New guy on day two
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New guy on day two
Been lurking for awhile. Been a long time alcoholic/binge drinker. But rock bottom and now separated from my wife. Last two days have been shear hell. Anxiety, the stress, sweats, unbelievable panic attacks. Tomorrow I have to finish moving then make my first AS meeting.
I've been a terrible person and hurt my wife with my words and actions while drinking. So done with this.
I've been a terrible person and hurt my wife with my words and actions while drinking. So done with this.
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Welcome, Phoenix!
Two days is awesome! I hope this is the beginning of a permanent sobriety. Read around and post often--it works if you work it!
Here's a couple good threads to join:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7388479
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7388364 (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 475)
Two days is awesome! I hope this is the beginning of a permanent sobriety. Read around and post often--it works if you work it!
Here's a couple good threads to join:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7388479
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7388364 (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 475)
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Welcome! Sounds like you're dealing with some tough outcomes from an addiction that hasn't served you well. So glad you've made it to day 2. Keep reading and posting. Lots of wonderful support here from people who've been there, done that, and are just as sick of it as you are.
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The really early days can be held but hang on in there, it gets better. Even early on the benefits start to show. Welcome and congratulations on 2 days and making thanks decision. It's time for a better life.
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Thank you
It's a tough one. Barely sleep or eat. So depressed. Today I make my last run to move the rest of my stuff. Living at mom's to get back on my feet. It's going to take everything I got left to get through this. Looking at my past, I've come to the conclusion that I have a borderline personality disorder that fueled my alcoholic tendencies. So there's that too.
I've completely ruined my life and marraige.
My health has taken a big hit. Right now it's just day by day.
I've completely ruined my life and marraige.
My health has taken a big hit. Right now it's just day by day.
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This wonderful site can be a part of your recovery PhoenixR. You'll find so much good support here. Keep thing really simple and physical in the coming days. Move. Unpack as much as possible. Clean up. Shave. Make a few medical and dental appointments. Do the laundry. You will have time to process what has happened. For now, get your physical world in order. Make schedules and lists and stick to them. I hope you are sober now.
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Welcome, Phoenixrising.
Canadian Koala posted links to two really great threads.
Stick with sobriety. Give it all you have and then some. I believe that doing so will create for you a solid foundation upon which to build a life of which you can be proud.
Very glad that you have joined us.
Canadian Koala posted links to two really great threads.
Stick with sobriety. Give it all you have and then some. I believe that doing so will create for you a solid foundation upon which to build a life of which you can be proud.
Very glad that you have joined us.
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Originally Posted by Phoenixrising20 
It's a tough one. Barely sleep or eat. So depressed. Today I make my last run to move the rest of my stuff. Living at mom's to get back on my feet. It's going to take everything I got left to get through this. Looking at my past, I've come to the conclusion that I have a borderline personality disorder that fueled my alcoholic tendencies. So there's that too.
I've completely ruined my life and marraige.
My health has taken a big hit. Right now it's just day by day.
I've completely ruined my life and marraige.
My health has taken a big hit. Right now it's just day by day.
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the early days are hard but beer solves nothing - it just cements you in that dark place.
Things will get easier and better - but there's a little unavoidable short term pain to go through first - its worth it tho.
I hope you go to the meeting - if you can buy beer, I think you're owed a little recovery effort as well.
Not sure by your post but I hope you dumped the second.
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Things will get easier and better - but there's a little unavoidable short term pain to go through first - its worth it tho.
I hope you go to the meeting - if you can buy beer, I think you're owed a little recovery effort as well.
Not sure by your post but I hope you dumped the second.
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It's great to have you with us, phoenixrising. I'm so sorry for the painful time you've been through. I'm glad you've made the decision to get free of alcohol. I was in it's grips for decades, always trying to somehow be a social drinker. You already know what needs to happen & that's something to be proud of. We're here to encourage you as a your new life unfolds. Please be kind & patient with yourself as you get free and heal.
If you go to the meeting, let us know how it goes. We're here to listen & help.
If you go to the meeting, let us know how it goes. We're here to listen & help.
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Dee. I dumped the second beer. Almost took a sip then remembered the horrible panic attacks a few days ago. Still feeling like ****.
Went to a meeting tonight. Net some good people. Going back tomorrow.
Went to a meeting tonight. Net some good people. Going back tomorrow.
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