Fed up
My Cape Is at The Cleaners
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Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: Metropolis
Posts: 1,117
Fed up
The weekend brought both good and bad. I worked a little at the Alathon fundraiser for Alanon.
Sometimes program people are very hard-line, I think they should soften up, but what do I know.
I made the decision these last couple days to do what I needed to do to safe my own ass.
Yes I am worried that she vanished now for 3 weeks, but my life goes on.
I pray she is alive.
Now with my other friend that got close to me I decided something also.
Both of these women have some problems. Both are alcoholics, one is sober.
Both have a real f*& way of looking at life and treating people, it’s a bit nuts.
I’m crazy with them, I can not do it any more.
Is anyone sane out there?
So I slide into the season, or I should say pushed unwillingly, by myself, again.
God Bless Us Everyone.
Sometimes program people are very hard-line, I think they should soften up, but what do I know.
I made the decision these last couple days to do what I needed to do to safe my own ass.
Yes I am worried that she vanished now for 3 weeks, but my life goes on.
I pray she is alive.
Now with my other friend that got close to me I decided something also.
Both of these women have some problems. Both are alcoholics, one is sober.
Both have a real f*& way of looking at life and treating people, it’s a bit nuts.
I’m crazy with them, I can not do it any more.
Is anyone sane out there?
So I slide into the season, or I should say pushed unwillingly, by myself, again.
God Bless Us Everyone.
My Cape Is at The Cleaners
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Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: Metropolis
Posts: 1,117
It seems to be all I can do. You know I even lost other friendships because of all this.
I’ve cried to many times now and lost enough sleep over this.
I’m near bankruptcy now and everything I once knew to be true is gone.
I’ve aged, my hair is gray now and the lines on my face are more and deeper.
My stepson is gone to me, the boy I raised, I can never get any of this back.
It’s all gone, everything, what more can this take?
I’ve cried to many times now and lost enough sleep over this.
I’m near bankruptcy now and everything I once knew to be true is gone.
I’ve aged, my hair is gray now and the lines on my face are more and deeper.
My stepson is gone to me, the boy I raised, I can never get any of this back.
It’s all gone, everything, what more can this take?
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Join Date: Sep 2005
Location: Lost in NC
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You will survive!
Hang in there my friend!
You have to let go....for you. Its hard, I'm struggling with it too.
But even as you let go, there is always hope they will find the light. But its not up to you anymore!
Let go....get out into the sun. Start 2006 new!
Your friend in NC
You have to let go....for you. Its hard, I'm struggling with it too.
But even as you let go, there is always hope they will find the light. But its not up to you anymore!
Let go....get out into the sun. Start 2006 new!
Your friend in NC
My Cape Is at The Cleaners
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Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: Metropolis
Posts: 1,117
Well put I understand.
It's just when you loose the things that drive you such as family, a wife, things you hold very dear.
It's a hard thing to deal with as we all know.
I just wish it would just stop, the bad dream must end at some point.
It's just when you loose the things that drive you such as family, a wife, things you hold very dear.
It's a hard thing to deal with as we all know.
I just wish it would just stop, the bad dream must end at some point.
How Important Is It?
Join Date: May 2005
Location: Cyberia
Posts: 612
Hello - I understand those feelings of grief and loss.
Some of the things that help me very much are Al-anon, reading recovery and self help books, going to my addictions counsellor (even though I am not addicted, she is an amazing help), and working very hard to eat healthy, exercise every day, and take care of myself. I also started feeling a lot better after I did my "step 4" (the moral inventory) this summer.
Keep coming back and sharing.
It helps.
Robin
Some of the things that help me very much are Al-anon, reading recovery and self help books, going to my addictions counsellor (even though I am not addicted, she is an amazing help), and working very hard to eat healthy, exercise every day, and take care of myself. I also started feeling a lot better after I did my "step 4" (the moral inventory) this summer.
Keep coming back and sharing.
It helps.
Robin
How Important Is It?
Join Date: May 2005
Location: Cyberia
Posts: 612
Reading the Big Book is very helpful for friends and family members. I read it for me, (not for the alcoholic).
I also go to open AA meetings. It really helps me to understand the disease better. I also have more compassion for those who are suffering from the disease of alcoholism.
I have also been helped a lot by hearing other people's stories, and realizing that I am not the only one suffering. It puts things into perspective.
Thanks to my recovery program, and all of the things I am doing to stay healthy, I find myself having more good days than bad.
Keep coming back
Robin
I also go to open AA meetings. It really helps me to understand the disease better. I also have more compassion for those who are suffering from the disease of alcoholism.
I have also been helped a lot by hearing other people's stories, and realizing that I am not the only one suffering. It puts things into perspective.
Thanks to my recovery program, and all of the things I am doing to stay healthy, I find myself having more good days than bad.
Keep coming back
Robin
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