Suzieq17

Yesterday was Day 1 again for me.

I remember all the times I’ve tried quitting and keep failing—just looking at old posts on this site is a good reminder of the years of struggling I’ve allowed.

Yesterday, I remembered something someone suggested on here one of my last attempts—when admitting I failed, they asked what I could do differently next time. Powerful words to me yesterday.

Always reluctant to go to meetings—too scared, too ashamed, etc. Yesterday, although it was via a Zoom
call, I went to an AA meeting. I just listened. I think I am going to go to another meeting today. I think I need the support of other people like me, and their stories.

Thankful for this website today. Thank you.

Erica375

Wonderful!!! Sometimes even doing one tiny different thing helps.

BeABetterMan

AA can and will transform your life. Everything about it. Yes it helps you to stop drinking. But for me, it is so much more than that.

Dez029

Getting over the shame and fear of attending AA has been a big part of my recovery as well. Zoom meetings have helped with that since you can sit back and listen. I have been making it a priority every day to catch a Zoom meeting and it has been helping me. Daily I hear something that is uplifting and helps me get through each day. I've made it a habit to also keep a journal next to me and write down things people say that stand out to me and then I go back and read what I've written when I need it most. Keep going to the meetings, none of us are in this alone.

Aellyce

Hi Suzieq, I think we are in a similar boat... it's Day 2 for me. I also decided to do the online meetings approach, went to one AA last night, scheduled at least one for each day this week and planning to do the same for a while. There are so many recovery meetings online these days, we can be spoiled with the variety I plan to take advantage of them and try more AA and others - see which ones are the most helpful. All the best to you!

Velvetee

Hugs. That's all I have to say. Stay strong.

anxiousrock

Right there with you.

Anna

That's great. It's so important to add to our recovery plan to make sure things are working for us.

2much2luv

Hugs! I'm on day two. We've got this.

Dee74

I’m sorry you’ve been struggling but it’s great you’re looking at solutions Suzieq!

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lucky1s

Every day is day one for me. I joined in 2011,. So i have gone 9 years full well knowing I had a problem.

SoberInCLE

Best of luck. There is no point in making yourself feel worse. I highly encourage meetings and reading the big book to help stay sober.

Dee74

never too late to start a new chapter

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Hevyn

Hi Suzie. I had a few false starts too. Finally, I was fed up with myself and the disaster my life had become. So tired of trying to clean up my messes, making excuses, trying to regain people's trust, etc. Drinking never gave me the results I expected. It was no longer fun or an escape. It was pure misery.
Congratulations on your Day 2 today. You can do it this time, Suzie.

courage2

I think you know it.

Suzieq17

2 weeks sober today—very grateful, thank you SR. 😊❤️

Velvetee

Amazing! Way to go

Anna

That's great, Suzie.

thomas11

Whatever it takes, it will be worth it. Early days are tough, not gonna lie. But down the road it is an amazing productive life.

D122y

Way to keep getting on the wagon.

We all know booze is poison. It alters our chemical balance so we need it to feel normal.

Recovery from the state causes anxiety and insanity. It gets better so slowly that it seems like it is not.

After a while, the calm returns, but the crave morphs.

It takes years to normalize and even then the crave lurks.

Keep trying and the clean days add up.

Eventually, we can become non drinker addicts for life.

Our characters have an added layer of depth.

Thanks.