Newbie back from a relapse
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Newbie back from a relapse
Hi
I was in recovery before, for 3 years in fact - it was a drug problem and I was told that I couldn't drink.
Well, to cut a very boring story short, after 3 years I decided in my arrogance that I could in fact drink responsibly. I guess it did kinda start that way but 3 years later I found myself paralytic at my friends wedding, crying and generally being stupid - I had become all that I had convinced myself that I would never be. I woke up in the morning with the usual sense of shame and I dont know why now but I came to this conclusion:
I am an alcoholic and enough is enough. I couldn't bear to see the look on my parents faces when I had to do a spell in detox again so before it gets that far, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Well, that's me
Tekhip
I was in recovery before, for 3 years in fact - it was a drug problem and I was told that I couldn't drink.
Well, to cut a very boring story short, after 3 years I decided in my arrogance that I could in fact drink responsibly. I guess it did kinda start that way but 3 years later I found myself paralytic at my friends wedding, crying and generally being stupid - I had become all that I had convinced myself that I would never be. I woke up in the morning with the usual sense of shame and I dont know why now but I came to this conclusion:
I am an alcoholic and enough is enough. I couldn't bear to see the look on my parents faces when I had to do a spell in detox again so before it gets that far, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Well, that's me
Tekhip
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Location: NYC, NY
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Welcome Tekhip
Those words are golden...Enough is Enough. There really does come a time, Huh? It happened not too long ago for me, and the feeling is so real...No more, I will do whatever it takes this time.
SR is a great support, lots of experience, wisdom and support. Feel free to pm (personal message) if you need.
Best wishes, strength and prayers to you,
Lance
Best Wishes on your
Those words are golden...Enough is Enough. There really does come a time, Huh? It happened not too long ago for me, and the feeling is so real...No more, I will do whatever it takes this time.
SR is a great support, lots of experience, wisdom and support. Feel free to pm (personal message) if you need.
Best wishes, strength and prayers to you,
Lance
Best Wishes on your
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Welcome to SoberRecovery Tekhip!
One of the reasons I keep coming back here is to see the parallels.
Kind of my silly way of making sense of what I went through before I found recovery.
I was a serious and enthusiastic druggie for a long time. Sampled and abused most everything I could get my hands on.
Had a revelation of sorts in '90.
Do more cocaine and explode my heart, or stop and live.
So I quit. Cold turkey, alone, no recovery program, no counseling.
What's a six pack of brewskies gonna do to me....
, he asked himself...
Fast forward to '95.
That's when I first entertain the thought I might have a drinking problem.
Onward to 2003.
I'm broken.
I'll leave it up to your imagination to fill in the details of what happened to me, and my family, in that 13 year interval. And whatever outlandish scenario you come up with, odds are it won't be too far from the truth.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Hang on to that with both hands and all your heart.
You don't have to drink anymore.
Glad you're here.
One of the reasons I keep coming back here is to see the parallels.
Kind of my silly way of making sense of what I went through before I found recovery.
I was a serious and enthusiastic druggie for a long time. Sampled and abused most everything I could get my hands on.
Had a revelation of sorts in '90.
Do more cocaine and explode my heart, or stop and live.
So I quit. Cold turkey, alone, no recovery program, no counseling.
What's a six pack of brewskies gonna do to me....
, he asked himself...Fast forward to '95.
That's when I first entertain the thought I might have a drinking problem.
Onward to 2003.
I'm broken.
I'll leave it up to your imagination to fill in the details of what happened to me, and my family, in that 13 year interval. And whatever outlandish scenario you come up with, odds are it won't be too far from the truth.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Hang on to that with both hands and all your heart.
You don't have to drink anymore.
Glad you're here.
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Join Date: Mar 2005
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Thank you all for your welcome messages and from the support which is so badly needed at this time.
Yes, I am indeed motivated to stop for good now - enough really is enough. I worked too hard to chuck it all away. All I've lost right now is my self respect and I know how far I can go - I was living on the streets at 18, not something I wish to repeat but I know if I carry on then I will and worse.
I was abstinant from alcohol before for 3 years so I know I can do it again.
Thank you all again
Tekhip
Yes, I am indeed motivated to stop for good now - enough really is enough. I worked too hard to chuck it all away. All I've lost right now is my self respect and I know how far I can go - I was living on the streets at 18, not something I wish to repeat but I know if I carry on then I will and worse.
I was abstinant from alcohol before for 3 years so I know I can do it again.
Thank you all again
Tekhip
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Join Date: Jan 2005
Location: regina,saskatchewan
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Big welcome tekhip,i remember that feeling when enough is enough.....and i have to remind myself often!!!! There is a whole new world waiting for you!!!
One step at a time, one day at a time, we do this together!!!!!
One step at a time, one day at a time, we do this together!!!!!
Stopping the tornado
Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: USA
Posts: 143
Hi Tekhip
Same story here with me, I woke up Thursday morning with the dry heaves, thinking, I can not go thru this again. Thank God I stayed alive thru detox at home, although there were times I half wished I would die. After 5 days I am on the mend and heading into a new life of sobriety.
It feels good already, we can do this!!
Same story here with me, I woke up Thursday morning with the dry heaves, thinking, I can not go thru this again. Thank God I stayed alive thru detox at home, although there were times I half wished I would die. After 5 days I am on the mend and heading into a new life of sobriety.
It feels good already, we can do this!!
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Location: New York, NY
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Hi Tekhip,
Welcome back to this side of the fence; SR is a great site and if you stick around very soon you feel like you have another family who cares for you and has been where you have been.
Hugs,
gianna
Welcome back to this side of the fence; SR is a great site and if you stick around very soon you feel like you have another family who cares for you and has been where you have been.
Hugs,
gianna
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