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Day 1
Bad drunk last night. Very upset about it also bad anxiety today and Deppression. Also lost money at casino last night.
I am now working for a mental health professional to self-exclude me from the casino and to take me to the Council drug and alcohol services.
God I wish I can get sober and maintain my sobriety. Life is not worth living when I am on alcohol, 23 years of alcohol abuse must now come to an end.
I am now working for a mental health professional to self-exclude me from the casino and to take me to the Council drug and alcohol services.
God I wish I can get sober and maintain my sobriety. Life is not worth living when I am on alcohol, 23 years of alcohol abuse must now come to an end.
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I wonder what the alcohol and drugs service will do to help me stay sober.
last time I went about 4 years ago it was a group thing and I did not get on well.
This time I will go for one to one councilling. I say this every time - I REALLY CANT GO THROUGH THIS again.
Would be nice to hear what made some of you stop and how you did it.
last time I went about 4 years ago it was a group thing and I did not get on well.
This time I will go for one to one councilling. I say this every time - I REALLY CANT GO THROUGH THIS again.
Would be nice to hear what made some of you stop and how you did it.
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what worked for you during your last stretch of sobriety?
and...
what part of your plan failed to keep that drink out of your hand?
Dee has a great thread about recovery plans:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post5314942 (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
Anna has an exceptional thread about recovery programs:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post5296889 (Recovery Programs & What to Expect (What We Did))
and...
what part of your plan failed to keep that drink out of your hand?
Dee has a great thread about recovery plans:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post5314942 (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
Anna has an exceptional thread about recovery programs:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post5296889 (Recovery Programs & What to Expect (What We Did))
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Got sober last year after a nasty experience also was getting into some bad things which I was afraid of.
What I think caused me to relapse was that things had improved so much I decided to come off anti depressants. I got bad insomnia which dragged down my mood and led me to relapse.
My relapse has a been about 4 months and 10 days.
I am also very isolated have no support network never had a partner and struggle badly with my employment. These things really make life difficult.
I suffer from from panic attacks after drinking and have done for a number of years.
Last night could of been a lot worse. I am grateful for that.
Chronic relapsing needs to stop here. I need this to be the last time and it will be.
Also I will be self-excluding from the casino.
What I think caused me to relapse was that things had improved so much I decided to come off anti depressants. I got bad insomnia which dragged down my mood and led me to relapse.
My relapse has a been about 4 months and 10 days.
I am also very isolated have no support network never had a partner and struggle badly with my employment. These things really make life difficult.
I suffer from from panic attacks after drinking and have done for a number of years.
Last night could of been a lot worse. I am grateful for that.
Chronic relapsing needs to stop here. I need this to be the last time and it will be.
Also I will be self-excluding from the casino.
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I had panic attacks and huge anxiety when I was drinking, too and it's miserable. I think you will feel much better when you stop drinking for good.
The alcohol and drug services could be a good support for you, but ultimately, it's you who has to make the decision to not drink, ever. SR can be a great support as could counselling, AA, whatever might help you. But, as I often say, I think it's motivation more than anything else. Have faith that YOU can do this.
The alcohol and drug services could be a good support for you, but ultimately, it's you who has to make the decision to not drink, ever. SR can be a great support as could counselling, AA, whatever might help you. But, as I often say, I think it's motivation more than anything else. Have faith that YOU can do this.
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Hi Stable,
I’m glad you’re taking steps to help you get sober. Were you able to get an appointment?
You should join the January of 2020 class, you will find others who have committed and recommitted to sobriety this month, and it’s a great way to build a support network. The January of 2016 class is the one the helped me reach four years of sobriety.
The 24 hour thread is another great place to go for support, you can check in each day.
I read lots of recovery books in the beginning, not sure how much free time you have with school, but there is a great sticky with a list of great titles.
I have found mindfulness to be another crucial part to my recovery, I work really hard to stay focused on the present. There are lots of apps and YouTube videos on this topic.
One last thing that really helps me is getting outdoors for a walk each day. The combination of nature and exercise helps me release any daily stresses.
I’m glad you’re taking steps to help you get sober. Were you able to get an appointment?
You should join the January of 2020 class, you will find others who have committed and recommitted to sobriety this month, and it’s a great way to build a support network. The January of 2016 class is the one the helped me reach four years of sobriety.
The 24 hour thread is another great place to go for support, you can check in each day.
I read lots of recovery books in the beginning, not sure how much free time you have with school, but there is a great sticky with a list of great titles.
I have found mindfulness to be another crucial part to my recovery, I work really hard to stay focused on the present. There are lots of apps and YouTube videos on this topic.
One last thing that really helps me is getting outdoors for a walk each day. The combination of nature and exercise helps me release any daily stresses.
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Originally Posted by Stable 
I wonder what the alcohol and drugs service will do to help me stay sober.
last time I went about 4 years ago it was a group thing and I did not get on well.
This time I will go for one to one councilling. I say this every time - I REALLY CANT GO THROUGH THIS again.
Would be nice to hear what made some of you stop and how you did it.
last time I went about 4 years ago it was a group thing and I did not get on well.
This time I will go for one to one councilling. I say this every time - I REALLY CANT GO THROUGH THIS again.
Would be nice to hear what made some of you stop and how you did it.
Edit: for me it was AA,on here daily and not drinking no matter what.
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I only have ten days of sobriety, and I have no idea how I managed it, really. Maybe it’s that I know I have wasted the majority of my life because of my involvement with alcohol. I am heading toward the final chapter of my life, and I figure I’ve had enough alcohol to last two lifetimes. I am thinking of it as, “I am giving myself the gift of sobriety” instead of “OMG I can’t believe I can’t have another drink again.” It seems to be working. As Dee says, you have to put together an entire program of action to support your decision, to make it as foolproof as possible, and don’t give in to that AV. I don’t know much, but that’s what I think at the moment. Good luck to you. You can do this.
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What made me stop having been a severe drunk or abusing alcohol for 33 years was, as opposed to your 23 years - urinating blood, black outs (also known as permanent neurological damage), diarrhea, ruined relationships, heart palpitations, nerve pain, sweating, losing years, puking, falling, drunk texting, drunk facebooking, humiliation, permanently damaging my career, losing trust of friends, my daughters crying because they can't wake me up, not being able to find my house. And on and on and on.
That's what awaits you in the next 10 years if you keep drinking. And worse after that I think, although I hope to never find out.
Living in Day 49 here, grateful, calm, quiet and clear-headed.
That's what awaits you in the next 10 years if you keep drinking. And worse after that I think, although I hope to never find out.
Living in Day 49 here, grateful, calm, quiet and clear-headed.
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I made my sobriety my number 1 priority. It was more important than anything else, and I did whatever I had to....every day. Sometimes that included;
Not going anywhere...rest
Pass on all parties....period.
Give dating a long break
Let go of regrets & guilt
Practice lot's of self care
Eat whatever I want...
This covered the first 1-3 months. Then I started working on bigger things,
My triggers
My emotions
My self worth
My career
My finances
My relationships
You can do this too. Let go of the fantasy that you will EVER find happiness in a bottle.....or a casino for that matter.
Not going anywhere...rest
Pass on all parties....period.
Give dating a long break
Let go of regrets & guilt
Practice lot's of self care
Eat whatever I want...
This covered the first 1-3 months. Then I started working on bigger things,
My triggers
My emotions
My self worth
My career
My finances
My relationships
You can do this too. Let go of the fantasy that you will EVER find happiness in a bottle.....or a casino for that matter.
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Join Date: Apr 2019
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I would not recommend going to casinos in general but just as a side note if you self exclude that does not really prevent you from going into the casino as they don't really monitor it if you lose but will take your winnings if you win.
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Hi Everyone
im now over 27 hours sober. Yesterday in work was horrendous with anxiety and stress.
I am mentally exhausted today so have called in and been granted a day off.
i have a meeting with my support worker whereby a plan of action we’ll be set out to address my alcohollism and gambling addictions.
I am glad to have a mental health professional help support me to make a plan of action.
Thanks everyone for your support. I feel it deep within that now is the time that I was successful quit and give myself the gift of sobriety.
im now over 27 hours sober. Yesterday in work was horrendous with anxiety and stress.
I am mentally exhausted today so have called in and been granted a day off.
i have a meeting with my support worker whereby a plan of action we’ll be set out to address my alcohollism and gambling addictions.
I am glad to have a mental health professional help support me to make a plan of action.
Thanks everyone for your support. I feel it deep within that now is the time that I was successful quit and give myself the gift of sobriety.
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