Done_With_It

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IT'S LIKE THIS


I Came here 5 weeks ago with "NO HOPE"

So you gave me hope

I came here with questions.

U

???????????

You lent me answers.....

I came here with suicide on my mind

You threw life at me in every direction.

I came here angry.O[

Not only did you let me be angry,

You told me to yell.

I came here with tears.Q

You helped me wipe em away.

I got scared and left.

You told me to comeeeee backkkkk........W

I didn't know if I could do it.

You swore to me I could.

I came here thinking No Meth

_=_

No creativity.

No imagination

You laughed and showed me I was wrong.

I came here Not Laughing.

You make me laugh.

I

I've struggled HARD a few times.
You held me up.

I came here with an empty pm box

You filled it up many times. ;-)

I came here afraid to feel.

You made me feel good.

I CAME HERE UNFLUFFY

LMAO

YOU FLUFFED ME UP

PURPLE FLUFF THAT IS

I could go on and on, but you get my point.

So this week and last I had a few hard times.

My resolution 5 weeks ago

what I knew and did

was

LINES

LINES

LINES

I'VE GOT A NEW IDEA THESE DAYS

YA'LL KNOW HOW I AM ABOUT BEING HAPPY. IT'S A MUST.

I DON'T LIKE THIS THINKING

WHERE

"DO A LINE"

"CALL MR. D"

COMES INTO MY HEAD

I DON'T LIKE THE CRAVINGS.

THEREFORE

I'm going to do the

"LA Marathon".

I think it's the perfect solution.

It's in March, around the 15.

That will be almost if not the day of my

5 MONTH BIRTHDAY.

BADA BING

BADA BANG

SO,

THE SORE

ASS

LEGS

FOOT

THIGH

I HAVE RIGHT NOW

I BLAME YOU ALL

cbx

FROM SUICIDAL TO MARATHONS IN

5 MONTHS FLAT

THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT

*NODS*

COMMON SENSE TELLS ME

*WINKS*

WHEN GOD GIVES YOU RECOVERY?

RUN MARATHONS

D*U*D*E

HEAR ME ROAR

RTYUIOPASDF

GHJKLZCB

NM1234567

I was going to just put this on my EVE thread but then I thought if there are any new comers out there reading, If this doesn't give you some hope,

Then.....

Well it will.

It is easier I must say when you change your background to black though.

Because 5 weeks ago my biggest stress was having a heart attack or stroke, or the unbelievable pain in my chest.

Today my biggest stress is usually wondering if I picked the right

"THREE" *STOMPS FOOT*

smiley's or not.

Drop it like it's hot.

l;

My biggest HUGEST fear IS/WAS the weight gain, Well~So be it, My jeans still fit, they just aren't hanging off of me,AQ but my eyes aren't hollow either and my hair isn't clogging the shower from falling out anymore. I should be in tip top shape pretty darned soon. It's easier to stress about being fat rather than worrying about having a stroke/heart attack and mom finding out what I've been up too. :-OY

I'm back to my insomnia like the good ol days, all natural insomnia. R

PLife is good.

I dropped down and got my eagle on and Now I am

T

shakin my Laffy Taffy.

Cause life meth free is constantly

"Peanut butter jelly time".

As I said, It's like that..........

E

Saying Thank You wouldn't even begin to describe it...

Ahh, heck I'll say it anyway.

Thanks guys...

WHERE I COULD HAVE BEEN RIGHT NOW WITHOUT YOUR HELP

IS A SCARY THOUGHT.

*SHUDDERS*

Now who wants to do the marathon with me?

Mooselips I know your game! :-), Ragidman? Vic? jellybeans? um, Angel girl, Shestruggles, Stormy? Kel Kel, Chy?, Ms. B? Cheryl?

sherbear? karmabella? Phinneas? Alycia? Pedagogo? Spirit? 51 Anna? BIkergirl? Roadie? Best?

ALL OF YOU AND MORE! I KNEW IT!

*SHOUTS OUT*

z

I am what I am

I bang my own drum

Some think its noise

I think its pretty

jkI am what I amoi

best

Way to go.

The Boston area ...BRM had runners in the Boston Marathon last spring.

A young lady named Eric and a guy named Andrew were their top runners. They ran it as a relay I believe.

Great goal. A true inspiration you are.

Done_With_It

I should also include that part of why I am so happy right now is because the Holidays are ALWAYS HARD FOR ME EVERY YEAR........

I've struggled with cutting and a stupid eating disorder for as long as I can remember.
I can for the first time since I can remember not even
cut around the Holidays. Yes, I've stopped the cutting and the eating disorder is better than it has been in ???????? for holiday time.
Five weeks ago, the cutting was getting worse.
Now my scars are even fading with the oils I am
putting on them. WOO FRIGGIN HOO! JIVE CITY


And on top of all that, I'm actually happy,
No Prozac included. That's Amazing.....
((Nothing against prozac. I am supposed to be
on meds. So no one get offended by that.))

Done_With_It

Eric and Andrew? really? The winners here are always from Kenya or Africa. The guy two years ago who won was amazing. I don't know how they do it, they run so gracefully. I'm a trainwreck out there. ;-)
I didn't know you could do it relay. I think I'm gonna call some friends, maybe 50 of em. lol, just kiddin. But I would enjoy that relay thing.......

best

They ran as a charity team.
Not official runners that would get a prize from the org.

best

Erica and Anthony.


Yikes my memory and typing stinks tonight *LOL*
I remembered Erica but forgot the a on her name *LOL*

Here is her picture and story if you wish to read or watch it.
http://www.brm.org/events.aspx?sec_id=2&page_id=0

CarolD

You are winning! ! Thanks Done for sharing your joy!

Midas

...And I thought I got carried away with fancy-schmancy stuff. LOL. One cannot help but notice you seem to like magenta or fuscia text.




Here's A little .gif(t) just for you.

Congrats on the sober time you've collected so far!!

Oh. Here's a smaller version if you want it too.

velvet

Dear Donewithit, You need the winning medal before the race even starts! I wish my daughter could talk to you. Who knows, maybe I could lasso her and drag her to my computer to read all this. The part about you worrying about your weight gain is my daughter all the way. I rather have a fata** daughter anyday over the stranger I have now. Best of luck in that marathon. You deserve a wonderful Christmas. Stick with it my dear.....you've already won the race. Velvet

Done_With_It

Luckyv2

Well now Midas that was sweet

My dear you are a blessing that is all I can say. You give not only hope to the newcomers, you give some off us old farts hope too. KCB and we love you

Love Vic

sherbear5104

Great job DWI. You have been a great inspiration to me. Keep up the good work. As far as the marathon goes, I would, but my asthma won't let me. If I could wheel along an oxygen tank, well................

Have a geat day, DWI.

Sherry

angelgirl

Hey Ms. Done,,,

Oh, you make me laugh!!!

I am so HAPPY!!!! YOU ROCK!!!

5 WEEKS, HOW COOL!!!! THAT IS SO COOL!!

Now a MARATHON??!!!!

WOO~HOO!!!!

I love ya Ms Done!! I am so happy that you have come so far,
and are feeling so much better!!

Love you!!
Becky

Midas

velvet

Done, Thanks for the offer to chat with my daughter. That would be wonderful. I printed your thread for her to read. (she has no computer) Who knows, it might inspire her. I've read "Million Little Pieces". It's a great read. I loaned it to my daughter, last yr. when I saw what she was getting into. Six months later I found the book buried in all the dirty laundry. I brought it home, to offer her at a later date. Which is now.....along with your thread and the Crack Buster Workbook that I copied off the internet. It seems like a great resource if you are in the right place...or even considering getting clean. I can't give up on her. My son was a self mutilator. He has some nasty scars. He finally quit when he slowed down on the drinking. Cops picked him up one nite...drunk..blood smeared all over him...took him to ER....since he was drunk they couldn't use any pain killer. They stapled the cuts, told him to wait in waiting room...they were calling behavior clinic. He took off, got home, and ripped the staples out. That was one of the last times. He doesn't drink much anymore. Or at least he has a limit of 2-3 beers. He has learned some things from watching his sister. Anyway, I am rambling..sorry. But again congratulations..you're a winner. Oh, almost forgot...I was never on another site. I will let you know what my daughters' response is. Thanks again. Velvet

raerob

Kudos to you, DWI...and, thank goodness it doesn't stand for Driving While Intoxicated!!!

I would love to join you; but, I'm afraid my marathon days (if there ever were any) are long gone. However, if you see someone cross the finish line hours and hours after everyone else, and she looks like this...




...it could be me!!!

Congrats on your sobriety...we are all winners here!

roadie58

You know, about a week ago I slammed you for your colorful posts (well the yellow and green was hard to read) but I LOVE THIS ONE. It's art baby, and you are happening, that's what! Very influential and invigorating to read! You got my attention from the title line, I though maybe there was a relapse and you were going to blame SR, but like a good movie, you turned it around into something super positive. You are a lovely young lady!

Keep posting, you make people feel good to be here.

Michael

Done_With_It

Sherbear and Angelgirl~ I love ya both! Shearbear you can bring your inhaler with you on the run. ;-) Angelgirl I'll take that as a YES!

Midas I forgot to say I liked the joke too I made you a gif(t). You know my thinking. :-)

Stormy, I'm lighting my match!

Carol thanks for your encouragement.

Lucky your a sweetheart!

RaeRob it's NEVER to late! :-)

Velvet I am pulling for your daughter. Your son beat it, so there's high hopes for her. I hope she reads that post you printed. And you can ramble to me anytime for as like as you want. Let's start a group,
"The Ramblers" hey now!
Man you remind me of someone on this other board that just rocked my socks, her name was VELVET also. I will never forget her. I lost track of her and haven't found her again. She also had a daughter hooked on Meth.


Ahhh Thanks Roadie. I remember you being upset about my colorful posts. I use the black background, so yellow and green are so pretty on my end, and easiest to read. But after you said that I later thought about it and went and read it on Firefox with a white background and can see why yellow and green don't work so well for some.
So I am trying to let my little yellow and green go. lol
Oh, and after I left that post, I thought Oh, that title is going to
Ruffle some feathers, lol, No no ~ Just the opposite Good blame.
But my sore butt, I'll blame you all for. Cause it's fun.

YA'LL KNOW WHY KEL KEL AND CHY HAVEN'T RESPONDED RIGHT?

THEY ARE SO OUT RUNNING!!! They saw that and thought Oh Heck Yes!
I am in! The running shoes were on there feet before they could
skip a beat...........

sherbear5104

Very nice work, Done. I am lucky I know how to use the smileys.....

Phinneas

Awesome!