18 months
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18 months
It’s hard to believe that 18 months ago i woke up in hospital near dead.
Ive not been close to a drink really. Sure there has been some fleeting temptations along the way, and there are still. If I thought a drink would make me happy, improve a situation or relieve feelings then I would drink. It no longer represents any of those things. It just doesn’t work, it’s a cunning illusion.
These 18 months I’ve achieved little other than sobriety and work. I’ve made a decent sum of money, by myself and for myself, with no help, starting from £500. This wouldn’t have been possible drunk, nor would I have had the time. Drinking and its effects consume soooo much time.
I worry about the future and panic that I’ve left this too late (I’m 41). What I do for a living is on the wane and I have no idea what else I would do. I’m terrified of the outside world. And whilst I’m growing older I’m not even close to being a grown up - I’m clueless.
i suppose these are future challenges.
To anyone struggling in early days - it can be done! It really does start when the last drink ends. I first found this site 13 years ago. But here I am 18 months sober. You can do it too!
Ive not been close to a drink really. Sure there has been some fleeting temptations along the way, and there are still. If I thought a drink would make me happy, improve a situation or relieve feelings then I would drink. It no longer represents any of those things. It just doesn’t work, it’s a cunning illusion.
These 18 months I’ve achieved little other than sobriety and work. I’ve made a decent sum of money, by myself and for myself, with no help, starting from £500. This wouldn’t have been possible drunk, nor would I have had the time. Drinking and its effects consume soooo much time.
I worry about the future and panic that I’ve left this too late (I’m 41). What I do for a living is on the wane and I have no idea what else I would do. I’m terrified of the outside world. And whilst I’m growing older I’m not even close to being a grown up - I’m clueless.
i suppose these are future challenges.
To anyone struggling in early days - it can be done! It really does start when the last drink ends. I first found this site 13 years ago. But here I am 18 months sober. You can do it too!
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Congrats on 18 months. Thats fantastic. I pretty much feel the same way alot of times. Your not alone on that. I'm almost 49 and have one year sober as an adult. lol. At least I quit, better late than never. Things will work out. Keep up the good work.
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Congrats on your eighteen months sober! I think a lot of are in the same boat about jobs and such. You sober up and realize you really should have been dealing with reality a lot sooner. The good thing is it’s a lot easier to figure these things out when you’re sober. Easier to talk to people and get some help or ideas. I’m 50 and I’m looking at my present job ending soon too. Ugh.
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Originally Posted by FlyAgain 
I worry about the future and panic that I’ve left this too late (I’m 41).
I gave up at 49. I wasted my 40s by drinking. You’ve still got your 40s, and you’ll enjoy them sober.
We all worry about the future, but you’re far better equipped now you’re sober. Be a bit more positive as you’re stronger than most people out there. Well done again.
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18 months...I envy you! I'm almost 46 and have only been sober for about 6 months. I was lucky enough to hang on to my job but as far as finances and parenting goes drinking caused a ton of issues that I'm going to be dealing with for a long time. But I'm doing it sober. As long as we're sober and put in the effort, it will work out.
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