Looking at MY drinking
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Looking at MY drinking
I lost a brother last month to the hideous and inevitable demise from alcoholism over 5 decades.
This has made me look at my own habit/relationship with alcohol.
By golly I drink WAY TOO MUCH.
So I quit on Sunday.
So far so good. I know that there are challenges and I need to be present to deal with this.
Once upon a time I was a non-drinker, just didn't care for it.
I feel a glimmer of that person returning after 4 days and I am very excited.
When I was a non-drinker I never felt I had to justify or explain why, it was just how I was. Looking to get back to that long term.
Hope this makes sense!
This has made me look at my own habit/relationship with alcohol.
By golly I drink WAY TOO MUCH.
So I quit on Sunday.
So far so good. I know that there are challenges and I need to be present to deal with this.
Once upon a time I was a non-drinker, just didn't care for it.
I feel a glimmer of that person returning after 4 days and I am very excited.
When I was a non-drinker I never felt I had to justify or explain why, it was just how I was. Looking to get back to that long term.
Hope this makes sense!
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I'm sorry for your lose, but can relate.
I'm in the process of losing a brother to alcohol. He's sixty six and drinking himself to death.
This is nothing new, he's been a very heavy drinker for years with a ten year quit in AA.
But he's been back at it for another ten years. Drunk every day. As he was before AA.
Back when I was close to him, it made me take a look at my drinking, too.
I think this comparison and realization helped get me sober. I don't want to be like him.
He'll be dead soon, I have no doubt. But he very well may have saved my life.
I'm in the process of losing a brother to alcohol. He's sixty six and drinking himself to death.
This is nothing new, he's been a very heavy drinker for years with a ten year quit in AA.
But he's been back at it for another ten years. Drunk every day. As he was before AA.
Back when I was close to him, it made me take a look at my drinking, too.
I think this comparison and realization helped get me sober. I don't want to be like him.
He'll be dead soon, I have no doubt. But he very well may have saved my life.
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If you are a non-drinker again littlesister, you definitely don't have to justify it to anyone or be defensive about it. Us boozers are a pretty self-centered bunch but the reality is that in the vast majority of settings, nobody will care one bit what you are drinking. I was so concerned about the hew and cry that would surely follow my sobriety. Nobody that I haven't directly told has even noticed. Welcome here and keep on this post and letting us know how it is going. I am sorry about your brother. There is a harsh truth with alcoholism that some of us must die so that the rest of us can live. If his death helps others, it will not have been in vain.
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Congratulations on quitting, littlesister. I'm so sad for your reason, but happy you have decided to take a hard look at what alcohol is doing to your life. You're going to do this!
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Originally Posted by Ghostlight1 
I'm sorry for your lose, but can relate.
I'm in the process of losing a brother to alcohol. He's sixty six and drinking himself to death.
This is nothing new, he's been a very heavy drinker for years with a ten year quit in AA.
But he's been back at it for another ten years. Drunk every day. As he was before AA.
Back when I was close to him, it made me take a look at my drinking, too.
I think this comparison and realization helped get me sober. I don't want to be like him.
He'll be dead soon, I have no doubt. But he very well may have saved my life.
I'm in the process of losing a brother to alcohol. He's sixty six and drinking himself to death.
This is nothing new, he's been a very heavy drinker for years with a ten year quit in AA.
But he's been back at it for another ten years. Drunk every day. As he was before AA.
Back when I was close to him, it made me take a look at my drinking, too.
I think this comparison and realization helped get me sober. I don't want to be like him.
He'll be dead soon, I have no doubt. But he very well may have saved my life.
I know exactly what you mean.
I was fortunate that my brother was a mild and kind soul no matter what he was under the influence of.
But yes, I understand about saving our lives by witnessing this
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Originally Posted by Surrendered19
If you are a non-drinker again littlesister, you definitely don't have to justify it to anyone or be defensive about it. Us boozers are a pretty self-centered bunch but the reality is that in the vast majority of settings, nobody will care one bit what you are drinking. I was so concerned about the hew and cry that would surely follow my sobriety. Nobody that I haven't directly told has even noticed. Welcome here and keep on this post and letting us know how it is going. I am sorry about your brother. There is a harsh truth with alcoholism that some of us must die so that the rest of us can live. If his death helps others, it will not have been in vain.
I am going to keep scthum and if they ask I will tall the truth - it's for my health!
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