Hi all,

I'm not really sure what to say, I have tried quitting so many times and I really want this time to work. Its been 20 hours since my last drink, I read that GABA distortion in the brain caused the severity of withdrawal so I took some probiotics I know produce It in the body at hour 10 and again afew minutes ago so I'm not really feeling very bad if at all yet even though my craving was there when I ate lunch and before hour 10 I was getting a bit paranoid and very hot. I don't have a support system because I'm ashamed to admit how much I drink and my boyfriend is getting worse with his addiction to weed. I can go all day without want a drink but then I'm around him and think eff it, I can even engage with this person right now might as well go into my own head. I cant break up with him at this moment because of some legal issues but I fantasize when I will be able to. For a long time I blamed my drinking on him his is not the best guy(often only nice when high)and I often cleared 3/4 to a bottle of wine a day, and my life is in shambles, I also gained so much weight. I finally realized I had given him power over me in such a dysfunctional way. Now I accepted and have began tackling why I drink. I hope I haven't done too much damage to my brain and body. I thank you all who post here, reading your posts gave me courage to atleast let it out and say the truth somewhere

Thank you, it does feel encouraging to hear I have achieved something though I am about to go to the grocery store to get some essentials and honestly afraid I will buy some, convince myself I actually just need to taper off rather than just stop. But as I say it the anxiety is slowly lifting ha. I know I have shopped before without buying booze albeit rarely but I think I can do it today👍, thank you for letting me speak.

I just got back from the store, decided to not go to my usual so it doesn't trigger my usual pattern there, funny thing was all the stores were closed till it hit me Easter!! Though there was a walgreens open so decided to pop in there, I ended up at the wine isle, not that I felt the need to drink or that I would later on(but I think that was a lie) but my wine was $3 cheaper there and I thought it was a a good deal, I walked to the checkout wine in hand and there! The cashier was a close friend of mine who is both religious and doesn't drink! I laughed(and was sad) at myself how easy I lied to myself, took the wine back and got a case of water I actually needed and it was cheaper. This is going to be tough. Thank you all for your encouraging words.

It was amazing! Very much strengthened my resolve. That was very very foolish of me, putting myself in a place where I could though it away!? For what? I don't even like the drunk feeling anymore. Thank God for such magical situations, some day I'll tell her what she did for me😊

I am! 1 min to go! Almost feel like crying!!

I will repeat that to myself "the next right thing"

Thank you

I just want to that you all for talking with me today, I have reached 24hrs and even though I have never met any of you, you helped me so much get over this first day. Thank you and God bless you! Good luck with all your journeys

I'm was having a rough go there for a bit, it looks like eating is a strong trigger for me, I almost went to get 2 6oz bottles of wine, I actually got to the door and wouldn't you know it, its raining cats and dogs outside, I think I will just take my allergy meds and a shower and get to bed as fast as possible. You are right, it will be nice to wake up fresh. Don't know how to get over the food association though, do the cravings just go away when the habit is no longer associated with something? Or is this a thing I will just have to live with?