Day 3
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Day 3
Today has been tough...I've been struggling with the guilt again and also the relationship ending.
I know that this will pass and that i have a whole future ahead of me but sometimes its hard to stay in that frame of mind.
I know that before I can start focusing on another relationship I just need to focus on myself and my recovery.
I've been doing a lot of research on nutrition and ive decided to switch to a plant based diet (I know, one thing at a time but i was pretty much vegetarian anyway)
Not so much for addiction recovery but more for health and the benefits it can have to mental health also as well as reduced chances of certain illnesses and diseases.
Again, this isn't for short term gain or the hope of it helping my "crutch" I just feel it would be good for getting me to a better place both mentally and physically...
I want to work on myself to make sure that self esteem and self confidence aren't an issue in that way again - Mentally I know that i am a great person but physically I struggle and as much as i know that so many people do and without justified reason sometimes it just gets to me so much.
I know that alcohol is a mock happiness and a mock safety blanket but it helped for so many years and its hard to think of any different.
Im strong though and I finally want to know the real me...Without trauma, without hurt, without anxiety and fear of people not liking me. Its never actually been an issue but it doesn't matter if people don't like me. I just want to be real...Always
I know that this will pass and that i have a whole future ahead of me but sometimes its hard to stay in that frame of mind.
I know that before I can start focusing on another relationship I just need to focus on myself and my recovery.
I've been doing a lot of research on nutrition and ive decided to switch to a plant based diet (I know, one thing at a time but i was pretty much vegetarian anyway)
Not so much for addiction recovery but more for health and the benefits it can have to mental health also as well as reduced chances of certain illnesses and diseases. Again, this isn't for short term gain or the hope of it helping my "crutch" I just feel it would be good for getting me to a better place both mentally and physically...
I want to work on myself to make sure that self esteem and self confidence aren't an issue in that way again - Mentally I know that i am a great person but physically I struggle and as much as i know that so many people do and without justified reason sometimes it just gets to me so much.
I know that alcohol is a mock happiness and a mock safety blanket but it helped for so many years and its hard to think of any different.
Im strong though and I finally want to know the real me...Without trauma, without hurt, without anxiety and fear of people not liking me. Its never actually been an issue but it doesn't matter if people don't like me. I just want to be real...Always
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Guilt and shame in early recovery can be tough to deal with, yet we need to not be overwhelmed with those feelings because they will push us back towards drinking again. It's a good plan to work on yourself and get to know yourself before beginning another relationship. And, eating well is definitely a step in the right direction.
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Originally Posted by Anna 
Guilt and shame in early recovery can be tough to deal with, yet we need to not be overwhelmed with those feelings because they will push us back towards drinking again. It's a good plan to work on yourself and get to know yourself before beginning another relationship. And, eating well is definitely a step in the right direction.
Thank you for your comment 💛
Im going to give myself that time and hold on to myself to see what more I have to offer.
I've spent my whole adult life taking care of everyone else but have neglected myself in the process and that makes me happy/sad all at the same time. I dont want to lose myself again
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Originally Posted by GreenStar26
Its extremely hard to not be overwhelmed ...
Moving to a plant based idea is super cool! High Five. This is your life here. Do what rocks your world!
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Greenstar, eating better helped me with a lot including sleep. Stay positive and don't rush anything. Go day by day and work on yourself. Stay close here and we will help you whenever you need it.
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Congrats and yeah don’t take on too much at once. Having said that, sounds like you’re almost there already (diet) and it’s something you’re looking forward to. To me that is another reason to keep sobriety going!
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