Ekohe

Had a slip, and I was 3 days away from 1 year. I didn't carrying on drinking luckily, and am in bed nursing a hangover. It's shown me what I wasn't missing, and that no matter how much time passes I will never be able to moderate.

Brushing myself off and getting back on the road sober.

Merry Christmas everyone

decchemist

Well done for getting straight back to recovery.

One of the (several) things that help keep me staight is my stubborn determination to not have to start my day count again. What led you to drink 3 days before the year was up?

ciowa

Congratulations on the time you've spent in recovery and for not continuing to drink. I know a lot of times when we relapse we think we can control it and/or we are chasing some fantasy about our past drinking time thats not accurate. Fantasy "when I drank it was so much fun and I created so many great memories" Reality "I lost control, blacked out and woke up with out of control anxiety and stress" Best wishes to you in getting back on a good path forward.

Ekohe

guess i was little too confident, listened to my AV a little too much. That being said, it answered a question i had of will I ever be able to reintroduce drinking back into my life, a very loud NO

I'm going to be going back to AA, and I will get help for my mental anxiety and depresssion as well.

Delilah1

Glad you came right back Ekohe.

faith823

Hello,
I am very glad you came right back. You learned a life lesson from your experience and nothing *terrible* has happened. I relapsed after a year and it took me many years to get back on track........
welcome back. post here for support.

Zebra1275

no matter how much time passes I will never be able to moderate.

Yep.

I did a similar thing after 5 and 1/2 years. Moderation for me is not an option, sounds like it isn't for you either.

PhoenixJ

Well done Ek. You stated what happened, what you will do- support to you.

Ekohe

Thanks everyone, yeah moderation is not viable for me as my first time drinking after the year turned into a 2 day binge. I'm dealing with the hangover and I know what to do as far as not trying to do it all alone. Glad to have support

Dee74

I'm glad you made it back Ekohe.

let this be the last time you need to learn this lesson.
You never have to feel this way again

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Ekohe

Having a bit of a rough day, would be one year sober, if I hadn't picked up a drink on the 23rd and 24th. I know the almost year sober is still great, and that I stopped instead of going into the usual "oh well I relapsed, might as well keep drinking" Mentality that I used to go into.

Feeling very down and full of anxiety today. ugh

August252015

Good job coming back to posting. Take this chance and make it permanent!

DontRemember

I did that around 9mo sober and came straight back here the next day and haven't had a drink since. I don't count days but, didn't reset my days or anything. I used it to add to my acceptance of the simple fact that I can't drink at all anymore.. period.

january161992

thats the ticket!

DriGuy

Ha! Confidence is important in recovery, but believing anything your AV tells you has nothing to do with confidence. You AV has absolutely nothing to say worth listening to. Real confidence does not rely on advice from such questionable sources.

We all have an AV. That's the part of your brain that doesn't work right. It's on the "fritz". The part of your brain that does work right is the rational part. It's the part of your brain that deals with reality. Your AV thinks it's in La la Land, and just makes up it's own reality.

Formy2boys2

Congrats on not letting a stumble spiral out of control. Almost a year is admirable. You've got this

Anna

Ekohe, I'm glad you're working through the anxiety and negative feelings because you know this is your AV pushing you towards drinking. Yes, you feel down today, but tomorrow will be better. You have a year of sobriety to lean on to help you move forward.