anxiousrock

Ashamed to admit it but i have to be true with myself. I woke up, couldn't remember anything I did last night...still don't.
I'm super hungover still...physically ill all day with vomiting.
Also as usual, so so so anxious. My heart is just racing.
I am praying I sleep tonight because I just need it so bad.
I feel like i let everyone down, especially myself.

least

There's a remedy for that - it's abstinence. The best time to be true to yourself is when you have the desire to drink. Stand up for yourself and don't listen to the voice that says it'll be ok.

My life got so much better when I stopped drinking. Yes, it was hard at first, but I kept at it and it got easier as time went on.

You know the overwhelming anxiety is a direct result of drinking. Alcohol only calms you down for a little while, then the anxiety comes back even worse.

BeABetterMan

Sounds super duper fun! Lol.

I always say that it takes what it takes. It took me countless torturous days and nights. I think you’ll get it. You had six weeks earlier this year. Just keep trying. It’s the weekend so don’t fall back into it.

anxiousrock

nope it's the long weekend here but I work so no more drinking for me. I'm still so sick I can't even keep down water. But hungover me just ordered a pizza at 11pm because I'm starving. We'll see how it goes. 6 weeks was probably my longest span of sobriety in a while.

Khorhey

Good lord that sounds pretty bad to be honest. I’ve been doing 50/50 month on month off for a year and it’s not working out. Got to get to 100 percent.

6 weeks is pretty good. If you can do that realize you can do it as long as you want.

Delilah1

You can do this!!

aasharon90

Getting sober and remaining sober is a learning process.

It wasnt until i entered recovery via a rehab hospital and
was taught about addiction and it's affects on my mind and
body, then giving a program of recovery that I could use
as a guideline to incorporate in my daily life continuously
that I would achieve continuous sobriety.

Alcohol and drugs are toxic substances that alter everything
inside our minds and bodies screwing up everything that is
suppose to help us live a healthy way of life.

Total abstinence of alcohol a day at a time learning helpful
ways to live life on lifes terms with acceptance is an important
key to achieving success in life and recovery.

There can be no doubt in our minds that one day we would
be able to drink with no consequences. To pick up a drink
of poison after anytime sober would automatically bring
us back to where we left off.

If i take a drink of alcohol today after 30 yrs sobriety, I
already know exactly where I would be. Drunk, crazy
or dead.

With each person that goes back out to test the alcohol
or drug waters returns to let me know that nothing has
changed over the yrs. Alcohol and drugs is alive and
well, taking folks out left and right without care who it
affects.

Learning to live a sober life is worth every ounce of our
heart, mind and souls fighting to get and keep it healthy
with each new day we wake up sober.

boreas

Best wishes this weekend ar.

Watching what I ate early on really helped me. Some find success in indulging every craving, but I focused on what my body might need after a period of neglect. I quit in late summer, so ate tons of fruit in addition to good, light meals (eggs, toast, cheese, porridge). Fruit was my go-to if I got hungry or squirrelly as it provided some sugar and fluids, and there was always a big, cold bowl of watermelon, apple, grapes, berries, etc. at hand.

Everyone is different, I just wanted to share what worked for me.
-bora

Khorhey

Yeah junk food is definitely a crutch that makes it harder imo. I’ve had better luck with avoiding sugar, fat and processed foods. Faster recovery. And less alcohol cravings. Because you’re not switching your body from one sugar to the next.

If you really need sugar get some Gatorade. At least you will be staying hydrated.

Wastinglife

I know that feeling, Anxious! I have woken up far too many times without a clue what I was doing the night before.

Drink some water, put on a movie. Just relax and you will be fine soon. Monitor yourself as far as any withdrawal symptoms.

anxiousrock

Thank you for all your comments about eating better. While I drink about once a month, other than that I DO eat well and have lost 55lbs. On a normal day, I do HIIT, go for run, and at least a one hour walk.
I'm healthy other than alcohol.

LumenandNyx

Isn't it shocking how easily we forget how badly alcohol really makes us feel? It's mind-boggling. The agony we're left with after the euphoria is just hell.

Get better and stay better.

anxiousrock

yes it literally is shocking!

ImNotThatGuy

It is shocking. I want off this rollercoaster. I wish I could bottle up how cruddy I feel right now and take a swig of that next time my AV comes calling.

I know envy is a sin, but I envy people who beat this thing for good.

MaximusD

Just keep at it Samantha and you will get it right! It is great that you are staying on here through it all. I think you will get it soon!