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Old 06-09-2005, 07:02 AM
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Day 2....

It is day 2 of my journey today and I hope I always remember how bad I feel right now. I hope to never forget these moments. I feel guilty, full of shame, anger at myself, and so many other negative things. I was starting to feel really good being sober but I won't let my setback hold me back from the ultimate goal.

I hear them say, IT DOES GET BETTER, and that is what I'm holding on to right now at this moment in time.

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Old 06-09-2005, 07:12 AM
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Don't be so hard on yourself!! I fell, too. Using my dad's death as an excuse, I feel guilty about that! But it is part of the diease, telling me it's a good reason.
Dust yourself off and keep coming back, I'm very glad you are here!

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Old 06-09-2005, 07:14 AM
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Hi Kathy,

Thanks so much! I'm glad you are back too. It is good to know that we are not alone in this fight and knowing that gives us so much strength.

It is not in the falling down, but in the getting back up that really matters.
We are showing great courage!!
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Heya AngelHugs! Welcome back to Day 2, it's a lot better than Day 0, and it'll be better on Day 3. By Day 5 you'll be dizzy from all the optimism.

Hold on to anything that works

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Old 06-09-2005, 07:17 AM
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See, you are so positive and that's why I love to read your posts!
very encouraging
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Old 06-09-2005, 08:13 AM
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O my dear..today is not the time to worry about yesterday.

You could write down how you feel...then read it next week.

Best wishes...
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Old 06-09-2005, 08:18 AM
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Angelhugs! Never give up the fight! The relapse is in the past -- look forward. Someone said something to me after a relapse, it was you may have lost that battle, but you haven't lost the war. Come on Angel, use your powers for good, not evil!!!! LOL

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Old 06-09-2005, 09:25 AM
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(((((((((((Angelhugs)))))))))))))

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(((((((( ))))))))))

My First Step won't keep you sober. However, yours just might! Found it helps when we keep our feet firmly planted on the ground and continue reaching for the GOAL while doing the needed work.

I see HOPE for me, for you and for US!

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Hang in there and believe it will get better because IT REALLY DOES!!
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Old 06-09-2005, 05:40 PM
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Having cravings so bad tonight...trying to keep my mind busy.
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Old 06-09-2005, 05:42 PM
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keep posting and reading, it will make the time pass quickly
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wow , thanks for responding so fast. It is good to know that someone else is here along with me..

trying not to give in. I want to use , but I don't want to use. The don't want to part will win though.
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Sending you Strength AngelHugs...

Am battling my own today...the first really strong urges in over three months.

IT IS NOT GOING TO WIN!
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Hi Time4Me, we can get thru this together.!

This thing will not take us over!
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Old 06-09-2005, 06:38 PM
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Goodnight everyone...I'm ending my day 2 sober..and will wake up to a fresh day 3. I'll feel better in the morning.

Going to sleep a little early tonight but I'm trying to be gentle with myself and get as much rest as I possibly can.

Thanks for being here today.
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Old 06-10-2005, 03:25 AM
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You know, it is day 3 for me but I just feel like giving up.

I just ask myself why even try?

I am just a horrible human being.......I don't even deserve friends. I should be all alone because I am a monster.
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Old 06-10-2005, 03:49 AM
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Good morning, AngelHugs!!!

Day 3 is great! Don't give up! - There's a million reasons you should try, you being at the top of the list.

And I guess you do deserve a friend, cause I'm here. We all lose our confidence at first, but believing in yourself is sooooo worth it, even when ya don't feel like it. I'm rooting for you.

I've found sometimes I'm strongest when I'm down on my knees. You're not alone, AngelHugs. Have a wonderful day.
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Old 06-10-2005, 03:55 AM
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(((encouragingsong))) thank you so much for being my friend today.........

that was so beautiful!
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Old 06-10-2005, 04:13 AM
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Hey Cheryl....hang in there sweetie, I know it's hard and what it does to our thinking, boy does it love to twist it around, it will do anything to pull us back. You have such a beautiful spirit, don't let this get to you, keep moving forward, you're doing great.

You know Cheryl, I've stopped with the WHY'S, it was driving me crazy (short trip to take, lol)....I LET GO....yeah I did, and I can't believe how I feel today, it's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I hope you soon come to where I am, it's easy to do..find the willingess within yourself, at one time I thought, ok how do I do that...today I know, join me in this, it's easy....LET GO, then you don't have to worry about this another day, we have enough life stuff to fret about don't we?

Hi encouragingsong, welcome to SoberRecovery....oh I love your user name, and I also love your message to Cheryl.

Hope you have a wonderful peaceful day, dance in the light.....love Denise
 

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