and, 30 miles from Rome,

the vibrations of all those mourning

worshippers will make it bad.

Sunday is Easter--but it's also

Sunday,

and Sundays are always bad.

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Twenty-five:

The Question of Suicide

You may be having suicidal thoughts. They may or may
not be as eloquent as "to be or not to be,"
but they may arise.

Know they are a natural symptom of the pain, and that
there is no need to act on them.

If you fear these impulses are getting out of hand,
seek professional help at once. Call
directory assistance and ask for the number of your
local Suicide Prevention Hotline. Then call it. The
people (almost entirely volunteers) are there to help.
They want to help. Give them the gift of
allowing them to do so.

Don't turn the rage you feel against yourself. (Although
feeling rage is perfectly all right--after all, an
utterly outrageous thing has happened to you.) Find a
safe way to release it. Beat a pillow, cry, scream,
stomp up and down, yell.

Above all, suicide is silly. It's leaving the World
Series ten minutes into the first inning just because
your favorite hitter struck out. It's walking out of
the opera during the overture just because the
conductor dropped his baton. It'swell, you get the
picture. In this play called life, aren't you even a little
curious about what might happen next?

The feeling will pass. You can count on that.
You will get better. Much better.

We do promise you a rose garden. We just can't
promise you it will be totally without thorns.

THE QUESTION OF SUICIDE:

Keep it a question.

It's not really an answer.

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HEALING

one thing I forgot:

after the

pain of parting

comes the

happiness of healing;

rediscovering

life,

friends,

self.

Joy.

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Twenty-six:

Do Your Mourning Now

Don't postpone, deny, cover or run from your pain. Be
with it. Now.

Everything else can wait. An emotional wound requires
the same priority treatment as a physical wound. Set
time aside to mourn.

The sooner you allow yourself to be with your pain,
the sooner it will pass. The only way out is
through.

When you resist mourning, you interfere with the body's
natural stages of recovery.

If you postpone the healing process, grief can return
months--even years--later to haunt you.

Feel the fear, pain, desolation, anger. It's
essential to the healing process.

You are alive. You will survive.

Grief is a quiet thing.

Deadly in repose.

A raging horror, a thunder of abuse.

Raucous--

Demanding--

Incomprehensible--

Tearing all that one has ever loved.

Hopeless,

Forlorn,

Fear-ridden and misunderstood;

Ceasing a moment, and through the years

Returning to. . .destroy.

To rage,

To curse all that is happy--

or contented,

or trusting.

To threaten every beauty that is true.

Grief?

It's a quiet thing

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Twenty-seven:

Earlier Losses May Surface

You may have unresolved losses from the past:
previous relationships, rejections, disappointments,
hurts--and that wellspring of loss: childhood.

A contemporary loss can reactivate a prior, unhealed
loss.

You may feel that you're responding "unreasonably"
to a loss. In fact, you may be healing past losses,
too.

Give yourself permission to mend it all.

Let it heal.

I sat evaluating

myself.

I decided

to lie down.

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Twenty-eight:

Be Gentle with Yourself

Be very gentle with yourself--kind,
forgiving, tender.

Accept that you have an emotional wound, that it is
debilitating, and that it will take awhile before you
are completely well.

Treat yourself with the same care and affection you
would a good friend in a similar situation.

Don't take on new responsibilities. If appropriate,
let your coworkers and employer know you've suffered
a loss and are healing.

Avoid situations in which you may be stressed,
challenged or upset.

Accept assistance and support when offered, but
remember that care and compassion begin at home--from
yourself to yourself.

And, for heaven sakes (and your own), don't blame
yourself for any "mistakes" (either real or
imagined) you think you may have made that brought
you to this loss.

You're great!

To lose you as a

love

was painful

To lose you as a

friend

is equally painful.

But lost you are.

The walls are sooo high,

and that finely honed saber

I had when I began storming

your citadel isn't even

sharp enough to

slash my wrists.

It's not that I don't care.

It's just that I can't

let myself

care any more.

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Twenty-nine:

Heal at Your Own Pace

Although others may demand it, don't feel the need to
immediately "understand" why the loss
happened, or instantly "accept" the loss
gracefully.

They'll tell you to "shrug it off," "roll
with the punches" and "snap out of it."

If you succumb to such pressure and superficially
dismiss your loss with such popular phrases as

"That's life"

"Oh, well"

"It doesn't matter"

"Who cares?"

your artificial "acceptance" may interfere
with healing.

Healing is a process. You have the full right to
experience the process in your own way, to gain your
understandings and realizations in your own time.

To demanding friends, you can quote the proverb:
"Be patient. God (or nature) hasn't finished
healing me yet."

Be patient with impatient friends.

This season is called

fall

because everything

nature builds

all summer long

falls

apart.

Like our love.

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Thirty:

Don't Try to Rekindle the Old Relationship

Futile attempts at reconciliation are

painful

anti-healing

anti-growth

a waste of valuable energy

stupid

irresistible

Resist. To give up this final hope may be the most
difficult challenge of all.

Invest your energies in healing and growing, in
yourself, in new relationships and in life.

Learning to let go can be one of life's greatest
lessons.

The layers I have put

around the pain of

your going are thin.

I walk softly through

life, adding thickness

each day.

A thought or a feeling

of you cracks the surface.

A call to you

shatters it all

And I spend that night in death,

spinning the first

layer of life

with the sunrise.

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Thirty-one:

Make a Pact with a Friend

If the urge to contact the "long lost love"
is strong, make a pact--a contract--with a friend.

Don't make the pact unreasonable. An example of an
unreasonable pact might be, "I will never see
him/her as long as I live!"

A more reasonable pact is, "Before I contact him/her,
I will contact you first and talk about it."

Sometimes the support of another can get you through
those "irresistible periods," and keep you
from doing something you know you'll probably regret
later.

She asked me if seeing

you was a drain.

Seeing you is not a drain.

It's a sewer.

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Thirty-two:

Mementos

If you find photographs and mementos helpful in the mourning process, use them.

If you find mementos bind you to a dead past, get rid of them--put them in the attic, sell them, give them away or throw them out.

Don't make any "thing" more important than your healing--or yourself.

I ceremoniously disposed

of all the objects

connected with you

I thought they were

contaminated.

It did not help.

I'm the one that's contaminated!

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Thirty-three:

Anticipate a Positive Outcome

Whatever you pay attention to--focus upon--becomes more powerful in your life.

Focus on a positive outcome. Expect it. Anticipate it. Plan on it.

It will come.

Be with the sadness, fear and pain when it comes, but don't dwell on it. Accept it, but don't invite it (except during your scheduled periods of mourning).

Pain is an acceptable guest, but it is not a welcome long-term visitor.

How will it happen?

How will it happen

when I find some

someone to spend

a goodly portion

of my life with?

It must.

I mean, I've been

pre-pairing

so long

It will happen.

Yes.

I will not dwell on

if, only

how, when, where, whom.

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Thirty-four:

Expect to Feel Afraid

Fear is a natural result of loss, a part of the healing process.

There are so many things to fear when one suffers a loss:

fear of being alone

fear of being deserted or rejected

fear that you'll never love again

fear you'll never be loved again

fear of the pain, desolation and torment that may lie ahead

Far from being the dark thing we are trained to treat fear as a child, fear is, in fact, extra energy to successfully meet the challenges of healing and growing ahead.

You will successfully meet the challenges.

Fear, when used as the energy it is, can help you meet those challenges.

Don't fight the fear--use it. Fear is a friend, not an enemy. (More on fear as a friend on page 184.)

as the

memory

of your

light fades

my days grow dark.

my nights are lit with

electric bulbs. I cannot

sleep. I am afraid of the

dark. I am afraid that you

will return and then fade

again. I am afraid that you

will never return. I am

afraid that my next thought

will be of you. I am afraid

that I will run out of poems

before I run out of pain.

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Thirty-five:

It's OK to Feel Depressed

Pretending to have more energy, enthusiasm or happiness than you actually have is not productive. Pretending expends energy that could better be used for healing.

It's OK to feel "low" for awhile.

Crying has its own specialness; a cleansing, purifying release.

to those

who ever

wished

me ill:

this night

your wish

has been

fulfilled.

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Thirty-six:

It's OK to Feel Anger

Everyone gets angry at the loss of love. Everyone.

It's OK to feel anger.

It's OK to feel anger toward

the person who left (even if he or she left you through death)

the person who took something or someone away

the social conventions or customs that contributed to the loss

the fates

It's not OK to

hate yourself

act upon your anger in a destructive way

Let the anger out (safely, please!):

Hit a pillow.

Kick on a bed.

Yell and scream (a car parked in a deserted place makes a great "scream chamber").

Play volleyball, tennis, handball, soccer.

Hit a punching bag.

Play piano at full crescendo.

If the anger is channeled and dissipated in these harmless (indeed, helpful) ways, you'll avoid senseless arguments, accidents and illness.

Your anger will pass as your hurting heals.

I'm past the point of going

quietly insane.

I'm getting quite

noisy about it.

The neighbors must think

I'm mad.

The neighbors,

for once,

think right.

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Thirty-seven:

It's OK to Feel Guilty

When you feel guilty, you are feeling angry with yourself. You violated a belief you have about the way you "should" think, act or feel, and you are mad at yourself for doing so.

It's OK to feel guilt, but there are limits.

Just as it's OK to feel anger, but it's not OK to hurt someone physically, it's OK to feel angry with yourself, but not to the point of illness or incapacity.

Some regrets are natural, but excessive self-punishment can be harmful.

The antidote to guilt is forgiveness.

You may be treating yourself far worse than the loss ever did.

Don't do that.

Treat yourself with love, respect, kindness and forgiveness.

How I

love you and hate you.

How bound I am to you.

How bound I am to break my bondage.

I want to be free!

I want to be able to

enjoy the day again,

and give me back my nights.

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Thirty-eight:

You May Want to Hire a Professional or Two

There are many people who, as a profession, help others heal and grow.

These include (listed here in alphabetical order so as not to slight anyone!)

alcohol and substance abuse counselors

chiropractors

clinical psychologists

exercise and fitness trainers

homeopaths

licensed hypnotherapists

marriage, child and family counselors

massage therapists

medical doctors and other health practitioners

nurse practitioners

nutritionists

pastoral counselors

psychiatrists

social workers

stress management counselors

If you feel drawn to one or more of these, give them a try. See what the results are. If not helpful, try someone else. If helpful, try him or her again.

all I need is

someone to

talk to

about

you

but

you

are the

only person

I can really

talk to.

trapped.

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Thirty-nine:

When You Might Want Counseling or Therapy

Most loss, emotional crises or life difficulties do not require psychotherapy.

Nevertheless, professional assitance may be necessary or useful in the following instances:

if you fear actually doing damage to someone else or yourself--including acting on suicidal thoughts

if you seek solace in alcohol, drugs, overeating or other potentially harmful activities

if the support of wise friends and family is not enough

if you repeatedly find yourself in loss situations

if you don't feel good about yourself, are perpetually out of control or under strain most of the time

Most people spend more time selecting a car than a therapist. As with any "important purchase," shop around.

Interview several therapists. Ask questions. What is their method of working with clients? What do they charge? What is their estimated length of treatment?

How you feel about the therapist is of primary importance. Do you feel comfortable telling her anything about your life? Do you like him? Do you trust her? Does he treat you as an equal? Would you choose this person for a friend?

With a good therapist, significant benefits can often come in just a few sessions.

As soon as I

became aware

of my

addictive personality,

I gave up drugs

(illegal ones),

and I never started

on the legal poisons

like alcohol

or tobacco

or television.

But, fool that I am,

I forgot to give up

the most addictive

thing around--

The Hard Stuff:

Love.

And now it's too late.

I'm hooked for life.

An emotion-mainliner.

A touch-junkie.

A love addict.

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Forty:

A Complete Medical Workup May Be in Order

You might want to get a complete medical workup (physical exam, blood tests, the works). It's probably long overdue, anyway.

There are some physical illnesses triggered by loss, and there are some physical illnesses that feel like loss, even though the cause is physical.

Now might be a good time to take a look at the functioning of your body.

Your health care provider can best advise you on the value of this suggestion, as well as the extent of the tests.

If there is anything you fear you might discover in these tests, remember that knowledge is better (and more powerful) than fear.

is

romanticism

a

treatable

dis-

ease?

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Forty-one:

Some Depressions May Require Medication

If your symptoms of depression (page 9) seem severe or continue longer than normal, an hour spent with a well-informed psychiatrist discussing your situation and evaluating your next course of action--including the option of medication--can be invaluable.

All too often, people suffering symptoms of severe depression fail to seek psychiatric treatment because they fear the stigma of "mental illness."

This is an unfortunate irony because severe, chronic depression is a prevalent and well-recognized medical disorder, one as treatable as diabetes or hypertension.

Severe biological depression results from a biochemical imbalance in the brain. Antidepressants, taken as prescribed by a psychiatrist, are non-addictive and effective.

If you wonder whether you need antidepressant medication, contact a competent psychiatrist for an evaluation.

How many more times will

tears be my only comfort?

How many times will I see

that the potential is dead,

and that "our" love was

really in my head?

How many more times will

I give up,

and how many times will I

want you so bad that nothing

seems good?

How many times with you?

How many times

with how many

others?

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Forty-two:

Nutrition

Giving your body what it needs to function properly--and avoiding the things that interfere with its functioning--is important anytime, but particularly important following a loss.

Drink lots of water--eight to ten glasses per day.

Eat more fresh fruits and vegetables. Eat them raw, or lightly steamed.

Complex carbohydrates (whole grains, potatoes, pasta--yes, pasta!) are excellent sources of nutrition.

Reduce your intake of caffeine, nicotine, alcohol and cyclamates.

Beware of junk food attacks and sugar binges!

Take a good multi-vitamin/mineral supplement. Especially valuable during loss are vitamin C, the B vitamins, calcium and potassium.

Make all dietary changes gradually. Don't jump on a fad-diet bandwagon. Make a few changes, see how you feel, and make a few more.

Listen to your body. It will tell you what it needs.

The garden loves the rain

and, yes, this is love.

But the love I want for you

--the love I want to give you--

is the love

the rain

gives

the garden.

Loving is giving freedom.

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Forty-three:

Remember: You're Vulnerable

In these days of stress and recovery, remember that you're vulnerable.

Guard your physical health:

Get rest.

Don't overextend yourself.

Eat sensibly.

Get moderate exercise.

Drive more carefully.

Guard your emotional and mental health:

Be kind to yourself.

Stay away from toxic things, situations and people.

Take your time.

Don't try to understand, comprehend or figure everything out.

Don't take on jobs that aren't yours. (As the Talmud pointed out, "The sun will set without thy assistance.")

Don't enter into situations in which you must be "convinced." Your sales resistance may be low. Keep that in mind.

Invite help from people who are trustworthy and able to do what you request of them.

There is no need to overprotect yourself. Just be aware that much of your energy is being used for healing and that the body's natural defense mechanisms may be weakened.

Once upon a time,

and a very long time

ago it was, too,

I was innocent.

I did not know

what love was.

Pain was when you

fell from a tree.

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Forty-four:

Beware of the Rebound

Nature abhors a vacuum. You may find yourself rushing prematurely into romantic attachments in an attempt to fill that emptiness.

If your healing isn't complete, an initial rebound is likely to be followed by another loss, a second rebound, another loss, then another, until your emotional life is lived in the ricochet pattern of a handball court.

Falling "madly in love" soon after a traumatic breakup seems great at first: your wildest hopes and fantasies come true! But then the bottom falls out. You discover the new love is not that totally sensuous, intelligent, considerate, understanding, sophisticated god/goddess you initially perceived. Only a human, just like everyone else. Sigh.

If you want to fall in love with someone, how about trying yourself?

It's always

you & you & you

but it's really

me.

I'll try again

and gain again

and die again

and push on into the night.

To be reborn by a

look and a touch.

And to hope again that

this time it will last,

and to know

it will not be the last.

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Forty-five:

Under-Indulge in Addictive Activities

Beware of anything you may be--or may become--addicted to. Under-indulgence in the escape mechanisms of society is in order. Be with the pain, don't run away from it.

Alcohol may numb the pain momentarily, but it is a depressant, and the eventual effect will be greater depression.

Drugs (marijuana, uppers, downers, all the recreational chemicals) interfere with the natural healing process and should be avoided. A series of momentary "highs" is a poor trade-off for a deepening depression.

Calorie junkies beware! You may tend to overeat during this time, allowing "unwanted inches" to creep onto your waistline, causing a lowered self-image, resulting in even more depression. Better visit a diet center or your physician instead.

Smoking more now but enjoying it less?

Two great books on overcoming the addiction of negative thinking (or any other addiction) are You Can't Afford the Luxury of a Negative Thought and its companion workbook Focus on the Positive by and our own Peter McWilliams. You can find them at your local bookstore, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

I have done it to me again.

No other being has the power

to hurt me as deeply as I do.

It is the "need"

The "need" for love.

I need love because
I am not happy with I;

me is not satisfied with me.

In order to stop this hurting

I must reach a point of

contentment within myself.

And that'll take

some reaching.

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Forty-six:

Pamper Yourself

If you have a broken leg and are hospitalized, friends bring you flowers, relatives send baskets of fruit, you lie in bed all day reading or watching TV, nurses give you back rubs, doctors poke, prod and nod encouragingly.

In short, you are pampered.

If you have a broken heart, friends expect you to be your cheerful old self, relatives expect you to fulfill all your family obligations and you are expected to show up for work as energetic and efficient as ever.

In short, you must deal with a world that does not accept the fact that emotional pain not only hurts, but that it can be debilitating.

The solution? Pamper yourself.

In addition to the suggestions on the following page, do for yourself whatever your parents did to comfort you as a child.

Suggestions for pampering yourself:

Take a hot bath (no matter how you feel, thirty minutes after taking a hot bath you'll feel a lot better).

Give or get a massage (rough and vigorous or slow and sensual).

Snack on hot milk and cookies before bed.

Buy yourself something you'd really enjoy.

Treat yourself to your favorite double-dip ice-cream cone (with sprinkles).

Get a manicure, pedicure or any other cure.

Take a trip.

Bask in the sun.

Read a good book.

Watch a good video.

Take time for yourself.

Buy yourself a cashmere anything.

Go to a fine restaurant.

See a good movie, play, opera, horse race.

Visit an art museum.

Buy yourself a bouquet of flowers.

Acquiesce to your whims.

Enjoy!

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Forty-seven:

Dreams Can Be Healing

Healing is a full-time process, 24-hours a day, even while you sleep. Some say especially while you sleep.

You may get messages, information, insights or lessons from your dreams. Be open to them. You may want to keep a notebook by your bed to write them down.

Nightmares can be the body's process of resolving issues too painful or disturbing to encounter consciously. Know that healing is taking place. Once you know the images in a nightmare cannot hurt you, you can watch them like a movie--a horror movie, perhaps, but a movie nonetheless.

Consciously surround yourself with Goodness and Light before going to sleep, knowing that only that which is for your highest good will take place--no matter what you dream.Forty-nine:

clouds ingest the moon.

raindrops die with a

splat on concrete causeways

the floodgates are about to burst

a banshee howls

over our love.

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Forty-eight:

Sleep Patterns May Change

Changes in sleep patterns--how long you sleep or when you sleep--are common while healing.

If you have trouble falling asleep, wake up repeatedly during the night or wake up too early, this is known as insomnia.

Above all, insomnia is nothing to worry about. In fact, worrying about not sleeping can cause one to lose sleep. We all don't "need" eight hours every night, so if you are sleeping less for a while, that's fine.

You might try a glass of warm, low-fat milk before going to bed. Listen to soothing music, or to a tape of an uplifting meditation or lecture. If you find yourself trying to go to sleep for more than an hour, get up and do something else for a while. This breaks the pattern of worrying about worrying about sleeping.

If you wake at night, read or listen to something comforting and inspiring. Or, you might try meditation, contemplation or prayer. Late at night, when everything is still, is a wonderful time for contacting the goodness within and around you.

Over-the-counter sleeping pills are not recommended.

If you fear your insomnia is severe, see your doctor.

On the other hand, you may find yourself sleeping "too much." There is no such thing as "too much" sleep after a loss. Sleep until you wake up. Nap when you want to. Consider it part of your overall healing.

Someday I will

categorize

the

circle of pain

I put myself through

every time I get

hung up in someone.

I'll have a lot of time

to do it, too.

The insomnia's beginning.

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Forty-nine:

Sexual Desire May Change

A decrease--or complete lack--of sexual desire is often experienced after a loss. It is nothing to worry about. The body needs its energy for healing, and it automatically channels all available energy to that purpose.

Also common after loss is difficulty--or inability--to perform sexually. While frustrating and sometimes embarrassing, this, too, is nothing to worry about. Now is not the time to put more pressure on yourself. It's OK to take a break from sex for a while.

Full sexual desire and functioning will naturally return when the body has had a chance to heal itself.

who took the

L out of

Lover?

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Fifty:

Remaining Distraught Is No Proof of Love

Remaining distraught for a long period of time is not proof that you "really loved."

Of course you really loved. If you hadn't, you wouldn't have felt the loss in the first place.

The fact that you can heal rapidly is proof that you are focusing your energies on healing, not that you didn't love fully or completely.

You are not duty-bound to feel pain any longer than it's actually there.

I am missing you

far better than

I ever loved you.

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Fifty-one:

Surround Yourself with Goodness and Light

Whenever you think of it, ask that you be surrounded by all the Goodness and Light you can imagine.

"Good" is such an obvious thing, it's difficult to define. We all know what we consider the best, the highest, the greatest, the goodest. You can think of "Good" as in "The Good Earth," or "Good" as "God" with an extra "o!" added.

Light is a concept that seems to permeate almost every religious belief and spiritual practice. The Light of Nature to the Light of the Holy Spirit; the Light of the Sun to the Light of the Son.

Whenever you call upon this Goodness and Light, it's a good idea to ask that it do its work for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned. In this way, our own personal preferences of the moment are not competing with whatever higher goo

d may be planned for us.

Breathe deeply of Goodness and Light. Let it fill every cell of your body. Breathe it into any areas (mental, emotional or physical) in need of healing.

Asking for Goodness and Light to surround, fill, protect and heal you, for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned, need not take long--a few seconds at most (as long as it took you to read this sentence).

It takes so little time, and the potential rewards are so great, we consider it a good investment in your healing and growing.

Life is

not a

struggle.

It's a wiggle.

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Fifty-two:

Pray, Meditate, Contemplate

Whatever methods of prayer, meditation or contemplation you know--or would like to know better--now is a good time to use them.

When we become still, the pain may resurface. That's fine. Let it be there, and continue with your inner work. Hurt that arises during prayer, meditation or contemplation is healing in nature.

When praying, we suggest you ask, primarily, for the strength to endure, the power to heal and the wisdom to learn.

I missed you last night.

I missed you this morning.

I meditated.

I no longer miss you.

I love you.

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Fifty-three:

Keep a Journal

You might find keeping a journal or diary helpful.

Putting your thoughts and emotions on paper is a good way of getting things out, of setting them in order.

Don't add any "I will make an entry every day or else" rules to your journal keeping. Write when you feel like it, and when you don't, forget it.

(The various authors of this tome have, at one time or another, attempted to keep journals. Only one of us [the compulsive one] thus far has succeeded for more than a month.)

I write only

until I cry,

which is why

so few poems

this month

have been

completed.

It's just

that

I...

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Fifty-four:

There Is a Beauty in Sadness

There is a certain beauty in sadness (and here we mean genuine sadness, not self-pity).

We cannot elaborate upon this further (not even the corn-fed poet in our midst dares do that), but we thought it was worth mentioning. If you are enjoying the beauty of being sad, it's perfectly all right.

you left

traces

of your self

all over my room:

a poem scribbled in the

margin of a book

a corner of a page

turned over in another book.

your smell on my blanket.

where are you tonight?

in whose room are you leaving

traces?

are you perhaps

discovering

the traces of my self

I left on your soul?

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Fifty-five:

Let Yourself Heal Fully

Let the healing process run its full course.

A time of convalescence is very important.

For a while, don't become involved in an all-consuming passionate romance or a new project that requires great time and energy.

Just follow your daily routine--and let yourself heal.

If you do not allow the hurt to heal completely, you may find emotional over-sensitivity the result. You might flinch at every new encounter.

Let yourself heal.

It will never be the same.

I will never be the same.

You came.

We loved.

You left.

I will survive until I survive.

And one day, I will

find

myself alive again.

And another day

another's path will

run parallel to mine

for awhile.

And yet another day,

you will return,

and I will see

It is not the same.

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Fifty-six:

Affirm Yourself

To "affirm" is to "make firm." Make firm the loving, healing and positive thoughts you have about yourself and your life.

An affirmation usually begins "I am" and is always stated in the present tense. Claim what you want as though you already have it. "I am healthy, wealthy and happy," not "I want to be healthy, wealthy and happy."

Say aloud, over and over, these, or any other affirmations you may create:

"I am alive. I will survive."

"I am healing."

"I am surrendering to the process of healing."

"I am healing fully."

"I am healing naturally."

"I am gentle with myself."

"My heart is mending."

"I am stronger."

"I have the courage to grow."

"I am grateful for so much."

"I am patient with my healing."

"My patience will outlast my pain."

I am

the nicest

thing I could

ever do for

myself.

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Fifty-seven:

Visualization

Visualizing is imagining the outcome of something--what the future will be.

We all visualize--often. We consider the future, and envision it either positively or negatively. Our problem occurs when we negatively visualize--imagining a future of lack, loneliness and despair.

Take a moment and visualize a positive outcome. Imagine yourself healed, happily alive, thriving, loving and loved.

Use as many of your senses as you can. See, feel, hear, taste and smell your joyful, nurturing future.

Start slowly--a minute or so at first. Then build--visualization by visualization, day by day--imagining your positive future for longer and longer periods of time.

Soon, your present will be the positive future you imagine now. That--or something greater, of course--for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned.

When we are

together

we are one,

when we are

apart

each is

whole.

Let this be our dream.

Let this be our goal.

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Fifty-eight:

Use Color to Lift Your Spirit

You've probably noticed that certain colors have certain effects. We feel different walking into a dimly lit black room than we do walking into a brightly lit yellow room.

As much as possible, stay in the "up" spectrum of colors--yellow, orange, red and pastels.

Also, surround yourself with green--be it clothing, food, furniture or plants. Green is soothing and seems to promote healing and growth.

And stay away from black and blue--you've been bruised enough already.

Color

me

healed.

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Fifty-nine:

Laugh!

Laughter is one of the most healing activities around.

Whatever it is that makes you laugh, do it.

Rent a video, buy a comedy tape, read a funny book, talk to people who make you laugh. Ask your friends to call you with anecdotes, stories and jokes they may have, hear or meet.

And, yes, it's OK to laugh about your loss.

There is a fine line between tragedy and comedy. Seeing the humor in your loss, your reaction to the loss and even your memories about what was lost, can be healing.

You are not being disloyal to that which you loved by seeing the humor in him, her or it.

Humor can, in fact, honor the relationship.

Why must I

always fall for

chicken *****

on

ego trips?

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Sixty:

As Healing Continues

As your healing continues, you will find

your thinking sharpened

your judgement sounder and more reliable

your concentration and memory improved

a desire to be with others more

a desire to do more for others

your feelings become more expansive, optimistic and alive

You'll feel stronger, more content and independent.

You'll want to get out, get moving and try new things.

A new morning

of a

new life

without you.

So?

There will be others,

much finer,

much mine-er.

And until then,

there is me.

And because I treated

you

well,

I like me better.

Also, the sun rises.

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GROWING

and

through

all the tears

and the

sadness

and the

pain

comes the

one thought

that can

make

me internally

smile again

I

have

loved.

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Sixty-one:

You're Stronger Now

You have experienced a loss, encountered it with courage (at least some of the time) and have survived.

You've learned that

You can survive.

The pain does lessen.

Much of what you feared did not come to pass.

Healing does occur.

But don't just settle for surviving and healing. Use this experience as a springboard for greater growth.

the last day of my

loving you is

at hand.

in hand,

a pen, writing one of

the last poems

exclusively yours.

my pain fades,

as autumn did.

winter is too intense

a season to miss

someone in

the last leaf

fell today.

the first snow

falls tonight.

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Sixty-two:

Let Go of the Loss and Move On

At a certain point (and that point differs from loss to loss and from person to person), it's time to leave the loss behind and move on.

Don't be surprised if you actually miss the process of mourning. Some people mourn the loss of the mourning process.

Let go of the past. Look forward to the future.

You will, of course, occasionally look over your shoulder, but, for the most part, focus on the future and keep moving ahead.

Let yourself enjoy the excitement of uncertainty.

I shall miss loving you.

I shall miss the

Comfort

of your embrace.

I shall miss the

Loneliness

of waiting for your

calls that never came.

I shall miss the Joy

of our comings,

and Pain

of your goings.

and,

after a time,

I shall miss

missing

loving

you.

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Sixty-three:

Forgiveness Is Letting Go

To forgive does not just mean to pardon, it means to let go.

Jesus, probably the greatest teacher of forgiveness in history ("Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do"), used the Aramaic word shaw when he spoke of forgiveness. Shaw means "to untie."

If you are tied to a rock that is pulling you down in the water, all you have to do is forgive it (untie it) and swim toward the light.

When you forgive the past, you untie yourself from the past, and are free.

To forgive also means to be for (in favor of) giving (to deliver a gift). When you forgive, you affirm that you are in favor of giving.

To whom do you give? Another? Sometimes. Yourself? Always. When you release another to go his or her own way, you free yourself to do the same.

The process of giving yourself this gift of freedom is forgiveness.

The forgetting

is difficult.

The remembering,

worse.

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Sixty-four:

Forgive the Other Person

Whenever you can, as soon as you can, forgive the other person.

You do this not for the other person, you do this for yourself--your peace of mind and the quality of your future relationships.

A simple, but remarkably effective, technique of forgiveness is this:

First say, "I forgive ___________ (the person, event or thing that caused your loss) for ____________ (what they did to cause the loss)." That's the first part of forgiveness.

Then say, "I forgive myself for judging ___________ (same person, event or thing) for ___________ (same transgression)."

The second part of forgiveness--forgiving yourself for judging another--is important, but often overlooked. Your judgement of the other person's action is what hurt you emotionally. When you forgive his or her action, you must also forgive <E

M>your judgement of his or her action.

It may take many repetitions of the above sentences to untie the many layers of transgressions and judgements--but keep at it. You can, and will, be free.

The love

I give you

is second hand.

I feel it first.

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Sixty-five:

Forgive Yourself

Whenever you can, as soon as you can, forgive yourself.

Whatever errors, transgressions, failings, weaknesses, infractions or mistakes you feel you made to cause the loss--real or imagined--forgive yourself for those.

The process is the same as forgiving another. Surround yourself with Goodness and Light and say, "I forgive myself for __________ (the failing)." Then add, "I forgive myself for judging myself for _________ (the same failing)."

Again, the most powerful part of the process is forgiving yourself for having judged yourself for whatever you did (or didn't do). Who (besides parents, teachers, society and nearly everyone else) said you must be perfect?

Forgive yourself for being human, forgive yourself for judging your humanness, and move on.

At a critical moment I said:

"I would rather you go

and regret your going

than stay

and regret your staying."

Some day I'm going to

learn to keep my mouth

shut.

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Sixty-six:

Take Stock of the Good

Now that the pain is less, understanding can grow.

You may begin seeing change and separation as a natural, inevitable and necessary part of life.

The relationship brought you a great deal of good (that's why you missed it so terribly when it was no longer there). Much of it is still with you. Now is the time to take stock of that good:

He taught you to appreciate good food.

She occasioned your interest in skiing.

That job taught you a great deal about computers.

You are a better person for having loved.

Sifting through the

ashes of our relationship,

I find many things

to be grateful for.

I can say "thank you" for

warm mornings,

cold protein drinks,

and all the love you have ever offered

another.

I can say "thank you"

for being there,

willing to be shared.

I can say "thank you" for

the countless poems you were

the inspiration for and the

many changes you were

catalyst to.

But how, in my grasp of

the English language,

faltering as it is,

can I ever

thank

you

for

Beethoven

?

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Sixty-seven:

You Are a Better Person for Having Loved

You cared.

You became involved.

You learned to invest yourself.

Your interaction permitted loving and caring.

Even though you lost, you are a better person for having loved.

You were the best of loves,

you were the worst of loves

and you left behind several

unintended gifts:

Through you I re-examined my

need (uh, desire?) for

one significant other to

share my life. You commanded in

me an unwilling (but

probably much-needed)

re-evaluation of self, behavior patterns

relationshipping, & a corresponding change

in attitudes; i.e. growth.

I'm nicer to people.

I'm more in touch with my feelings

the things and persons around me, life.

And, of course, a scattering of poems

(the best of poems, the worst of poems)

that never would have happened

without your disruptions.

Thanks.

Sixty-eight:

Praise Yourself for the Courage to Relate

You are a richer, deeper, wiser person for having invested in a relationship--even if that relationship ended in loss.

Praise yourself for the courage to relate.

"Courage" is based on the French word for "from the heart." It took great heart to care, to be vulnerable, to love. Praise, honor and celebrate your heart.

Would we dare quote something as clichd as, "It is far, far better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"? Of course we wouldn't.

Now's the time to see what lessons you learned from your loss, and what possible good is contained within the loss.

Love,

no matter what

you feel it for,

is still love.

The object does not

change the emotion.

But the emotion

quite often

changes the object.

Sixty-nine:

Changes

A new chapter in your life has begun, and is by now well under way.

Know that you have the ability to make the changes this new chapter requires.

Be prepared to make an adjustment, perhaps two or three.

Now is a good time to start experimenting with new behaviors, new activities, new ways of fulfilling the day-to-day needs that are still unattended.

It will take courage, but it is exciting.

This might even be fun!

The need you

grew

still remains.

But less and less

you seem the way

to fill that need.

I am.

Seventy:

Start Anew

Be open.

Be open to new people, places, ideas, experiences.

It's time to move far beyond the "I'll never love again--love only brings pain" attitude.

Do your best to

Remain trusting.
Maintain a lively curiosity.
Be open to learn.

Visit new places.

Now's the time to

Redecorate (or at least clean) your apartment.
Buy (or make) some new clothes.
Learn--whatever it is you've always wanted to know (pottery or politics).

Choose (and pursue) new goals.

The difference between

love and loving

is the difference between

fish and fishing.

Seventy-one:

Invite New People into Your Life

Now is the time to make new friends, associates, colleagues.

Attend meetings, concerts, plays, social events--any public gathering of kindred souls. (It's fine to go alone.)

Meet your neighbors.

Find in yourself the courage to introduce yourself to anyone--even a total stranger.

When making new acquaintances, ask questions that require more than a "yes" or "no" answer.

Use "how" and "why" questions rather than only "what" or "who."

Offer to drive people home or invite them out for a cup of coffee.

Carry paper and pen to share phone numbers. You might even have calling cards printed. (Whatever happened to calling cards?)

I am not

a total

stranger.

I am a

perfect

stranger.

Seventy-two:

Develop New Interests. . .

Now's the time to develop new interests.

Archery's always held some fascination? How about water polo? Marco Polo? Piano solo? Explore whatever or wherever you want to explore--on video or in person.

Is it time to get that personal computer?

A new language? Brush up on an old language? (English, perhaps?) How about a course in bookkeeping--or bee keeping?

Gardening? Sewing? Canning? Auto maintenance? Garment weaving? Gourmet cooking? Metal shop?

Read a book. Take a class. Learn--and above all do--something new.

Yes, we can even recommend a book on computers! It's Peter McWilliams' Personal Computer Book and it's available at local bookstores, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

Seventy-three:

. . .But Don't Forget the Old Interests

Don't forget about the old interests and activities you've let lapse.

Rediscover the ones that gave you a special sense of achievement, excitement, joy.

In choosing new and old interests, be sure to intersperse those activities which require people and those which you do best alone.

Seventy-four:

Groups

Perhaps you feel shy, or simply don't want to make new contacts on your own. If so, groups may be the answer.

There are literally hundreds of groups you can join. Check the Yellow Pages under "Clubs," "Associations," "Fellowships," etc. You can join a group to learn something, to travel, to meet people, to celebrate common interests--there are so many possibi
lities.

Church-sponsored groups are readily available.

There are many groups that cater especially to the newly-single-again individual. They include

Parents without Partners
The Singletons
Singles Dating Club
Over-30 Club

The Toastmasters' Club helps develop speaking skills that may be helpful in expressing yourself to others.

Adult education classes, "Y" groups, and programs sponsored by The American Youth Hostels offer opportunities not only for learning new skills, but for meeting others in a comfortable environment.

Someday we are going to be lovers.

Maybe married.

At the very least, an affair.

What's your name?

Seventy-five:

Self-Improvement Anyone?

It may be time to change (one at a time, please) something you'd like to change about yourself:

Go on a diet.
Stop smoking.
Stop drinking.
Begin an exercise program.

Seek professional help if necessary, and/or join a recognized group (AA, Weight Watchers, etc.). Be gentle with yourself, but set a realistic goal and then achieve it.

At the same time, accentuate your positives. Be even more

tolerant
trusting/trustworthy
helpful
giving
concerned
loving
yourself

A great book to read is LIFE 101: Everything We Wish We Had Learned About Life in School--But Didn't by Peter McWilliams. Available at your local bookstore, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

Maturity

is a very

magical

thing

Now you see it,

now you don't.

Seventy-six:

Your Words Have Power

You should not use "should."

Never use "never."

We wish you wouldn't use "wish."

Hopefully you'll give up "hope."

Maybe you'd be better off without "maybe."

You must not use "must."

Things are seldom black or white. We live in a world of "often," "sometimes" and "seldom." Using those words gives those around you more freedom--more freedom to be themselves, to be human and simply to be.

And be sure to give the same freedom to yourself.

I've heard a lot

about the dangers of

living beyond one's means.

What worries me, however,

is my current habit of

living beyond my meanings.

Seventy-seven:

Think "Both/And" Rather Than "Either/Or"

Your relationship with whomever or whatever you loved was both "good" and "bad." Such is life.

Life is not either good or bad. Life includes both good and bad.

Life is not lived in one extreme, struggling to eliminate the other. Life is the continuum between the extremes.

After a loss, people tend to dwell on the darker side of life and long for a time when everything will be "perfect" again.

Life was never perfect. Life always included both perfect and imperfect. It always has, and it always will.

Welcome to life.

Perfect joy and

perfect sorrow.

One following another,

following another.

The poles, the extremes,

of emotional life, and

all points in between.

Following one another.

Following one another.

Gently up, gently down,

like the ocean under a boat.

Seventy-eight:

The Freedom to Choose

Enjoy your freedom.

You're in control now.

Make the most of the ability to choose

where
what
how
when
why
who

You can make (and make well) the necessary decisions to

sort
clean
rearrange
discard
acquire

You are bringing order into your world again. You can choose the world you want to have around you.

A great book on choosing goals and fulfilling dreams is DO IT! Let's Get Off Our Buts by Peter McWilliams. Available (guess where!) at your local bookstore, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

I don't want

to build my

life around you,

but I do want to

include you

in the building

of my life.

Seventy-nine:

It's OK to Ask

Seek the support of others in achieving your goals.

Do not, however, depend upon their approval or assistance before you move toward your goal.

If they don't want to go to Hawaii with you, aloha alone.

It is a risk to love.

What if it doesn't

work out?

Ah,

but what if it does?

Eighty:

It's OK for Others to Say No

Rejection isn't personal.

When people say "no" to you, they're merely saying "yes" to some other portion of their life. You have nothing to do with it. Therefore, there's no need to take it personally.

When you learn to allow others to say "no" and not become upset by it, you get two rewards: (1) you are less upset, and (2) you tend to ask others more often for what you want. (If you don't experience "no" as a rejection, then there's no fear of reje
ction.)

The more people you ask, the more chances you have of getting what you want.

In baseball, the very best hitters only get three hits every ten times at bat. And guess who has the all-time strike-out record? Babe Ruth.

If one-third the people you ask say yes, you are doing very well. Even if only one in 100 says yes, that's one more than you would have had without asking.

I don't know

how to lose.

That's part of the problem.

I don't know

how to win, either.

That's the other part.

Eighty-one:

It's OK for Others to Say Yes

Some people fear acceptance more than rejection.

This usually springs from a lack of self worth. When we don't feel worthy, we think things like, "You'll go out with me? I thought you had good taste," or ask questions such as, "I'm hired? What's wrong with the company?"

The secret of self-esteem is to do good things, and remember that you've done them.

Learn to accept acceptance.

When people say "You look lovely," "That was beautiful," "I appreciate your skill," "You make me feel great," take it in.

help me.

show me that

I can love with

out

fears, frustrations,

falsehoods, hesitations.

show me the

face of

god.

Eighty-two:

Fear Can Be a Friend

When we label an emotion "fear," we tend to back away from the action causing the fear (basically, anything new).

If we label the same emotion "excitement" or "adventure," we have the energy to move into the new activity with renewed vigor and enthusiasm.

Fear is the energy to do your best in a new situation.

There is no need to "get rid of" fear. We need only reprogram our attitude toward fear. If we treat it as a friend, it makes a great companion on our explorations of the new.

The world is good.

I feel whole & directed.

Touch my Joy with me.

I cannot keep

my smiles

in single file.

Eighty-three:

The Antidote for Anxiety Is Action

Worried about something?

Do something about it.

Take a physical action to correct, solve, communicate or educate yourself about whatever concerns you.

The action may be as simple as a phone call, writing a letter, taking a walk or reading a book.

You may discover there is nothing to worry about. If you discover there is something to worry about, use worry as the energy to make an improvement.

We are such

good friends

you & I.

After being

with you

for only

a little while

I

no longer

relate to

sadness.

Eighty-four:

Postpone Procrastination

We're going to write this chapter real soon.

Honest.

We promise.

Cross our hearts.

Tomorrow.

Thursday at the latest.

I have this

great poem on

procrastination--

I'll send it to you

real soon.

As soon as

I write it

down.

Eighty-five:

The Past

Remember: the healing process continues even while you're growing.

Memories may come drifting back one Sunday morning or when "our song" is played on the radio.

Expect this. It doesn't mean you're sinking back into depression, it's just the ebb and flow of healing and growing.

Be with the feeling. Know that it soon will pass.

I know our

time together

is no more.

Then why do

words

come to mind

that call you

back?

Why do I plan

lifetimes

that include

you?

Why do I

torture

myself

with love

I never felt

while you were

here?

Eighty-six:

Anniversaries

You may experience the loss in miniature when anniversaries, birthdays or other significant reminders appear.

Know that your recovery from the pain of such reminders will be faster, and that all you've learned to survive, heal and grow the first time around will be just as valuable the second time.

The third anniversary will hurt less; the fourth, even less.

Note the dates of upcoming anniversaries. Plan activities that are particularly enjoyable, uplifting and comforting on those days.

Eventually, all you'll remember is the loving.

It's been two years

since we talked last.

You lead a church choir

somewhere.

The pauses between your

sentences are longer.

More pregnant--or so

you would like the world

to believe. They make me

as uncomfortable as

ever.

"A person out of the past"

you keep saying, unwilling

to accept my present.

Questions answered by questions.

Statements questioned by silence.

Your ambiguity and my ambivalence

clash again,

for the last time.

Eighty-seven:

Solitude

You can enjoy being alone again.

Explore and appreciate solitude.

"Alone" does not mean "lonely."

Solitary pursuits can be

delight-filled
restful
exciting
in joy able
a prelude to creativity
spending time with the most important person in your life--you
fun

Enjoying yourself is a prerequisite to genuinely enjoying others.

The difference between

"a1one"

and

"a11 one"

is

1

(me),

and a little space.

Eighty-eight:

Creativity

You'll find yourself once again remarkable in touch with your creative energy. Do something with it.

What do you do that is creative? Write? Sing? Dance? Act? Bake cherry pies? Give massages?

Well, whatever it is or they are, DO!

For example, did you know that you are a poet? Prove it to yourself. Sit down with a pencil and paper. (Pen and paper will do.) Find out what you're feeling, find a though or group of words that fits that feeling and write them down.

Now, instead of writing the words this way,

write

them

this way.

Put words that you want to

stand

out

on separate lines.

Forget

every

thing

"they" taught you about

poetry

in

school.

Do this three or four times. Keep it up. You'll get a poem. Honest.

Rule 1: Line for line, poetry need not rhyme.

Rule 2: Honest, clear expression of a fully felt experience is what poetry is all about.

Eighty-nine:

Enjoy!

Be happy, cheerful, joyful, delighted, pleased--as often as you can, as much as you can, for as long as you can.

You may feel some guilt about being joyful after a loss. Know that you are not being disloyal to the love you lost by moving on with your life--and moving on must certainly include joy.

This poem

is a kiss

for your mind.

Ninety:

Appreciation

As you grow, you will begin to regain your sense of appreciation, of awe. The sense of childlike wonder, which was lost to you for a while, will return.

Enjoy it.

Sunsets and children laughing. City streets and country roads. The wonder of "this time called life."

The Wonder Years need never end.

The cosmic dance

to celestial melodies,

free form within

patterns of precise

limitations.

The painting I know

so well. The canvas

I want to learn,

and, perhaps,

someday,

the artist.

Ninety-one:

Do Something for Someone Else

If you begin feeling sorry for yourself (not genuine sorrow, but the "poor put-upon me" variety), the best way to cure this is to do something for someone else.

Drive someone to the grocery store.
Tune a friend's car.
Volunteer to take calls at the local suicide prevention center, rap line, hot line or similar service.
Visit someone in a hospital--anyone.
Wash windows or do housework for an older person.
Read to the blind.
Talk to the lonely.
Listen to the ignored.

Giving is the greatest gift you can give yourself.

As the saying goes, "Don't return a favor; pass it on." Now's the time to pass on all the good favors you received during your time of loss.

In taking,

I get.

In giving,

I receive.

In being loved,

I am filled full.

In loving,

I am fulfilled.

The greatest gift

is to fill a

need unnoticed.

Ninety-two:

Appreciate Your Growth

Having weathered a crisis, expect to discover

a stronger you
a different you
a more evolved you

You're changing and growing into

a happier you
a more joyful you
an independent you

The world outside

is a mirror,

reflecting the

good & bad

joy & sorrow

laughter & tears

within me.

Some people are

difficult mirrors

to look into,

but you

I look at you

and I see

all the beauty

inside of me.

Ninety-three:

Your Happiness Is Up to You

Happiness depends on your attitude toward what happens to you, not on what happens to you.

It may sound revolutionary, but problems don't have to make you unhappy.

This runs counter to our cultural programming--which tells us we must react in certain negative ways to certain "negative" events.

Nonetheless, happiness is always our choice. That is a reality of life.

Stop waiting for Prince Charming, Cinderella, more money, the right job, total health or anything else before you're happy.

Stop waiting.

Choose satisfaction.

Be happy.

Now.

I am worthy.

I am worthy of my life and

all the good that is in it.

I am worthy of

my friends and their friendship.

I am worthy of spacious skies, amber waves

of grain and purple mountain majesties

above the fruited plain. (I am worthy, too,

of the fruited plain.)

I am worthy of a degree of happiness

that could only be referred to as

"sinful" in less enlightened times.

I am worthy of creativity,

sensitivity and appreciation.

I am worthy of peace of mind, peace on Earth,

peace in the valley and a piece of the action.

I am worthy of God's presence in my life.

I am worthy of my love.

Ninety-four:

Celebrate!

Throw a Survival Celebration party.

Invite everyone who helped in your survival, healing and growth. Ask each of them to bring a friend (a great way to meet new people).

If a party is not your style, be sure to acknowledge the help and support you received from others. Send thank-you notes, flowers, gifts or whatever you find appropriate.

Remember the value of the help you received when you come across others in need.

And, especially, give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done.

You've been through losing, surviving, healing and growing.

Now it's time for celebrating.

CONGRATULATIONS!

My love and

God's Light

be with you

in all that

you are and

in all that

you do.

01-12-2005, 01:36 AM

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Hopefloats

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MG...I am going to send this to my bf work and have him print this out for me:>) As I began reading this, I thought OH where was this information when I was 27, and going through the WORST heartbreak of my life. That loss was unbearable..OR so I thought. IF I had only had this to read back then.
Thanks MG and (((Hugs))))
Hopefloats

01-12-2005, 03:33 AM

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Time2Surrender

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Great post MG! I saved this one to my files.

01-12-2005, 03:55 AM

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Ann

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MG, I only had time to read part of this post this morning, but I will be printing it out and reading the rest tonight.

Thank you again, MG, for taking the time to post something so helpful and meaningful for all of us. Posts like this are the treasures of SR.

Hugs
Ann

01-12-2005, 03:58 AM

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historyteach

To Life!

Join Date: Oct 2003

Location: Rhode Island

Posts: 9,293

I too wish I had seen this years ago.
And, it reminds me of how far I've come....
and how far I have to go.
To forgive....and to allow...all of life
Then, I will be ready to celebrate.
For now, I will be grateful....
for where I've been; for how far I've come; and for this type of information that shines the light on the path I must take.
Thank you.

L'Chaim!

01-12-2005, 05:34 AM

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virgovixen

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Location: New Jersey

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Great post, can you make it a "sticky". I know I'll want to come back to this one. I am definetaly in Limbo Loss, and really feeling it today. Thanks MG.

01-12-2005, 05:51 AM

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osier59

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((( MG )))

Wow. Thanks

Barb

01-12-2005, 05:56 AM

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Hangin' In

Southern through and through

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Location: In.....trouble :-)

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MG,

Thanks so much. Can you please "stickyize" this one? If not, I'm saving it somewhere on my computer.

01-12-2005, 06:09 AM

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iamunique

suffering is not a requirement

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Location: rising above the ashes

Posts: 147

Life
is
very
short,
and ther's
No time
for
fussing
and
fighting
my
friend.....the Beatles

Wow MG. Thank you. I'm gonna put this one on my desktop. This reminded me of the losses I've had in my life but also reminded me-with each loss I've learned something valuable
With the loss of my fiance to cancer,(I'd have to say that was my most painful loss), I learned how precious life is. I'll never Thank God for taking him but I do Thank God for putting him in my life. We never know when our time is up. He gave me a wonderful gift. The gift of appreciating my life and the people in it. Not to take anyone for granted. To get the very most out of my life.
I try to live my life that way, but being the human being I am, sometimes I forget. So thank you again for the reminder!
With Love and Hugs, Iamunique

01-12-2005, 06:55 AM

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Wolfstarr

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I really needed this...Thank you so much MG...
Hugs
Wolfstarr

01-12-2005, 07:09 AM

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Jewelz

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MG Thank you, I couldn't read everything but I will print it out now. WOW it was unbelieveable something as great as this we can always go back and refelt on it thanks again.

Jewelz

01-12-2005, 08:13 AM

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Mary Petunia

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There is also a "workbook" that goes along with the book "How to Survive the Loss of a Love" that is wonderful and therapeutic. I worked thru it when I had my heart shredded years ago, but I dug it out because I thought the content was very applicable to the current shredding!!!

01-12-2005, 08:23 AM

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Jewelz

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OMG I am printing this at work and its a 137 pgs.. hehehe still printing

01-12-2005, 08:27 AM

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Gooch

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wow ....

Thank you MG...

and to the one who called my attention to this..

Thank you!

01-12-2005, 09:26 AM

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Phinneas

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I really need this right now. I had forgotten about this book. The timing is perfect... just, thanks.

jojo

01-12-2005, 10:28 AM

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LizzyB

Try A Little Tenderness...

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Thank-you sooooo much for this MG. I'm going to print this as soon as my printer starts to co-operate with me. So, yeah, a "sticky" would be fabulous...and much appreciated. And...MG? You make my heart smile...(really wide too)

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How to Survive the Loss of a Love

How to Survive the Loss of a Love

UNDERSTANDING LOSS

OBVIOUS LOSSES

NOT-SO-OBVIOUS LOSSES

LOSS RELATED TO AGE

LIMBO LOSSES

Limbo losses often feel like this:

INEVITABLE LOSSES

OTHER LOSSES

WHAT LOSS FEELS LIKE

THE STAGES OF RECOVERY

SURVIVING

One: You Will Survive

Two: If You Need It, Get Help at Once

Three: Acknowledge the Loss

Four: You Are Not Alone

Five: It's OK to Feel

Six: Be with the Pain

Seven: You're Great!

Eight: Give Yourself Time to Heal

Nine: The Healing Process Has Its Progressions and Regressions

Ten: Tomorrow Will Come

Eleven: Breathe!

Twelve: Get Lots of Rest--Now

Thirteen: Stick to Your Schedule

Fourteen: Keep Decision-Making to a Minimum

Fifteen: It's OK to Make "Silly" Mistakes

Sixteen: It's OK to Go through the Motions in Slow Motion

Seventeen: It's OK to Need Comforting

Eighteen: Seek the Support of Others

Nineteen: Touching and Hugging

Twenty: Find Others Who Have Survived a Similar Loss

Twenty-one: Seek Wise Guidance

Twenty-two: Surround Yourself with Things That Are Alive

Twenty-three: Reaffirm Your Beliefs

Twenty-four: Sundays Are the Worst

Twenty-five: The Question of Suicide

HEALING

Twenty-six: Do Your Mourning Now

Twenty-seven: Earlier Losses May Surface

Twenty-eight: Be Gentle with Yourself

Twenty-nine: Heal at Your Own Pace

Thirty: Don't Try to Rekindle the Old Relationship

Thirty-one: Make a Pact with a Friend

Thirty-two: Mementos

Thirty-three: Anticipate a Positive Outcome

Thirty-four: Expect to Feel Afraid

Thirty-five: It's OK to Feel Depressed

Thirty-six: It's OK to Feel Anger

Thirty-seven: It's OK to Feel Guilty

Thirty-eight: You May Want to Hire a Professional or Two

Thirty-nine: When You Might Want Counseling or Therapy

Forty: A Complete Medical Workup May Be in Order

Forty-one: Some Depressions May Require Medication

Forty-two: Nutrition

Forty-three: Remember: You're Vulnerable

Forty-four: Beware of the Rebound

Forty-five: Under-Indulge in Addictive Activities

Forty-six: Pamper Yourself

Forty-seven: Dreams Can Be Healing

Forty-eight: Sleep Patterns May Change

Forty-nine: Sexual Desire May Change

Fifty: Remaining Distraught Is No Proof of Love

Fifty-one: Surround Yourself with Goodness and Light

Fifty-two: Pray, Meditate, Contemplate

Fifty-three: Keep a Journal

Fifty-four: There Is a Beauty in Sadness

Fifty-five: Let Yourself Heal Fully

Fifty-six: Affirm Yourself

Fifty-seven: Visualization

Fifty-eight: Use Color to Lift Your Spirit

Fifty-nine: Laugh!

Sixty: As Healing Continues

GROWING

Sixty-one: You're Stronger Now

Sixty-two: Let Go of the Loss and Move On

Sixty-three: Forgiveness Is Letting Go

Sixty-four: Forgive the Other Person

Sixty-five: Forgive Yourself

One:

You Will Survive

Two:

If You Need It, Get Help at Once

Three:

Acknowledge the Loss

Four:

You Are Not Alone

Five:

It's OK to Feel

Six:

Be with the Pain

Seven:

You're Great!

Eight:

Give Yourself Time to Heal

Nine:

The Healing Process Has Its Progressions and
Regressions

Ten:

Tomorrow Will Come

Eleven:

Breathe!

Twelve:

Get Lots of Rest--Now

Thirteen:

Stick to Your Schedule

Fourteen:

Keep Decision-Making to a Minimum

Fifteen:

It's OK to Make "Silly" Mistakes

Sixteen:

It's OK to Go through the Motions in Slow Motion

Seventeen:

It's OK to Need Comforting

Eighteen:

Seek the Support of Others

Nineteen:

Touching and Hugging

Twenty:

Find Others Who Have Survived a Similar Loss

Twenty-one:

Seek Wise Guidance

Twenty-two:

Surround Yourself with Things That Are Alive

Twenty-three:

Reaffirm Your Beliefs

Twenty-four:

Sundays Are the Worst

Twenty-five:

The Question of Suicide

Twenty-six:

Do Your Mourning Now

Twenty-seven:

Earlier Losses May Surface

Twenty-eight:

Be Gentle with Yourself

Twenty-nine:

Heal at Your Own Pace

Thirty:

Don't Try to Rekindle the Old Relationship

Thirty-one:

Make a Pact with a Friend

Thirty-two:

Mementos

Thirty-three:

Anticipate a Positive Outcome

Thirty-four:

Expect to Feel Afraid

Thirty-five:

It's OK to Feel Depressed

Thirty-six:

It's OK to Feel Anger

Thirty-seven:

It's OK to Feel Guilty

Thirty-eight:

You May Want to Hire a Professional or Two

Thirty-nine:

When You Might Want Counseling or Therapy

Forty:

A Complete Medical Workup May Be in Order

Forty-one:

Some Depressions May Require Medication

Forty-two:

Nutrition

Forty-three:

Remember: You're Vulnerable

Forty-four:

Beware of the Rebound

Forty-five:

Under-Indulge in Addictive Activities

Forty-six:

Pamper Yourself

Forty-seven:

Dreams Can Be Healing

Forty-eight:

Sleep Patterns May Change

Forty-nine:

Sexual Desire May Change

Fifty:

Remaining Distraught Is No Proof of Love

Fifty-one:

Surround Yourself with Goodness and Light

Fifty-two:

Pray, Meditate, Contemplate

Fifty-three:

Keep a Journal

Fifty-four:

There Is a Beauty in Sadness

Fifty-five:

Let Yourself Heal Fully

Fifty-six:

Affirm Yourself

Fifty-seven:

Visualization

Fifty-eight:

Use Color to Lift Your Spirit

Fifty-nine:

Laugh!

Sixty:

As Healing Continues

Sixty-one:

You're Stronger Now

Sixty-two:

Let Go of the Loss and Move On

Sixty-three:

Forgiveness Is Letting Go

Sixty-four:

Forgive the Other Person

Sixty-five:

Forgive Yourself

Sixty-six:

Take Stock of the Good

Sixty-seven:

You Are a Better Person for Having Loved

Sixty-eight:

Praise Yourself for the Courage to Relate

Sixty-nine:

Changes

Seventy:

Start Anew

Seventy-one:

Invite New People into Your Life

Seventy-two:

Develop New Interests. . .

Seventy-three:

. . .But Don't Forget the Old Interests

Seventy-four:

Groups

Seventy-five:

Self-Improvement Anyone?

Seventy-six:

Your Words Have Power

Seventy-seven:

Think "Both/And" Rather Than "Either/Or"

Seventy-eight:

The Freedom to Choose

Seventy-nine:

It's OK to Ask

Eighty:

It's OK for Others to Say No