Day 6..
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Day 6..
Hi all.
I originally posted this elsewhere but didn’t realise there was a section specifically for newbies so I’ll pop this here.
I’ll try not to go on too much. I’ve joined in the hope I won’t feel so lonely. I’m 30 and have 3 children. Started drinking when I was 13 on weekends. Stopped during my pregnancies. Went through a phase of drinking everyday for 6 months when I was 25. Stopped again. Past year or 2 I’ve drank maybe once a month. But the problem is when I drink I drink to excess. Probably 70cl of rum in an evening. About a year ago I started experiencing severe pain during my hangovers which would last about a week. Also came intense itching. I had normal bloods come back in February last year.
anyway I have drank (binged) one or two nights per month, every month since last February..at Christmas I said I wasn’t drinking anymore and I didn’t drink for 4 weeks... however Saturday just gone I had a binge - my partner insisted it would be fine even though I told him three times I didn’t want to drink because I can never stop until I pass out. I drank 3 beers, and around 40cl of rum with coke.
he doesn’t really understand. Keeps saying I will be fine but I don’t feel it. I have bloods booked in for Monday so I know I can’t get medical advice here but I’m looking to hear other people’s experiences. Just so I don’t feel so alone in this I guess.
At the moment the pain has stopped but I still feel a little itchy. And nauseous. But I am wracked with guilt that I may die and leave my kids without me. I have never drank around them as I say I am a weekend binge drinker usually they are with family but they adore me and I adore them. I feel like I’ve let them down and I’m terrified of pancreaitis, or liver failure or even kidney disease. I’m not looking for diagnosis but hopefully reassurance? I don’t even know if those are the right words, just know I realise nobody can give medical advice and if I feel worse I need to go to the hospital. If you’ve made it this far thanks for reading!
I originally posted this elsewhere but didn’t realise there was a section specifically for newbies so I’ll pop this here.
I’ll try not to go on too much. I’ve joined in the hope I won’t feel so lonely. I’m 30 and have 3 children. Started drinking when I was 13 on weekends. Stopped during my pregnancies. Went through a phase of drinking everyday for 6 months when I was 25. Stopped again. Past year or 2 I’ve drank maybe once a month. But the problem is when I drink I drink to excess. Probably 70cl of rum in an evening. About a year ago I started experiencing severe pain during my hangovers which would last about a week. Also came intense itching. I had normal bloods come back in February last year.
anyway I have drank (binged) one or two nights per month, every month since last February..at Christmas I said I wasn’t drinking anymore and I didn’t drink for 4 weeks... however Saturday just gone I had a binge - my partner insisted it would be fine even though I told him three times I didn’t want to drink because I can never stop until I pass out. I drank 3 beers, and around 40cl of rum with coke.
he doesn’t really understand. Keeps saying I will be fine but I don’t feel it. I have bloods booked in for Monday so I know I can’t get medical advice here but I’m looking to hear other people’s experiences. Just so I don’t feel so alone in this I guess.
At the moment the pain has stopped but I still feel a little itchy. And nauseous. But I am wracked with guilt that I may die and leave my kids without me. I have never drank around them as I say I am a weekend binge drinker usually they are with family but they adore me and I adore them. I feel like I’ve let them down and I’m terrified of pancreaitis, or liver failure or even kidney disease. I’m not looking for diagnosis but hopefully reassurance? I don’t even know if those are the right words, just know I realise nobody can give medical advice and if I feel worse I need to go to the hospital. If you’ve made it this far thanks for reading!
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Welcome A30
I cant just have a few either.
Anyone that tells me I can is wrong.
You know you can't either and it seems you don't want to drink anymore so don't let Anyone pressure you into it.
If you feel the need to drink post here.
Someone's here more often than not. These folks are great. Lots of wisdom here.
I cant just have a few either.
Anyone that tells me I can is wrong.
You know you can't either and it seems you don't want to drink anymore so don't let Anyone pressure you into it.
If you feel the need to drink post here.
Someone's here more often than not. These folks are great. Lots of wisdom here.
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Hello, welcome to SR.
First off, relax a bit. You are making a great decision and step in the right direction being here. There is so much help and wisdom here, it's a great resource. No judging, we've all been there.
Sounds like your partner is enabling you.
You're going to have to draw a line in the sand. Your sobriety needs to be #1.
First off, relax a bit. You are making a great decision and step in the right direction being here. There is so much help and wisdom here, it's a great resource. No judging, we've all been there.
Sounds like your partner is enabling you.
You're going to have to draw a line in the sand. Your sobriety needs to be #1.
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Day 6 is great going. Congratulations.
As for the health stuff I was always terrified that I was going to die when I was drinking. My liver hurt all the time and I generally felt rubbish despite an otherwise healthy lifestyle. My health anxiety was out of control. For me a lot of that eased right back about 3 weeks in when my body started to normalise, odd things like sore liver and numb hands went away pretty quick. So even though your symptoms are different it is entirely likely that the same will happen for you. Good that you are getting it checked out though. Let us know what happens with the bloods - but in the meantime try not to worry too much. You are doing the best thing now.
As for the health stuff I was always terrified that I was going to die when I was drinking. My liver hurt all the time and I generally felt rubbish despite an otherwise healthy lifestyle. My health anxiety was out of control. For me a lot of that eased right back about 3 weeks in when my body started to normalise, odd things like sore liver and numb hands went away pretty quick. So even though your symptoms are different it is entirely likely that the same will happen for you. Good that you are getting it checked out though. Let us know what happens with the bloods - but in the meantime try not to worry too much. You are doing the best thing now.
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Originally Posted by resolute50 
Hello, welcome to SR.
First off, relax a bit. You are making a great decision and step in the right direction being here. There is so much help and wisdom here, it's a great resource. No judging, we've all been there.
Sounds like your partner is enabling you.
You're going to have to draw a line in the sand. Your sobriety needs to be #1.
First off, relax a bit. You are making a great decision and step in the right direction being here. There is so much help and wisdom here, it's a great resource. No judging, we've all been there.
Sounds like your partner is enabling you.
You're going to have to draw a line in the sand. Your sobriety needs to be #1.
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Thank you for your replies so far. I’m glad I took the decision to join the board, straight away I feel less alone, for years i felt like I was the only person with this problem. Of course I knew there would be others out there going through the same struggles but I had never spoken to or met anybody in the same boat so it’s been a lonely place to be
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Originally Posted by SoberRican
Hello and welcome. Great choice on dropping the sauce . I would lean on the side of caution and not start the sauce. If you worried . trust me your ailments will all but disappear in time. One day at a time. ✌
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It took a major mental health scare to get me going. Physically I was a mess, but i could not quit until the mental ramped up.
It is a death spiral and from the sound of your drinking amount, you are not too deep in a hole.
But the problem is that it is harder to quit when the ramifications are not as dire.
The addiction can override lesser pains.
Thanks.
It is a death spiral and from the sound of your drinking amount, you are not too deep in a hole.
But the problem is that it is harder to quit when the ramifications are not as dire.
The addiction can override lesser pains.
Thanks.
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