Welp, I relapsed. Doggone it!!!
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Welp, I relapsed. Doggone it!!!
Went to rehab, thought I was strong after several weeks of sobriety. But I am now back to Day One. Went to a meeting. Saw a doctor to withdrawal meds. My wife promised me should would not leave me if I commit to AA. I so do not want to back to the dog days of drinking.
i am going to get all of my material from rehab and wrote out a recovery plan. Starting tonight I will begin praying again, and meditate in the mornings.
I will resume regular posting on here.
thanks in advance for all your support.
i am going to get all of my material from rehab and wrote out a recovery plan. Starting tonight I will begin praying again, and meditate in the mornings.
I will resume regular posting on here.
thanks in advance for all your support.
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You have done it, and you can do it again! You know what to do, so just do it. I go with Dee´s advice- ask yourself the right questions, but IMHO I don´t think you find those answers in a bible... The answers is in you.
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You are ok Horn. We don't drink any more, that's all. Life is so simple that way. It's like putting down a large heavy bag of excrement that you've been carrying around for some weird reason. Just put it down and walk away. Welcome back. I'm 3 months sober and loving every day.
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This thinking and when I decided to drink was for a business trip to LA. Thought I could drink, sober up, and come back home. Turned into an 8 day bender. my wife, understandably, was furious.!
simply put, I did not make my sobriety the absolute number one priority.
simply put, I did not make my sobriety the absolute number one priority.
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Having been here with you, getting sober around the first time you started to, working in similar fields, same age, with family, health etc in the balance, I'm not sure what you mean in your response. More to the point there is a flippancy in the way you describe your decision to drink on this business trip - its almost like you're describing the decision to get a new haircut. I know you were doing in-patient for a period correct? Where's the gravity and seriousness? Just something really lacking here man. To be honest.
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Originally Posted by lessgravity 
Having been here with you, getting sober around the first time you started to, working in similar fields, same age, with family, health etc in the balance, I'm not sure what you mean in your response. More to the point there is a flippancy in the way you describe your decision to drink on this business trip - its almost like you're describing the decision to get a new haircut. I know you were doing in-patient for a period correct? Where's the gravity and seriousness? Just something really lacking here man. To be honest.
I want to keep you as a friend. But re-read your post. It reeks of arrogance and judgement. I have a lot of work to do. And yes, the problem is I am still at a point of drinking like it is a haircut. Just don’t be a jerk about it.
i came on here looking for help. Not a “we’re similar but I did better post.” Think about what you wrote.
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Originally Posted by lessgravity
Having been here with you, getting sober around the first time you started to, working in similar fields, same age, with family, health etc in the balance, I'm not sure what you mean in your response. More to the point there is a flippancy in the way you describe your decision to drink on this business trip - its almost like you're describing the decision to get a new haircut. I know you were doing in-patient for a period correct? Where's the gravity and seriousness? Just something really lacking here man. To be honest.
I think this awful thing can often take us down again in the span of a moment. Less time than deciding to get a haircut. It is one of the things that scares me so much. I am 3 months sober and never want to drink again, but in a moment, folks report picking up again after years of sobriety.
I think Horn's report is a really frightening example of what could happen to any of us. A split second and we drink again. It seems to be a common and terrifying tale.
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Do you mean the strength of several weeks of sobriety was the strength to drink for only a short time and then stop?
Is your goal to be able to keep drinking sessions in check and manageable?
Is your goal to be able to keep drinking sessions in check and manageable?
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Originally Posted by dwtbd
Do you mean the strength of several weeks of sobriety was the strength to drink for only a short time and then stop?
Is your goal to be able to keep drinking sessions in check and manageable?
Is your goal to be able to keep drinking sessions in check and manageable?
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