Wastinglife

I have had at least 3 harsh detoxes since Christmas. One had me in the ER. Currently on day 2 again. Anxiety and insomnia are the worst symptoms now.

I haven't eaten nor slept for 2 or 3 days. Couldn't leave the house. Tortured by intrusive thoughts and panic attacks.

I feel better now. Anxiety way down. I left the house and the first thing I thought of was a beer. After all that suffering, I want a drink knowing where it ends up.....madness.

Surrendered19

That AV is screaming at you WL. That is harsh. Please don't drink. As you so wisely observed, we know how that story ends. Booze is so deceptive. The maniacal high lasts for such a short time and then it is days or weeks of misery. Next time you leave the house, pack some gear and a little food and walk until you are cross-eyed. Miles and miles.

Anna

WL, you can get through this and get to Day 3. You don't need to go through the withdrawals again. You'll be feeling better before long.

Steely

Believe it WL. This is how the mongrel plays the game. Grrrrr. We can outsmart it. Just don't drink and stick with the strength, here.

Please don't drink WL, you know how it will end. Not well.

Anxiety and intrusive thoughts are heightened with alcohol and withdrawal.

I hope you are continuing to improve.

Wastinglife

Not gonna drink. Went to the library instead. Mind was immediately taken off alcohol when I walked in.

brighterday1234

Wastinglife

Spent 2 hours out of the house walked around a bit. Walked past 2 liquor stores and it took every fibre of my being not to go in. I'm slightly shaky/sweaty and a beer would have been great....

Wastinglife

I can't remember the last 2 weeks. I know I went to a strip club nearby. All I remember is a blonde girl. Can't picture her face at all. Spent a fortune on her probably. No clue what day that was. Think I drank at home the rest of the time. Kills me...

AnvilheadII

I'm slightly shaky/sweaty and a beer would have been great....

alcohol is WHY you are miserable, shaky and sweaty. it's not the cure, it's the PROBLEM. it will take TIME for your body to detox and no longer be toxicly dependent on alcohol. this means you need to work very hard on changing your mindset and on changing the running narrative that "a drink" will fix anything.

Dee74

I'm really glad you resisted WL. There's nothing good back the way we came. Put your faith in moving forward, man

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Steely

How long would the beer have continued to be great WL?

It is always short lived in my experience. Very short lived, while the aftermath continues to live indefinitely.

daisy1

Last year I had a detox every month after Christmas until April when it finally sunk in. I don't even remember how or why I kept relapsing it's all a blur, but once I got a few more weeks under my belt the clarity you get makes it easier to surf those urges!

Plure

Reid82

That's the insanity of addiction.

Wastinglife

Day 3 still not a wink of sleep. I am a pathological liar when I drink so my mind won't shut down because I am trying to remember all the nonsense I said to people. Harmless lies that hurt no one but I need to get my story straight....

thomas11

Have you been able to eat anything? drink fluids?

Dee74

Hope you get some sleep today WL

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thomas11

Ditto, some good sleep will change your life. Some food too, but only when you are hungry. Hang in there bud, your gonna make it.

BeckoningCat

Have you tried things like melatonin, herbal teas, over-the-counter sleeping pills, asked your doctor about beta blockers for anxiety (they will give you think long before they'll give you an anti-anxiety med), anything that isn't alcohol that might help you sleep at least?

I lie or make things up when I binge drink, too. Same trait, just harmless nonsense, things are more embarrassing than hurtful.