betterdays

hey guys! I have been really struggling today, and i am kinda lost. I am almost 10 months sober and my thoughts today have been all about using. I met a girl about 2 weeks ago and have really started to become close to her. We have spent the last weeks together almost all the time, and I love every second we are together. The problem is that she just got out of a serios relationship 3 months ago, and is not sure what she wants. I try to take it a step back, but my addictive thinking always pushs foward. i know it is hurting my program, but she really seems like my other half. I have tried hitting my knees and going to meetings, but I still have this empty hole in the middle of me! I know my sense of lonliness can only be fixed within, and no other person can do that for me. I am so sick of bieng alone, and I don't know how to fix this. I do my best to work a good program, and don't want to lose my progress so far. I feel very empty, alone, and can't seem to pick myself back up. I hope I don't sound whiny, but I need advice and i don't want to use!
Bp

CarolD

Slow dowm...
She is on the revound and you are lonely.

Slow down....read Page 119 in the AA book 12&12.

Hugs,,,and did I mention...Slow down?

Sugasnaps

Hang in there, Betterdays. Yeah, slow down a bit and look at your reactions. You're so right when you say your lonliness can only be healed from within first... listen to yourself - you already acknowledged what you know to be best for you.

**{hugs}} good luck and give yourself some hugs n' self-lovin (err that sounded bad but you know what I mean!)

Suga

Justme57

What does your Sponser advise ?

HUGX
Lee

betterdays

hey guys! i know your right about slowing down, but when i try Ifeel even more alone. i am giong to talk to my sponsor tonight, even though I feel like moping around the house. something i don't need to do!thanks for the replies, it does help to hear from your peers