i want my life back
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Join Date: Jun 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
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i want my life back
hello to all. i've been reading your messages and can relate to many of you. this is going to be my 2nd attempt to give up coke. i was sober for a month and felt great, since then it's been back to a daily thing. i REALLY do hate coke. i hate the way i feel. i get jittery, my nose hurts, i'm anxious, stomach is upset, have a headache, can't sleep.....yet i'll sit there and do more bumps?? why is it so much "bigger" than me? i'm confused why i have let it control my life. i haven't lost everything yet, and i know i will if i don't stop (i've heard how this "story" ends). The guilt has really built up trying to keep my addiction a secret. i hate having to lie......i've become such a big liar. I could go on about every reason why i need and want to give it up......i just need other people who understand how hard it is to quit. other people i know who use are all in denial. i've already been able to shut out most"user" friends in my life. (afterall, that's how i fell of the wagon before). i know my family and friends love me......they would be so sad if they knew, or if something happened to me. i don't want to die, or end up with a bad medical condtion because of this stupid drug. i want to be free and happy again. i would love suggestions and words of encouragment. i want my life back.
Future Philanthropist
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Philadelphia, PA
Posts: 233
Hi sgirl!
I dont have the foggiest about getting from under cocaine, but these folks in your part of the world will http://www.casandiego.org/
And Welcome to SR!
Hop into the Drug Addictions forum here. Lots of folks helping eachother there who are more familiar with cocaine than I, and usually there's someone hanging around these parts in the Newcomers forum too. I've only been here for a couple weeks getting dry and it's a great bunch of people who I dont think I'd be getting by without (and I generally dont even like people LOL)
You're on the right path just stopping in to say Hi! Looking forward to getting to know you
- Greg
I dont have the foggiest about getting from under cocaine, but these folks in your part of the world will http://www.casandiego.org/
And Welcome to SR!
Hop into the Drug Addictions forum here. Lots of folks helping eachother there who are more familiar with cocaine than I, and usually there's someone hanging around these parts in the Newcomers forum too. I've only been here for a couple weeks getting dry and it's a great bunch of people who I dont think I'd be getting by without (and I generally dont even like people LOL)
You're on the right path just stopping in to say Hi! Looking forward to getting to know you
- Greg
Miss Behavin'
Join Date: Jan 2005
Location: regina,saskatchewan
Posts: 966
Welcome Sgirl!!!
I'm a recovery crack addict.
Also a recovering alcoholic. I go to AA and NA.
Thats whats saved my life.
You are not alone, there is hope
We live one day at a time . Don't do anymore drugs today! We only have to concern ourselves with the day we are in.
YOu can find a sponsor at an Narcotics Anonymous meeting.
\\//Wendy
I'm a recovery crack addict.
Also a recovering alcoholic. I go to AA and NA.
Thats whats saved my life.
You are not alone, there is hope
We live one day at a time . Don't do anymore drugs today! We only have to concern ourselves with the day we are in.
YOu can find a sponsor at an Narcotics Anonymous meeting.
\\//Wendy
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