yesterday hurt
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yesterday hurt
well on sundays i have to work about 13 hours. when i woke up i didnt take my suboxone and decided id see how the day went .....well about 2:30pm i snapped, people werent showing up for work and i would have been better off alone instead of the person i was cooking with...before i knew it i was in the clutches of mental addiction... I quickly turned 20 bucks into 35 then to 45...i was ever so close and it was time for break....i went outside, and called back a recovering friend that i had just missed...hes been using about the same time i have but recently hes turned to other things....worse things. So i was shocked when the words "im staying clean today" came out of his mouth, and hes kicking this cold turkey. i can only imagine how sick he is cuz weve all gone through it. well by the end of the conversation he talked me into taking the suboxone.. it was still in the back of my head for the rest of the night so i hung out with some sober friends from work until about 3am..i cant remember the last time i went out sober and laughed so much i woke up this morning and still it is in the back of my head..but ive decided im not going to let this run my life anymore and i cant give up this easily...i completed day 3 yesterday. im off to get a coffee.....thanks for all the love and support....without you people i would still be lying about being clean, and wondering deep down if i can really beat this
Congrats ETAC !!!!
You made it through a tough spot and stayed clean, that is really cool...
Continue to hang with your clean friends, like Chy said, and your days will continue to add up.
Why use, when you have the suboxone to help you get through?? You don't need to, and you didn't.. I have lately been having some cravings for the first time since being on the sub. (which I have been on for about 2 months) But I really want to stay clean, I want to be a "normal" person with a "normal" life. Yes, there is no "normal" but to ME normal is not using.. Getting a life that doesn't require me to use drugs when things aren't going right in my life. Normal to me is, working through my anger and problems, not using to forget them.. That's the life I want.
Congrats on 3 days... You are making it, YOU CAN DO THIS, you are proving it through the past 3 days, keep going...
Love, Becky
You made it through a tough spot and stayed clean, that is really cool...
Continue to hang with your clean friends, like Chy said, and your days will continue to add up.
Why use, when you have the suboxone to help you get through?? You don't need to, and you didn't.. I have lately been having some cravings for the first time since being on the sub. (which I have been on for about 2 months) But I really want to stay clean, I want to be a "normal" person with a "normal" life. Yes, there is no "normal" but to ME normal is not using.. Getting a life that doesn't require me to use drugs when things aren't going right in my life. Normal to me is, working through my anger and problems, not using to forget them.. That's the life I want.
Congrats on 3 days... You are making it, YOU CAN DO THIS, you are proving it through the past 3 days, keep going...
Love, Becky
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Why use, when you have the suboxone to help you get through?? You don't need to, and you didn't..
good job!!!!
thats the way we do it, one day at a time. Gotta go through it, can't go over it, can't go under it...gotta go through it
way to go on 3 days, keep on keepin on!!!
hugs & hugs, Wendy
thats the way we do it, one day at a time. Gotta go through it, can't go over it, can't go under it...gotta go through it
way to go on 3 days, keep on keepin on!!!
hugs & hugs, Wendy
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