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Today is day 2 back in recovery. I was clean for almost a year and my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer in June 2019 and she passed away August 15 2019. I lost it! I didnt want to feel anything anymore. When she died half of me died with her. She did get a chance to see me living clean in recovery and was so proud of me. So, here I am! I am going to make her proud again and find myself again.. The new, stronger Misty!
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: Kerry, Ireland
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Hello and welcome to SR. Sorry to hear about your mother, that must have hit you hard, no one here will judge you for drinking again.
I'm sure your mother would prefer you to be sober again and I'm sure you can honour her memory about doing this. Best of luck.
I'm sure your mother would prefer you to be sober again and I'm sure you can honour her memory about doing this. Best of luck.
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Join Date: Apr 2020
Location: Saskatchewan.
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Glad you are here Misty.
The loss of someone close is always sooooo difficult. I never really fully explored how deeply the passing of my father several years back affected me. Sorry for your loss.
You seem to have some really good personal motivation to stay sober (to make her proud again).
Best of luck to you on your sober journey!
The loss of someone close is always sooooo difficult. I never really fully explored how deeply the passing of my father several years back affected me. Sorry for your loss.
You seem to have some really good personal motivation to stay sober (to make her proud again).
Best of luck to you on your sober journey!
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Join Date: Feb 2017
Location: Georgia, USA
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Welcome to SR, Misty. I'm so sorry about your mom. That is truly hard, I know. I'm glad you've decided to get sober again, though. Sending prayers and positive thoughts to you. The first few days can be hard, as you know. I hope you'll let us know how you're doing.
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Join Date: Dec 2019
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Good for you Misty. Think back and remember how preferable it is to live with a clear head and feeling good in the mornings. So much less to plan around, so much easier to think, so many more hours in the day to fill with what you want.
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Join Date: Dec 2009
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Hi Misty,
I know the pain. My sister told me if I could crawl in the coffin with my mother I would have. I drank hard for 12 years after her death. I think they are all looking down on us from Hevean so the best honor I believe at this point Is getting sober.
Good Luck
I know the pain. My sister told me if I could crawl in the coffin with my mother I would have. I drank hard for 12 years after her death. I think they are all looking down on us from Hevean so the best honor I believe at this point Is getting sober.
Good Luck
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Warwick RI
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I do believe you will make her proud..hopefully you have a greater desire to live and fight for your own health....so so sorry about your Mom.
I lost my Dad in March and I came home right to the bottle....felt the need to wash or numb my thoughts and feelings....and then I realized how sick I was making myself and had to stop....
Hope to see more posts from you as you start to feel better.
I lost my Dad in March and I came home right to the bottle....felt the need to wash or numb my thoughts and feelings....and then I realized how sick I was making myself and had to stop....
Hope to see more posts from you as you start to feel better.
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