Anthony555

Hi Everyone,

Today is day 58 of sobriety for me. My last drink was January 8th, 2020. I used to drink a half bottle to 3/4th a day since 2012-2013. I stopped cold turkey and had a rough time adjusting. I needed Xanax for the first 2-weeks and that got me through it. Right now I am on 22.5mg of Buspar daily and no other meds. I am starting to feel some intense anxiety creeping back up on me, some mood swings, at times I want to sabotage relationships with people I do business with. Does anyone know what is going on with me? Anytime I feel a pain I overreact like I am dying or it's always worst case scenario.

I read somewhere that alcohol abuse can trigger Post Acute Withdrawals as well?

I am sorry to bother with this. I am lost right now and I don't have anywhere else to go.

--Anthony

Anna

Anxiety and mood swings are very common in early sobriety. Most of us take some time to learn how to manage emotions and ups and downs in daily life. I wonder what other changes you have made in your life besides stopping drinking? I had to make many lifestyle changes to support my recovery. Maybe you could come up with some things that would help you to feel better.

Ghostlight1

Hello and welcome. You're not bothering anyone. It's great to have you here.
When I quit for good, so far, elven years ago I went through the gamut of emotions.
I had no doctor's help, I was on my own.
Looking back that was a stupid thing to do. As much and as long as I drank, I should have been detoxed.
You're getting meds so I assume your under a doctor's care.
You're concerns would be good one to bring up with him/her.

No one here can diagnose you.
There's probably going to be bumps in the road to recovery.
I know there was for me, and getting rid of them was one reason I kept on drinking.
Best to you and I hope you stick around.
And congratulations on fifty eight days. Hang in there, it only gets better.

Anthony555

Thank you Ghostlight. My PCP is not an addiction specialist. I am seeking an addiction therapist in my area right now as well. I know this won't be easy. Nothing worth have comes easy. It's a day to day kind of thing. The Buspar was prescribed for general anxiety. For some reason I don't think it's working.

tomls

For the anxiety I did breathing exercises , meditated and took naps. You will get past this phase. It is so worth it when you do!

Dee74

Hi Anthony - welcome

Its not clear to me whether your anxiety is a new thing or whether you've dealt with it before.

I drank for 20 years and after quitting my emotions were up and down for a while - I didn't start to feel emotionally 'level' until about 3 months.

do you mean sabotaging relationships by drinking? that would not be an uncommon thing to want to drink despite clear evidence that would be disastrous - but support helps - and you'll find that here.

If you think it's PAWs this link may help?

https://digital-dharma.net/post-acut...r-immediately/

D

Anthony555

Hi Dee,

I think I always had some degree of anxiety but what I am feeling the last few days is where I need Xanax to calm it. It feels more like I am tensed up before someone punches you in the stomach.

In the 58-days of sobriety I am not feeling the urge to drink. In terms of sabotaging relationships some days I have less tolerance than others. For example a top client pulled a fast one and normally I would over look it due to the amount of business we normally do but this time I called him out on what he had done putting that relationship at risk. At that time I was fine with losing the relationship. Come the next day I felt better (and had more tolerance) and realized what I had done and made amends to repair any damage if any.

Dee74

I had a pretty short fuse when I was in early recovery, but, yeah you leatn to keep inside voice as inside voice.

sounds to me like you're doing pretty well, and nothing out of the usual, at nearly 60 days - stick with it!

D