addictedToBeer8

Hello SR,

It is another Day 1 for me. In the past I was able to abstain for longer periods. Now it is getting harder and harder. Constantly relapsing, not sure even why Im doing that. Already have severe liver damage and I am on the verge of losing my family. It's now or never...as always.

Wish you all the best!

TiredCarpenter

Hello: Welcome back.
The support here at SR gives me the strength to do the right thing.

I check in daily (usually twice or more), I gain the strength and resolve to carry on.

This is truly a great place.

Dee74

Welcome back.

sounds like you have some pretty powerful reasons to quit.

whats your plan?

D

addictedToBeer8

I always had a plan and it did work for a while. There is no plan.

Gabe1980

Hey Addicted. It's great you are back and still trying. Don't lose sight of that.

It's just day by day and finding ways to keep you mind in the right place. Stick here and keep writing about how you are feeling. I am finding that is working for me.

D122y

The only way out was to suffer. It was a 3 month treck through mental and physical hell on earth, off and on.

I remember wishing I could take a pill that made it easier, but then thinking if it was easier I would just relapse. I want big painful internal scars that never go away. I need them to stay grateful for the next 40 or so years.

They say the pain of getting clean only gets me so far along. Then I have to do other things.

This counts as other things.

Thanks.

Reid82

Hopefully this can be the last day 1. Sounds like you need it this time to stay stopped.

PuckLuck

Always gets more serious with each relapse...

Sounds like you've reached a turning point. Since I decided to get sober at age 30, I have had one hell of a battle with relapses myself. A lot of 30 days, a couple 3 months, 4 months, even had 8 months of sobriety.

Funny thing is with each relapse I kept losing more and more of my life and my (bleep)! Guess what? Fast forward 5 years later... I'm 35. Now I have nothing. Drank it all away. This is what happens when us alcoholics continue to drink. I ignored all the advice I was given thinking it couldn't happen to me, but as I was warned, it did.

Let's both stay quit this time around. We have to! I'm on Day 3 today so I'm right there with ya. Join our June sober club!

january161992

For me, the learned bad habit of drinking was replaced by the new learned good habit of AA meetings. Since I've always gone to meetings, I've never thought about drinking.

Zoom meetings for now until the rooms open up.

Dee74

That means that its most likely you'll fall back on the default - which is drinking.
The problems not that plans don't work - the problem is the plans you've had so far don't hold up when they need to, or don't work for any length of time.

You can build a better plan - plans do work.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)

Hevyn

We're glad to see you, Addicted. No reason why this has to be the same as all the other attempts - you truly can get free for good.
I hope you'll keep posting even if you're feeling down & defeated. We all understand the misery of those early days - but they don't last forever.
You're never alone.

Hodd

What sort of liver damage do you have? If a doctor has diagnosed you, you need to speak with that doctor and get help.

You know you have a drinking problem, so that’s a good first step.

Good luck going forward, but stop with the drinking and you can get your life back.