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Old 07-15-2020, 10:31 PM
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20 weeks ago today

I woke up with a horrible hangover. I was really hot and sweaty, face burning, mouth tasting of stale alcohol and fuzzy feeling on my tongue. I could not get out of bed, I was too hungover and felt like I was dying.

I managed to get up at midday and went to the pub. Bought a pint, looked at it for ages, first sip I was sick. Carried on drinking til I went hone, buying cider on the way, drink at home with wife and children before passing out in bed at about 8pm.

Id practiced and rehearsed this over a long period, he getting worse and worse over 20 years. So many embarrassments, so many arguments, so much time wasted.

For anyone on day one, or thinking of giving up, or reading this having relapsed - I tried to give up 100's of times. I am only able to celebrate 20 weeks of sobriety due to keep coming back, keeping trying. THERE IS HOPE for a sober life, and if you don't believe me read or ask on here. You've got to keep going and keep faith in the human spirit and the human body's ability to repair itself.

My life is far from perfect and the last 20 weeks have been the most emotionally challenging of my life. I've still got a lot of consequences of my drinking I have to live with, they haven't gone away. But I wouldn't swap those 20 weeks for a winning lottery ticket (that's not an exaggeration - I honestly wouldn't!).

Dont give up, there IS hope, stay close to this forum, listen to what people say and act on it...

I accept I am in early recovery; I accept I am still addicted to alcohol and so today I will make sure I don't take the first drink.
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well done Be

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Old 07-16-2020, 12:12 AM
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today I will make sure I don't take the first drink.
Hi Be123, it sounds like you have it worked out. Good luck and keep going.
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Old 07-16-2020, 12:40 AM
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Congratulations on 20 weeks Be123.

So good to be sober.
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Old 07-16-2020, 01:11 AM
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Proud to see how hard you’ve come. I remember your day one quite well.
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Old 07-16-2020, 01:26 AM
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Congratulations Be123.
Greatly admire what you've done.
Whichever way everything else develops you have made a massive change in your personal circumstances.
I hope to follow soon
All the best.
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Old 07-16-2020, 01:41 AM
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Congratulations on 1 year sober!
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Old 07-16-2020, 01:55 AM
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We’re all addicted to alcohol here but in remission (hopefully). Twenty weeks is not to be sniffed at. It’s good going. You’re over the worst of withdrawals (although cravings always lurk) and you’ve done so in the craziest times ever know. Well done 👍
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Old 07-16-2020, 02:12 AM
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Congrats Be. I was in the March class with you but went back out. Always feel jealous when I see your threads but they're motivational. Only day 22 here.
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Old 07-16-2020, 02:38 AM
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Congrats Be. I was in the March class with you but went back out. Always feel jealous when I see your threads but they're motivational. Only day 22 here.
Hi FF - this is only my experience but after about day 30 the days suddenly seem to start tumbling by. If it wasn't for this site, if you asked me to guess how long it FEELS like I've been sober I'd say about six weeks 😳

Keep going FF, me and the March group are seriously rooting for you
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Old 07-16-2020, 11:27 AM
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Congratulations! keep it going :-)
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Old 07-16-2020, 11:39 AM
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Awersome!
Congrats on 20 weeks!
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Congrats on 20 weeks.
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Old 07-16-2020, 01:58 PM
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That's amazing. Congratulations!
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Old 07-16-2020, 05:37 PM
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Well done on 20 weeks Be123!

Thank you for your post. These sorts of posts are so important. They show us all that it's possible to get sober and build sober time. Life is never straightforward but so much more rewarding when sober.

These posts also remind us all of how dreadful it is to live as a drinker. Ugh, those hangovers and that feeling like death every morning. I was reliving the memories reading your words. Never, never, never again!
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Congrats on five months sober!
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Old 07-16-2020, 06:47 PM
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Be, 20 weeks is great. Be very proud of yourself.
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