Divided road
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: somewhere, US
Posts: 8
Divided road
Hello.
It's pretty difficult for me to write this, and to finally admit to myself that if I don't do something pretty quickly, I'll have nothing in a few years. For the past three years I've drank nearly every day, and usually enough to forget when I went to sleep and what responsibilities I needed to take care of.
On top of the drinking, I was an extremely heavy weed smoker, and I've done a dangerous amount of dabbling in cocaine and other drugs. Now, here I am, without money or prospects, teetering on the edge of total failure. I need to get sober. I'm tired of waking up and drinking shots.
I haven't touched a drug since January 2, and I plan not to in the foreseeable future. I need to get through college and come up with some sort of plan instead of 'forgetting'. Thanks alot to everyone that supports what I'm doing, because a lot of the people I know do not.
-dja
It's pretty difficult for me to write this, and to finally admit to myself that if I don't do something pretty quickly, I'll have nothing in a few years. For the past three years I've drank nearly every day, and usually enough to forget when I went to sleep and what responsibilities I needed to take care of.
On top of the drinking, I was an extremely heavy weed smoker, and I've done a dangerous amount of dabbling in cocaine and other drugs. Now, here I am, without money or prospects, teetering on the edge of total failure. I need to get sober. I'm tired of waking up and drinking shots.
I haven't touched a drug since January 2, and I plan not to in the foreseeable future. I need to get through college and come up with some sort of plan instead of 'forgetting'. Thanks alot to everyone that supports what I'm doing, because a lot of the people I know do not.
-dja
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Posts: 8,709
Hi dja.
Welvome to SoberRecovery.
I'm an addict, among other things. Call me Dan.
I stopped counting the times I passed out from drinking long before I stopped drinking. I just didn't give a damn. Family, kids, jobs. All were secondary to getting juiced.
Drinking was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did at night.
It's no life, is it...
Over the years, I've tried just about every substance. I got hooked, at various times, on weed, cocaine, morphine, and lastly, alcohol. I stopped cocaine cold, in '90, and started with a six pack here and there. Years later, bottles of vodka. Daily.
That's bottles.
When I finally hit the wall, I still had enough mental ability, by some miracle, to admit to myself that I needed a support group of some kind. The wind pushed me to an AA meeting one night. That's where recovery started for me. I also depend a lot on Narcotics Anonymous, and the understanding I gained with the other addicts there about obsession and compulsion.
Left to my own devices, I seriously doubt I'd be looking at ten months sober in a few days.
My life's not a bowl of cherries yet.
Might never be
But at least, I don't have to live with the taste of my own vomit in my mouth everyday like I used to. And more importantly, I'm reclaiming my life from an impossible situation, that my insidious disease called addiction made me blind to for way too many years.
You came here for support you say?
You hit the motherlode.
Glad you're here.
Welvome to SoberRecovery.
I'm an addict, among other things. Call me Dan.
I stopped counting the times I passed out from drinking long before I stopped drinking. I just didn't give a damn. Family, kids, jobs. All were secondary to getting juiced.
Drinking was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did at night.
It's no life, is it...
Over the years, I've tried just about every substance. I got hooked, at various times, on weed, cocaine, morphine, and lastly, alcohol. I stopped cocaine cold, in '90, and started with a six pack here and there. Years later, bottles of vodka. Daily.
That's bottles.
When I finally hit the wall, I still had enough mental ability, by some miracle, to admit to myself that I needed a support group of some kind. The wind pushed me to an AA meeting one night. That's where recovery started for me. I also depend a lot on Narcotics Anonymous, and the understanding I gained with the other addicts there about obsession and compulsion.
Left to my own devices, I seriously doubt I'd be looking at ten months sober in a few days.
My life's not a bowl of cherries yet.
Might never be
But at least, I don't have to live with the taste of my own vomit in my mouth everyday like I used to. And more importantly, I'm reclaiming my life from an impossible situation, that my insidious disease called addiction made me blind to for way too many years.
You came here for support you say?
You hit the motherlode.
Glad you're here.
Little Girl Found
Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: North Andover, MA
Posts: 567
Hey there...it says that you're from Ann Arbor and you're a student. Do you attend U of M? I went to MSU my first two years (RIVAL!) 
JK! Glad that you're here...I'm Danielle, 27 and I'm recovering from alcoholism. Like it's been said before, this place offers awesome support and some of the best people I've yet to encounter.
I hope that you stay around awhile, get to know us as we get to know you. There is a way out of this lifestyle if you're willing and ready. Through all the ups and downs I've experienced, I would rather remember them than be totally numbed out of my skull. It's definitely a great way of life!
Again, welcome
Danielle
JK! Glad that you're here...I'm Danielle, 27 and I'm recovering from alcoholism. Like it's been said before, this place offers awesome support and some of the best people I've yet to encounter. I hope that you stay around awhile, get to know us as we get to know you. There is a way out of this lifestyle if you're willing and ready. Through all the ups and downs I've experienced, I would rather remember them than be totally numbed out of my skull. It's definitely a great way of life!
Again, welcome
Danielle
Member
Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Northern , CA.
Posts: 42
Hi Dja, Welcome !
I say I found this site, but something brought it to me...... Fate or luck.. I don't know.
But if I'm having a bad day, I come here, and the support that I see for you and I ( no matter where we are in our recovery) is uplifting and unending. My suggestion is to keep coming back. read the threads and Know you are not alone...
Love, Cindy
I say I found this site, but something brought it to me...... Fate or luck.. I don't know.
But if I'm having a bad day, I come here, and the support that I see for you and I ( no matter where we are in our recovery) is uplifting and unending. My suggestion is to keep coming back. read the threads and Know you are not alone...
Love, Cindy
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