Had to stop drinking . It had become imperceptibly more and more problematic over the years . Having now been sober for 70 days I can see that I’ve spent most of the last 30 years drinking and drugging myself in some form or other without even realising , it seemed normal to me !
so I decided to quit cold turkey along with tobacco and weed ( I only smoked weed when I drank) because I was just feeling physically sick all the time and not sleeping and not getting any pleasure out of my vices, only trying to feel normal but once I started I couldn’t stop until I passed out .
right now everything is much better : sleep , relationships , physical and mental health. I’ve still got along way to go and a lot of issues to address which I’ve been suppressing all these years it’s a little scary but exciting too .
We are 3 weeks into a state of lockdown here and no sign of an end to it yet so I’m cooped up with the family and they with me , it’s been ok actually , my wife drinks moderately but I’ve not been really tempted to drink although I do get a kind of empty sensation sometimes, like something is missing ( a cigarette and a beer probably) exercise has been a big help but I injured my ankle 10 days ago so I’ve had to ease off on that , nearly healed now and hope to get back on track tomorrow. So that’s a bit of me , thanks for listening .

thanks for the welcome messages . I have been using a sober app which has definitely been helpful in motivating abstinence and tracking health benefits , money saved etc but the community aspect is much less active than this site . I came across sr only yesterday and I was immediately struck by the honesty and intelligence of the posters and joined up straight away .
I’m not doing any formal programme and I don’t know any sober people so I’ll be needing an outlet sometimes . Thanks in advance for listening