Day 1
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Join Date: Mar 2019
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Day 1
Awful day today one of the worst of my life. They were handing out bottles of wine in work for Christmas I took one. Thought well I’m going to drink anyway so why not but a bottle of buffalo trace bourbon whiskey and some cans.
Went home last night started drinking and in 3 hours was leaving for the casino. I got back 5 am and had to go to work.
Terrible panic attacks for most of the day. Spoke to a mental health nurse who has given me a number for some one to one alcohol councilling.
I never want to go through this again!
Went home last night started drinking and in 3 hours was leaving for the casino. I got back 5 am and had to go to work.
Terrible panic attacks for most of the day. Spoke to a mental health nurse who has given me a number for some one to one alcohol councilling.
I never want to go through this again!
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Location: Boston MA
Posts: 726
Hello,
Where did you see the mental health nurse? At work?
I am praying for you to find sobriety. Your posts are always (such as mine) are always filled with angst, anxiety , fear and panic after you drink.
Great job for posting and getting help. Putting down the drink and starting day 1
I know in the past I would have kept going on a bender.
You can do this. Try and rest today and drink a lot of water. Post here.
welcome back
Where did you see the mental health nurse? At work?
I am praying for you to find sobriety. Your posts are always (such as mine) are always filled with angst, anxiety , fear and panic after you drink.
Great job for posting and getting help. Putting down the drink and starting day 1
I know in the past I would have kept going on a bender.
You can do this. Try and rest today and drink a lot of water. Post here.
welcome back
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: UK
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Ah man I mostly think of AUD/alcoholism as an anxiety disorder now - there's no fear quite like the beer fear (or wine or whiskey or whatever).
Maybe throw yourself more into AA, if only to be around folks who know all about it.
Maybe throw yourself more into AA, if only to be around folks who know all about it.
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I have just thrown all the alcohol down the sink as instructed by my mental health nurse.
There is a drug and alcohol service in my city who will be giving me one to one counselling.
Also I phoned up waitrose to cancel my order which was for 2 bottles of whiskey. I told them I suffer from allcohollism and do not want it.
I recognise I cannot get sober on my own and I need help.
I also have information on how to self exclude myself from every casino in the UK, I don’t feel well enough to do it at the moment and will need some help.
Alcohol has made my life hell for over 20 years, it changes my brain and I make bad choices.
Things could have been worse. I won’t go through this again!
There is a drug and alcohol service in my city who will be giving me one to one counselling.
Also I phoned up waitrose to cancel my order which was for 2 bottles of whiskey. I told them I suffer from allcohollism and do not want it.
I recognise I cannot get sober on my own and I need help.
I also have information on how to self exclude myself from every casino in the UK, I don’t feel well enough to do it at the moment and will need some help.
Alcohol has made my life hell for over 20 years, it changes my brain and I make bad choices.
Things could have been worse. I won’t go through this again!
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Join Date: Mar 2019
Posts: 230
Just had a phone call from someone in AA to tell me someone from AA in my area will be ringing me up tomorrow morning.
I am a bit nervous I really am not keen on AA and have always found the meetings very difficult. Not sure what to do if I should take the call or not?
I am a bit nervous I really am not keen on AA and have always found the meetings very difficult. Not sure what to do if I should take the call or not?
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Location: Boston MA
Posts: 726
Originally Posted by Stable 
Just had a phone call from someone in AA to tell me someone from AA in my area will be ringing me up tomorrow morning.
I am a bit nervous I really am not keen on AA and have always found the meetings very difficult. Not sure what to do if I should take the call or not?
I am a bit nervous I really am not keen on AA and have always found the meetings very difficult. Not sure what to do if I should take the call or not?
Please go and accept the help. At least until you get your counseling.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
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Glad you’re taking active steps to help you stop drinking. It helps to have as much support as possible.
Have you joined any of the monthly classes on here? You can join the December 2019 class, and also the January 2020 when it starts. I found it helpful to have others at the same point in the recovery journey as me. I joined many classes, and the January 2016 class is the one that finally helped me to make sobriety stick, I will celebrate four years on January 1st, and still chat with the people who were in that class with me.
The 24 hour thread is another great place to check into, lots of support, and people committing to remaining sober for 24 hours each day.
Read and post a lot, and use the face to face help you have reached out to. Don’t wait until after you drink to post, if the thought pops into your head log on.
You can do this.
Have you joined any of the monthly classes on here? You can join the December 2019 class, and also the January 2020 when it starts. I found it helpful to have others at the same point in the recovery journey as me. I joined many classes, and the January 2016 class is the one that finally helped me to make sobriety stick, I will celebrate four years on January 1st, and still chat with the people who were in that class with me.
The 24 hour thread is another great place to check into, lots of support, and people committing to remaining sober for 24 hours each day.
Read and post a lot, and use the face to face help you have reached out to. Don’t wait until after you drink to post, if the thought pops into your head log on.
You can do this.
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Stable - You sound disgusted and ready to do this. We have to be convinced we can't touch a drop - seems like you're there. I'm very glad to see you considering every option - you'll be saving yourself from so much misery. Stay with us and let us know how you're doing. It helps with the anxiety to know you're among friends who understand & care.
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