jetmedix

Hi. Although I dont consider myself a full fledged alcoholic. I think I might have a dependancy on alcohol. Last week I found out my girfriend of three years who I have my third child with was ready to move on. It was devistating, yet a reality check for me. I have slept very little in the last week and cannot continue like this. I have lost 10 pounds, and Iam having problems consentrating. I have managed to stay somewhat sober throughout the ordeal. I had one beer with dinner least night. Fri night after work I drank two beers and a rum and coke. I dont remember drinking thursday night. Weds night i think I drank three beers. For the last 6 years I have almost always had at least one beer on a daily basis. I have always maintained a job and provided for my family. I have gone through two divorces before this happened. My craving for a beer tells me that if I drink it will make all of this pain and insecurity go away, but I know it will not. Today I made the desition notto touch another beer until my life in back in track. I have come here for you help and support. I know that she still loves me, but can bear it no longer, I need her back. The worts thing is that this is all my fault, and usually I can correct my mistakes. But this mistake I cannot make go away. I know that if I get drunk I will forget her for tonite, but I will regret it in the future. Sorry for the long post but I had to let some things out. Thank you for listening and god bless.

Justme57

Hi Jet and welcome to SR you will find friendship and support here if you need it .

I dont know what the answer to your problem with your girlfriend is , but if her reason to leave had anything to do with the booze, it might be time to take a look at stopping, cos as you said , it wont make it any better .

Stick around and have a read of the sticky posts , and I am sure that people will be along to welcome you shortly

HUGX
Lee

garsh

You are doing the right thing- not drinking is never a bad idea! The fact that you're aware enough of a problem to keep track of your drinking, shows you do have a problem with it. One thing I learned is that I used to think I drank because life was just so hard. Now that I'm sober, I realize that drinking just made it a lot harder.

Someone also quoted Homer Simpson (yes, THAT Homer Simpson!): "Beer...the cause and solution to most of life's problems". Funny, but a bit of truth there.

hector

Hi, jet, thanks for sharing. Go to Alcoholics Anonymous. Keep going. You'll learn a lot. Tradition Three says "The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking."

jetmedix

Thanks guys, going on my fourth day without a beer, its not so bad. I just have a lot of energy and dont spend as much time sleeping anymore.

CarolD

Good for you!

AA is where I learned how to stay sober