Day 6
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Day 6
Hi All,
On day 6 here. The weird part is do not have any urges. I did have to taper off with beer to get to the point of nothing as I tried to just quit and ended soaking the sheets and shakes. While I do not have any urges at the moment I feel completely out of sorts. The anxiety is fading day by day and depression manageable. Covid not helping things by being a prisoner in my home but it is what it is.
I was taking care of a family member in hospice out of state for Jan and Feb. Like any good alcoholic I coped with booze. I was nailing 15 beers a day and 2-3 crown royals at night ( my crowns are probably a normal person's 3). When I got home it was the usual, embarrassing incident at the airport and then fighting with GF of 15 years.
I am not sure why this time feels so different to quit. It's weird it's like I got hit in the head with a hammer. I realize if I drink I am heading to a grave or jail. I don't want either. I have been seeing an addiction counselor for the last year and it has been helpful yanking a lot of skeletons out of the closet. I did the counselor initially I want to manage my drinking..HA. I have been trying to manage my drinking for so long now I forgot how long it's been. It's always an epic fail.
I have 2 old drinking buddies that have quit. One for 11 years another for 2. I have always told them I admire them and that is sincere. I have teased them and told they make me sober-curious. I have been leaning on them and I am bound and determined to get booze out of my life. At this point I think I want to be free. I want to be sober more than I want to be drunk. I know the booze dragon will not let me go so easy. I am terrified in my mind when a case of the **** it's come. I have an addiction counselor, 2 good friend's, some other good friends supporting me in this, a phone app for quitting drinking and now this forum. I am going to get it this time.
On day 6 here. The weird part is do not have any urges. I did have to taper off with beer to get to the point of nothing as I tried to just quit and ended soaking the sheets and shakes. While I do not have any urges at the moment I feel completely out of sorts. The anxiety is fading day by day and depression manageable. Covid not helping things by being a prisoner in my home but it is what it is.
I was taking care of a family member in hospice out of state for Jan and Feb. Like any good alcoholic I coped with booze. I was nailing 15 beers a day and 2-3 crown royals at night ( my crowns are probably a normal person's 3). When I got home it was the usual, embarrassing incident at the airport and then fighting with GF of 15 years.
I am not sure why this time feels so different to quit. It's weird it's like I got hit in the head with a hammer. I realize if I drink I am heading to a grave or jail. I don't want either. I have been seeing an addiction counselor for the last year and it has been helpful yanking a lot of skeletons out of the closet. I did the counselor initially I want to manage my drinking..HA. I have been trying to manage my drinking for so long now I forgot how long it's been. It's always an epic fail.
I have 2 old drinking buddies that have quit. One for 11 years another for 2. I have always told them I admire them and that is sincere. I have teased them and told they make me sober-curious. I have been leaning on them and I am bound and determined to get booze out of my life. At this point I think I want to be free. I want to be sober more than I want to be drunk. I know the booze dragon will not let me go so easy. I am terrified in my mind when a case of the **** it's come. I have an addiction counselor, 2 good friend's, some other good friends supporting me in this, a phone app for quitting drinking and now this forum. I am going to get it this time.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Relapse is not inevitable. You can stay sober - use all the support and tools you can get 
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