Confessions of a fat chic...
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Confessions of a fat chic...
Oooh la la! I just tried a Hershey's Take 5 candy bar. Let me describe the experience: Pretzels, caramel, peanuts, and peanut butter covered in milk chocolate. Sweet, salty, crunchy, creamy, heavenly.
As you can tell, I haven't quite finished reading "When Food is Love." It provides some interesting insights into why folks like me overeat. You would have thought this book was written by Melody Beatty because it describes codie behavior to a tee.
I've nearly finished the book, but I have to admit that I've been slowing down as I near the end. You see, after all this soul-searching I should no longer need to indulge in overeating. But alas, I'm not there yet. So each night when I feel compelled to eat something when I'm not the least bit hungry, I tell my daughter, "I can eat this because I haven't finished the book yet." Yep denial in the works. It's a powerful thing.
So powerful, in fact, that this evening I will finish the book. So tomorrow when I reach for something fattening, delicious, and forbidden, I can hear myself explain to my daughter, "I guess I didn't get it the first time, so I'm going to have to read the book all over again." That way I can eat until I finish reading the book for a second time. Perhaps then I'll be able to let go of this terrible urge.
You know what they say, "One hundred candy bars is not enough, and one is too many."
Tomorrow's indulgence: Resses new special edition Peanut Lover's peanut butter cup.
Oh when will it end?
As you can tell, I haven't quite finished reading "When Food is Love." It provides some interesting insights into why folks like me overeat. You would have thought this book was written by Melody Beatty because it describes codie behavior to a tee.
I've nearly finished the book, but I have to admit that I've been slowing down as I near the end. You see, after all this soul-searching I should no longer need to indulge in overeating. But alas, I'm not there yet. So each night when I feel compelled to eat something when I'm not the least bit hungry, I tell my daughter, "I can eat this because I haven't finished the book yet." Yep denial in the works. It's a powerful thing.
So powerful, in fact, that this evening I will finish the book. So tomorrow when I reach for something fattening, delicious, and forbidden, I can hear myself explain to my daughter, "I guess I didn't get it the first time, so I'm going to have to read the book all over again." That way I can eat until I finish reading the book for a second time. Perhaps then I'll be able to let go of this terrible urge.
You know what they say, "One hundred candy bars is not enough, and one is too many."
Tomorrow's indulgence: Resses new special edition Peanut Lover's peanut butter cup.
Oh when will it end?
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FD - you're awesome. I hear myself making those same comments. Which is why I never bought the South Beach Diet book.
My weakness is Reeses Pieces (original) and Pasta, mashed potatoes....mmmm mmmm.
Anyway, I just can't eat healthy food....it's not in my budget and is too complicated to cook, thinks like Hamburger Helper, Spaghetti, Mostaccoli, chili are just cheaper and easier to make (talk about denial).
My weakness is Reeses Pieces (original) and Pasta, mashed potatoes....mmmm mmmm.
Anyway, I just can't eat healthy food....it's not in my budget and is too complicated to cook, thinks like Hamburger Helper, Spaghetti, Mostaccoli, chili are just cheaper and easier to make (talk about denial).
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When I met my exABF, 2 years ago, I was in the middle of a diet that was really working for me (6 week body makeover - for those of you that watch Extreme Makeover, it was created by the trainer on that show, Michael Thurmond).
Anyhoo, I kept going and eventually had lost 50 lbs. He loved me no matter how much I weighed - didn't even seem to notice if my weight went up or down (maybe because he was drinking most of the time? LOL). As we were breaking up, I finally noticed that somehow, just over the past 3 months or so, that almost 30 lbs had crept back on. I was totally disgusted with myself, but now back on track and trying to write it off as stress induced.
This is another thing which I am personally fanatic about taking care of for ourselves. I've recently read that regular exercise, after a few weeks of it, is a more powerful anti-depressant than any drug on the market. And I FEEL so much better when I'm eating correctly - the sugar rushes and crashes are real and can have a real effect on your mental health.
Now, I don't have a family - I live alone, so for me it is cheaper to eat well than to eat crap. Also, it took me MONTHS to learn new habits, and to learn all there is to know about food and the chemical reactions they create.
Anyway, I'm always delighted to talk about health and healthy weightloss! Maybe I should become a nutritionist...
Oh, and JessNA - I hardly ever cook - I have a george forman grill and he does everything for me! And often I'll cook several days meals at once.
And Formerdoormat, the #1 thing you can do for yourself right now is start drinking 100 oz of water a day. That alone will improve everything (except how much time you spend in the loo!)
Anyhoo, I kept going and eventually had lost 50 lbs. He loved me no matter how much I weighed - didn't even seem to notice if my weight went up or down (maybe because he was drinking most of the time? LOL). As we were breaking up, I finally noticed that somehow, just over the past 3 months or so, that almost 30 lbs had crept back on. I was totally disgusted with myself, but now back on track and trying to write it off as stress induced.
This is another thing which I am personally fanatic about taking care of for ourselves. I've recently read that regular exercise, after a few weeks of it, is a more powerful anti-depressant than any drug on the market. And I FEEL so much better when I'm eating correctly - the sugar rushes and crashes are real and can have a real effect on your mental health.
Now, I don't have a family - I live alone, so for me it is cheaper to eat well than to eat crap. Also, it took me MONTHS to learn new habits, and to learn all there is to know about food and the chemical reactions they create.
Anyway, I'm always delighted to talk about health and healthy weightloss! Maybe I should become a nutritionist...
Oh, and JessNA - I hardly ever cook - I have a george forman grill and he does everything for me! And often I'll cook several days meals at once.
And Formerdoormat, the #1 thing you can do for yourself right now is start drinking 100 oz of water a day. That alone will improve everything (except how much time you spend in the loo!)
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Interestingly enough as my husband started to drink more, I became more controling about what I ate.
His alcoholism has been so good for my figure, as I KNOW I can control what goes into my mouth and I struggle with what goes into my heart and mind and soul.
And that being said, I still look like crap, as I have no clothing that fits me, my hair is just appaling and I have bags under my eyes all the time and tons of wrinkles. I guess I can't control in other impacts of stress and I also refuse to BUY food that tempts me...invite me to your house and I will eat you out of chocolate and home.
Hmmmmmmmmmm...and I wonder why my husband is drawn to his drinking buddy's garage????? WOW...this tread is more enlightening than I realized.
THANKS,
Jenny
His alcoholism has been so good for my figure, as I KNOW I can control what goes into my mouth and I struggle with what goes into my heart and mind and soul.
And that being said, I still look like crap, as I have no clothing that fits me, my hair is just appaling and I have bags under my eyes all the time and tons of wrinkles. I guess I can't control in other impacts of stress and I also refuse to BUY food that tempts me...invite me to your house and I will eat you out of chocolate and home.
Hmmmmmmmmmm...and I wonder why my husband is drawn to his drinking buddy's garage????? WOW...this tread is more enlightening than I realized.
THANKS,
Jenny
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I love chocolate too!! I have never used food as comfort, actually quite the opposite. When I would get depressed I would lose lots of weight.
But yes!! Sugar is very good!! Any form will do for me!! LOL!!
But yes!! Sugar is very good!! Any form will do for me!! LOL!!
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I adore food... It's definately a love for me but luckily I hate sweet food - including chocolate!!
I love the whole process of buying fresh food like carrots in bunches, whole fresh trouts, big hairy parsnips or peas in the pod, then cutting it up, preparing it, mixing flavours, creating something.....
AND OF COURSE EATING IT!!
I love the whole process of buying fresh food like carrots in bunches, whole fresh trouts, big hairy parsnips or peas in the pod, then cutting it up, preparing it, mixing flavours, creating something.....
AND OF COURSE EATING IT!!
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this thread is a good reminder not only of all the wonderful candy but the need to take care of ourselves. i used to work out regularly until about a year ago which coincides with when my ah really started to decline. i have got to stop "going down with the ship"!
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And THAT's what I'm talking about, cwohio. I was all nice and focused on myself when I met my ABF, and ever since then have made my life almost SOLELY about making his better.... i'm just going over all this today, trying to be honest with myself about the amount of time that I spent agonizing over what he did and didn't do - unreal. Definately not good for me, probably not even good for him. Oi.
Anyway, yes chocolate is tasty but not every day!
Anyway, yes chocolate is tasty but not every day!
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