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Hankey, a straight-jacket, and a hug. I have never felt closer to slipping than I do right now. And I feel like I'm about to just lose my mind. What's left of it!!
Days like this I wish I hadn't woke up. I want to curl up in a dark corner somewhere and die.
*sigh*
I looked in the mirror this morning and seriously did not know who I was. It's frightening when you don't even recognize the person staring back at you is yourself.
This song by Queensryche says it all.
Days like this I wish I hadn't woke up. I want to curl up in a dark corner somewhere and die.
*sigh*
I looked in the mirror this morning and seriously did not know who I was. It's frightening when you don't even recognize the person staring back at you is yourself.
This song by Queensryche says it all.
Eyes Of A Stranger
[page:] Dr. David, telephone please. Dr. David
Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J Hamilton
All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Everytime I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
Is this all that's left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they've always promised
There's got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare [Lies behind my stare]
How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
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© Queensryche, 1988
[page:] Dr. David, telephone please. Dr. David
Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J Hamilton
All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Everytime I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
Is this all that's left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they've always promised
There's got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare [Lies behind my stare]
How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
========================================
© Queensryche, 1988
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Join Date: Apr 2004
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Okay Midas......first take some deep slow breaths.
Breathe deep and slow ten times.
Now after doing the breathing exercises, this is what works for me, I get on the phone and start calling until I find someone available and tell them whats going on.
Then that person and I talk and usually end up going to a meeting, where I sometimes share and sometimes just sit and listen to realize I do not have it as bad as I think I do.
Then after the meeting we'll get some people together and go for coffee, where the talk usually turns to "lighter" things and pretty soon I am not only feeling better, and the committee has once again shut up, but I am actually laughing a bit again.
Even after many many ODAATs I still, once in a while have to tame the tiger so to speak, when the committee has gotten out of hand and tries to take control and puts me in one of those "deep funks" where it feels like everything is falling down around me and I don't know what is going on. Thank God for the invention of the telephone.
If you need please feel free to PM me.
Love and hugs,
Breathe deep and slow ten times.
Now after doing the breathing exercises, this is what works for me, I get on the phone and start calling until I find someone available and tell them whats going on.
Then that person and I talk and usually end up going to a meeting, where I sometimes share and sometimes just sit and listen to realize I do not have it as bad as I think I do.
Then after the meeting we'll get some people together and go for coffee, where the talk usually turns to "lighter" things and pretty soon I am not only feeling better, and the committee has once again shut up, but I am actually laughing a bit again.
Even after many many ODAATs I still, once in a while have to tame the tiger so to speak, when the committee has gotten out of hand and tries to take control and puts me in one of those "deep funks" where it feels like everything is falling down around me and I don't know what is going on. Thank God for the invention of the telephone.
If you need please feel free to PM me.
Love and hugs,
You're never alone!!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Wisconsin
Posts: 2,191
(((midas)))
Hey we love ya bud.. Sorry you're having one of those days. I know them well,,
They can be so tough bear,, but,, they don't last. I am praying that tomorrow
you will wake, to a much brighter day..
We are here for you.. Please, keep on talking.
Love ya bud,
Becky
Hey we love ya bud.. Sorry you're having one of those days. I know them well,,
They can be so tough bear,, but,, they don't last. I am praying that tomorrow
you will wake, to a much brighter day..
We are here for you.. Please, keep on talking.
Love ya bud,
Becky
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Midas, I'm sorry to hear that you are hurting today! These days are so terrible to deal with, when nothing feels right. We know that it will pass, but when you are in the midst of it, it feels like forever!! Don't give up!!
J'ade
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Hang in there, Midas! Glad you brought your urge to use to SR. Be proud of yourself. (((((Midas)))) Prayers going out for you, friend. *my hand's on the screen, head bowed, praying for you*
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Originally Posted by laurie6781
...this is what works for me, I get on the phone and start calling until I find someone available and tell them whats going on.
Then that person and I talk and usually end up going to a meeting, where I sometimes share and sometimes just sit and listen to realize I do not have it as bad as I think I do.
Then after the meeting we'll get some people together and go for coffee, where the talk usually turns to "lighter" things and pretty soon I am not only feeling better, and the committee has once again shut up, but I am actually laughing a bit again.
Then that person and I talk and usually end up going to a meeting, where I sometimes share and sometimes just sit and listen to realize I do not have it as bad as I think I do.
Then after the meeting we'll get some people together and go for coffee, where the talk usually turns to "lighter" things and pretty soon I am not only feeling better, and the committee has once again shut up, but I am actually laughing a bit again.
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Ol' Gooch told me once that when we sober up, we get a front row seat to the full menu and range of human emotions. And that it's our job to eat it all. I was in a real bad funk at the time, and had I continued listening to him instead of wandering off in search of something or someone to blame for my sadness, he most likely would have gone on to tell me that there's no statute of limitations on when, where or how our emotions visit us.
I have a suspicion Gooch votes republican, but still, it makes sense when you think about it
Hang tough Barry.
You didn't work as hard as you did on your foundation for nothing.
These are the days that hold promise.
I have a suspicion Gooch votes republican, but still, it makes sense when you think about it
Hang tough Barry.
You didn't work as hard as you did on your foundation for nothing.
These are the days that hold promise.
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